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[macca_starr]

You know what? I've been lying to you guys. You keep asking me how I am and I say I'm ok. Well I'm not I'm am SOOOOOOOOO far from ok. I just dunno what is going on here. My biggest problem is I can't sleep. I haven't done for a while (not propley anyway)It's all cos of that stupid dream. It felt so real and now I'm too afraid to sleep. I have black

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[beatlebopperhyl]

if you think that i am going to leave you because of this, then you are crazy just think of all of the crap that I DO! are you having emotional trouble???? if so, you can talk to me about anything, you know that!!!!

hyl starr

[macca_starr]

Thanks Hyl I really do appericate that and I really dunno what is going on with me. I dunno why this is happening. I feel like a bigger freak than I already am. I know everyone keeps saying oh your not a freak well I sure as hell feel like one.

I'll try and get another phone card and try to call you later. I'll try and explain as best I can what is happening. The doc gave me a pill. I took it even though I have no idea what it is and I feel dizzy but I figured if the doc gave it to me it has to be safe right?

[beatlebopperhyl]

go ahead and take the pill, if the doc prescribed it, take it. i'll have the phone plugged up all night if you can call tonight. if not, just tell me when you're going to call and i'll have the phone on the hook - the cordless, so we can talk about whatever you need to talk about! you are there for me, i am here for you!!!!

and you're not a freak, but i know how you feel. you feel like you are and can't believe anyone...i feel like that all of the time.

I LOVE YOU!!!!

hyl starr

[macca_starr]

Well I did take it. I feel ok now. No idea what it was supposed to have done. Probably calm me dowm a bit or something.

Thanks Hyl. I apericate that a whole lot. I will try and call you tonight but I'm not sure if I can if not I will defo call you in the next week and I'll let you know when. It's just that I have a phone card but it doesn't have a whole lot of time left on it so I have to get a new one. So if not tonight deffo next week and I'll let you know when to see if it's alright.

Yeah that's exactly how I feel. It bothers me to feel like this. I'm usually good at ignoring these feelings and just getting on with thing but that doesn't seem to be wanting to work lately.

Love you too! Your like a sister to me 8^)

[beatlebopperhyl]

i am glad you are feeling better :) and i'm glad the pill helped!

you are like a sister to me too :)

hyl starr