State of the not-dropping drop meme
Doing this from work so no template in front of me. FLYING BY SEAT OF PANTS. Also, no "future plans" because I tend to... be stupidly spontaneous about those :(
Umeda
Dropping: NEVER.
...Okay, I hate saying "never" because in the past when I've said it I sometimes get into a state where I feel like I need to drop them within a couple months. But I actually feel fairly confident saying it with Umeda because I never feel tired out with him. A lot of characters I get into problems when they're motivated and none of their motivation can be worked towards in camp, but Umeda is -- this is terrible to say -- pretty much unmotivated, so he's cool.
In Camp, Umeda's... kinda grumpy still, kind of tired, but comfortable. Not the bad comfortable, but the one where he knows this place. He's got a fair idea how it works and his niche in it. Since that's pretty much how he approaches life in general, he's settled into it as routine. There are things he misses -- the obvious aside, his family and the guy he loves are naturally huge ones. But camp neither makes him suffer as badly as he complains about, nor makes him so comfortable he's happy, which leaves him in a pretty cope-able state overall.
OOCly, I'm happy with him. He's as comfortable for me as camp is for him -- I never get tired of him, but he doesn't feel like any pressure to play. I do play him less than I used to because I got most of my 'events' out with him (at least until new people show up or other things happen again), but it's a comfortable slightly lower comment count. He seems to be a good fit for both me and camp.
Marluxia
Dropping: Unlikely. I could live with it if I had to, without feeling horribly bad over it, but unlikely.
...if you'd asked me a few weeks ago, that'd have been 'likely'. But with the KH cast back in action, he's feeling comfortable for me again. A week or so ago, I had a moment where I broke through all the blockage that's been keeping me in the dumps for months and found myself exclaiming, "Thank GOD, I'm feeling Marly again!" Because I've never wanted to drop him, but for a while I felt like I SHOULD because I was so, so blocked on him.
ICly, Marluxia's really irritable right now. He's playing his usual game of Smiley Smiley I'm So Cool and Unrufflable, but he just wants to bitch bitch bitch. Naturally, Sora doesn't remember 'his' promise -- that means Marluxia's plans have unravelled, and Marluxia's plans unravelling makes him highly cross. On the other hand, it also... makes him feel excited in a way he hasn't in months and months and MONTHS, because this means he has to PLOT again.
OOCly, I'm feeling good about Marly. I still need to start jumping more posts again, but I moved from a position where I couldn't 'feel' him whenever I played with him even if I was still confident on his voice, but now I feel like I'm back there with him. Camp isn't always a good fit for Marly -- honestly, as a 'platform', it runs into the trouble I mentioned above, where he's got somuch motivation, and trying to reach that is his dominant THING, and he can't here, which leaves him frustrated and plugged up, which can sometimes transfer into me not knowing what to do with him in camp. But I feel like I've finally slipped back into place and can DO things with him again. I'm excited and happy and looking forward to getting him out. And very glad I didn't drop him with Hibari, as I'd been really tempted to.
the Riku Replica
Dropping: Unlikely but one of my most likely so far. On the upside, that means none are very likely? :/
I don't want to drop the replica. He's my BABY. I love him, I want to coddle him, and -- here! Have some ego! -- I think I'm pretty good at him. And I've actually had him out way more this last month than I had in months before it -- he drooped for a while, but activity-wise he's on his way back. What I'm struggling with now -- and what shuffles him towards the top of the somewhat unlikely drop list -- is that I feel like I'm miscommunicating with him. Like, that path between me and him is obscured, and even if I'm doing an okay voice I feel like I'm not working with him as 'closely' as I used to. Which makes me sound totally insane, I realize, but I guess it's like with Marly, where I was blocked even if I could do his voice. I don't feel blocked in the same way with the replica in that his motivation is a lot ...more loose, a lot driftier, and a lot more focussed on personal development rather than external actions. I think a lot of it is that I keep second-guessing elements but I'll get to that in a moment.
ICly, the replica is extremely stressed out and doesn't really feel like he has a place. He's never felt like he 'belongs' with the mafia crew, though he'll loudly CLAIM a place with them, and often feels like he's struggling to keep what he's claimed as his (...Zexion, om nom nom) and at the same time maintain a semblance of humanity in how he's got that element of "the other that is mine" in fitting into Zexion's little family structure while at the same time 'losing' him to these others. Which cycles back around to claiming that place with the mafia, because they've got a claim on Zexion, so if he's got a claim on the famiglia, he's got a claim on that side of things. He likes Tsuna, he likes the others, he doesn't like Gokudera, etc etc, but he never feels like it's home. Likewise, he desperately wants his place with Sora and Namine in the family he remembers SO VERY INTIMATELY but it doesn't exist and he's aware of that too and keeps separating even while he wants to draw close. LIKEWISE, his situation with the real RIku is complicated right now -- not the Riku he fought with, aggression-wise, and not the Riku that had been previously in camp, and he doens't know how to relate and doesn't WANT to relate to him and wants to be acknowledged by him and doesn't want to be LIKED by him and doens't want to be treated well and doesn't want to be treated badly and doesn't want to be ignored. Basically, his personal identity is in SHAMBLES and he doesn't know what to do.
OOCly, like I said, I'm doing a lot of second-guessing him. I LOVE having him in this shambley mess, but in all these cases, I can't anticipate the situation well -- What I SHOULD do is chat things out with the players while we play, but right now as he doesn't know "who this Riku is", I can't guess it for him, either, so he does a lot of wild careening around as I play him and I'm never 100% sure where he's going to fall. It makes planning threads akward -- like during th ehonesty post I stalled for a half hour because Riku and I had planned to play and I realized, as I went to reply, that the replica would REFUSE TO APPROACH HIM DIRECTLY; we ende dup working out a side route around with him talking to Zexion without noticing Fuura's comment at first and getting cornered into the honesty. But I hadn't realized that until things happened, so. I want to play him but I don't always know where I'm at with him -- apologies to anyone who make thread plans with me and then get horrible comment lag and/or long hilaaaaarious pauses before I jump them or whatever. :x
Heat
Dropping: NO.
For a while in there, before Serph came, but after our previous Cielo dropped, Heat got into a position where I was very near to dropping him. I probably would have if we hadn't got a Serph, to be honest, because he was stagnating for me. I loved the character, I had so many big dreams for him, but he wasn't making new relationships and I hadn't canon-updated him, and if I DID canon update him without any of the others around I felt like it'd taper out without his chance to work out his issues with/on people, so I felt stuck on him despite the fact he pretty much needed to canon-update to grow. But then we got a Serph! And I canon-updated in Serph's intro by Vritra'ing! And Vritraing made him meet a whole lot of new people! And issues with Serph rose and were worked out and WEREN"T worked out! And then he befriended Kuhn! And then the rest of Embryon came! And Sera! And, in short, I have never been in as awesome and good and open a position with Heat as I am now and you can pry him out of my cold dead hands.
ICly, he's in... a hugely complicated mental doki-doki confusion heartbeat wahhh place. He likes having his people here. He likes getting to ... be with Embryon again even if he feels that his past will always keep a wall between them. He feels really embarrassed about his situation with Serph but doesn't want to change it. He's getting closer to Sera and at the same time isn't actually doing it in the way he wants so he's both happy and conflicted. He's got a lot of friends here and is meeting new people and he's got enemies as well. Sometimes they cross over. All in all, Heat is in a good position without being in a conflict-free position. He's really, really hungry all the time, though.
OOCly, I haven't been better. It's awesome. I'm so happy. Play with Heat anytime. Ask me to jump you if I'm not out. I can play him without even having to think about it. We cool.
Lexaeus
Dropping: Unlikely. Not impossible, but no urge to.
Although Lexaeus is pretty much my backburner character -- a fact I usually feel horribly guilty about -- I don't for him, and it's not indicative of me feeling he's growing stale. He's just a quiet guy who doesn't have much of an 'urge' to hop people for conversation. What I should do is post a little more to make up for it, but he cool. He wasn't always -- I came pretty close to losing his voice early on, because I got him and within a couple of weeks, my HD died, making it next to impossible for me to RP. That lasted like... a month and a half before they FINALLy fixed my computer, which meant right at the point I needed to be establishing him, I couldn't. But I think things more or less worked out.
ICly, He's in an okay state in camp. Not great, naturally, in the trapped in camp sort of way, but unlike Marluxia and his crazy-ass goals, Lexaeus worked much more closely on projects relating to human memory and emotion and their ties to Nobodies, something he can still pay attention to in camp. Of course, it'd be good to get out and be able to work on the whole HEARTS things, but this isn't bad so far, and is actually an interesting enclosed environment to see how Nobodies are/are not changing when having to relate closely to 'hearted' constantly. I won't say he's enjoying himself, because he doesn't, but he's not more discontent than usual.
OOCly, I'm in a good place with him! Like I said, he's pretty quiet/backburner, but he still makes his comment count because I've generally got him out here or there, and he works well for making the occasional post, if not jumping people. Mentally, I still feel connected with the character and comfortable with his voice -- though I'm nervous about December's North American release of re:CoM to see if they changed his voice significantly in the translation/localization. Orz. Yeah. I'm nervous about that.
Jinana
Dropping: Minimal chance
There are characters I would rather break a few fingers than drop, and then there are characters I don't want to drop but wouldn't be too bothered if I HAD to. Jinana falls somewhere in the middle -- if I HAD to, I could drop her without feeling like I was gutting myself, but I sure wouldn't be okay with it either, because I feel like there's still so much to do, so many places to go. So she's pretty damn low down on the list.
ICly, she's feeling... not so great. As she's telling Kuhn, since Bat came she's worried Mick might come as well, and that feeling has enough fear/disgust with what he did and what happened to her that she's somewhat disgusted at herself for that sense of weakness. She's not sure what to do about Bat, or if she has the right to do anything about Bat, and is being super-cautious around people in case Bat would use them against her. She's very tense.
OOCly, I'm good with her! She's going through a complex period, but I'm enjoying playing her a looooot, so. Definitely working for me! She tends to fluxuate between one of my mains and closer to backburner by month instead of staying solidly in one place, but she just seems to work in waves like that for me.
The Collector Manikin
Dropping: No, but probably someday.
Although I got off to a bit of a rocky start with the Collector Manikin, mental disconnect, etc, I found my groove with him and he's doing well with no pressing urgent droppingness. I'm perfectly aware that he's probably someone who won't stick around forever with me, because he's primarily 'fun' play (with just enough trauma to keep things interesting), but he's not one I want to... well, baby like some of my other ones. For now, though, no drop in sight.
ICly, he's feeling kind of weird -- he just remembered (aka: canon updated) past the massacre of his people, and obviously that' sgoing to leave some lingering discontentment. I'm sticking with a sort of ... good-natured discomfort here because that's what we see in-game, with his "I THOUGHT I'D BE HAPPY BUT I KIND OF WANT TO LEAVE WITH YOU AND SEE THE WORLD". So he's not done much talking about what he remembers, and he's just... working with what he's got and trying to make the best of it, like he always does. Still, he's unsettled and kind of weirded out and wistful, even while he is sure you want to buy his watches.
OOCly, I just caught him up to prepare for Chiaki's arrival -- honestly, I should have learned from Heat that "the height of their arc" isn't always the best place to take them, and somewhere on the downward slope often has a lot more to work with. I'm glad to have caught him up even if I haven't played with it much yet -- and I'm sure I will once Chiaki intros. Definitely looking forward to that. Also, Chiaki, if you're reading it, I'm happy to have him demolished in as many ways as Chiaki might be inclined to; he saves. I'm feeling good on him; again, I'm perfectly aware I'll drop him eventually, but eventually's definitely not just yet.
Sakubo
Dropping: OH HELL NO.
The thought of dropping them hasn't even crossed my mind. I am so, so excited to have them -- I literally want to play with them CONSTANTLY. Even while juggling other characters, I consistantly want to toss them into some post or another. Biz has already laughed at me for exactly how many comments Sakubo racked up in September alone stop laughing Biz bawwww :( For me, having Sakubo is just so incredibly exciting. Cold dead hands, guys. Cold dead hands.
ICly, they're doing pretty well, though both have their own wistfullness tossed in with the good times. Bo is worried about the state of his body back home, whether or not he's causing his mom more trouble by being here, etc., but he's making friends and gets to spend all of his free time with the people he loves, so he's pretty happy despite it. He'd still go home because it's the right thing to do, but he's excited and hopeful. Saku gets to have a real body that feels real, reacts real, isn't just doll-anatomy polygons with textures slapped on top. She's not thinking of it in gendered terms, exactly, but hey, right now she's a real girl. And although she and Bo still share, now when she's actually out and about physically she doesn't feel like she's borrowing a body to do so. And Endrance is here (and Haseo sob) and Bo of course and she's making new friends, real ones, who know her condition and don't care, and she wants to stay. But she too would go if it came to it because Bo knows it's the right thing and she'll support Bo despite herself. She's ...also kind of sad in a way even she can't put into terms and I haven't fully figured out yet, but it has to do with not having an escapist platform while here -- one of the reasons she and Bo play is to pass as normal siblings who have to share a single computer, and she can't hide things here when she's spent her entire online career doing so. It's more like real life in that way, and Saku doesn't trust real life. It's a dead-end thing for her. So all those are combined to set up a pretty good situation but with a lot of underlying tensions and sadnesses.
OOCly, I couldn't be better hell yes. I'm secure, I'm happy, I love the state they're at, I want to have them out all the time. Booyah!
Umeda
Dropping: NEVER.
...Okay, I hate saying "never" because in the past when I've said it I sometimes get into a state where I feel like I need to drop them within a couple months. But I actually feel fairly confident saying it with Umeda because I never feel tired out with him. A lot of characters I get into problems when they're motivated and none of their motivation can be worked towards in camp, but Umeda is -- this is terrible to say -- pretty much unmotivated, so he's cool.
In Camp, Umeda's... kinda grumpy still, kind of tired, but comfortable. Not the bad comfortable, but the one where he knows this place. He's got a fair idea how it works and his niche in it. Since that's pretty much how he approaches life in general, he's settled into it as routine. There are things he misses -- the obvious aside, his family and the guy he loves are naturally huge ones. But camp neither makes him suffer as badly as he complains about, nor makes him so comfortable he's happy, which leaves him in a pretty cope-able state overall.
OOCly, I'm happy with him. He's as comfortable for me as camp is for him -- I never get tired of him, but he doesn't feel like any pressure to play. I do play him less than I used to because I got most of my 'events' out with him (at least until new people show up or other things happen again), but it's a comfortable slightly lower comment count. He seems to be a good fit for both me and camp.
Marluxia
Dropping: Unlikely. I could live with it if I had to, without feeling horribly bad over it, but unlikely.
...if you'd asked me a few weeks ago, that'd have been 'likely'. But with the KH cast back in action, he's feeling comfortable for me again. A week or so ago, I had a moment where I broke through all the blockage that's been keeping me in the dumps for months and found myself exclaiming, "Thank GOD, I'm feeling Marly again!" Because I've never wanted to drop him, but for a while I felt like I SHOULD because I was so, so blocked on him.
ICly, Marluxia's really irritable right now. He's playing his usual game of Smiley Smiley I'm So Cool and Unrufflable, but he just wants to bitch bitch bitch. Naturally, Sora doesn't remember 'his' promise -- that means Marluxia's plans have unravelled, and Marluxia's plans unravelling makes him highly cross. On the other hand, it also... makes him feel excited in a way he hasn't in months and months and MONTHS, because this means he has to PLOT again.
OOCly, I'm feeling good about Marly. I still need to start jumping more posts again, but I moved from a position where I couldn't 'feel' him whenever I played with him even if I was still confident on his voice, but now I feel like I'm back there with him. Camp isn't always a good fit for Marly -- honestly, as a 'platform', it runs into the trouble I mentioned above, where he's got somuch motivation, and trying to reach that is his dominant THING, and he can't here, which leaves him frustrated and plugged up, which can sometimes transfer into me not knowing what to do with him in camp. But I feel like I've finally slipped back into place and can DO things with him again. I'm excited and happy and looking forward to getting him out. And very glad I didn't drop him with Hibari, as I'd been really tempted to.
the Riku Replica
Dropping: Unlikely but one of my most likely so far. On the upside, that means none are very likely? :/
I don't want to drop the replica. He's my BABY. I love him, I want to coddle him, and -- here! Have some ego! -- I think I'm pretty good at him. And I've actually had him out way more this last month than I had in months before it -- he drooped for a while, but activity-wise he's on his way back. What I'm struggling with now -- and what shuffles him towards the top of the somewhat unlikely drop list -- is that I feel like I'm miscommunicating with him. Like, that path between me and him is obscured, and even if I'm doing an okay voice I feel like I'm not working with him as 'closely' as I used to. Which makes me sound totally insane, I realize, but I guess it's like with Marly, where I was blocked even if I could do his voice. I don't feel blocked in the same way with the replica in that his motivation is a lot ...more loose, a lot driftier, and a lot more focussed on personal development rather than external actions. I think a lot of it is that I keep second-guessing elements but I'll get to that in a moment.
ICly, the replica is extremely stressed out and doesn't really feel like he has a place. He's never felt like he 'belongs' with the mafia crew, though he'll loudly CLAIM a place with them, and often feels like he's struggling to keep what he's claimed as his (...Zexion, om nom nom) and at the same time maintain a semblance of humanity in how he's got that element of "the other that is mine" in fitting into Zexion's little family structure while at the same time 'losing' him to these others. Which cycles back around to claiming that place with the mafia, because they've got a claim on Zexion, so if he's got a claim on the famiglia, he's got a claim on that side of things. He likes Tsuna, he likes the others, he doesn't like Gokudera, etc etc, but he never feels like it's home. Likewise, he desperately wants his place with Sora and Namine in the family he remembers SO VERY INTIMATELY but it doesn't exist and he's aware of that too and keeps separating even while he wants to draw close. LIKEWISE, his situation with the real RIku is complicated right now -- not the Riku he fought with, aggression-wise, and not the Riku that had been previously in camp, and he doens't know how to relate and doesn't WANT to relate to him and wants to be acknowledged by him and doesn't want to be LIKED by him and doens't want to be treated well and doesn't want to be treated badly and doesn't want to be ignored. Basically, his personal identity is in SHAMBLES and he doesn't know what to do.
OOCly, like I said, I'm doing a lot of second-guessing him. I LOVE having him in this shambley mess, but in all these cases, I can't anticipate the situation well -- What I SHOULD do is chat things out with the players while we play, but right now as he doesn't know "who this Riku is", I can't guess it for him, either, so he does a lot of wild careening around as I play him and I'm never 100% sure where he's going to fall. It makes planning threads akward -- like during th ehonesty post I stalled for a half hour because Riku and I had planned to play and I realized, as I went to reply, that the replica would REFUSE TO APPROACH HIM DIRECTLY; we ende dup working out a side route around with him talking to Zexion without noticing Fuura's comment at first and getting cornered into the honesty. But I hadn't realized that until things happened, so. I want to play him but I don't always know where I'm at with him -- apologies to anyone who make thread plans with me and then get horrible comment lag and/or long hilaaaaarious pauses before I jump them or whatever. :x
Heat
Dropping: NO.
For a while in there, before Serph came, but after our previous Cielo dropped, Heat got into a position where I was very near to dropping him. I probably would have if we hadn't got a Serph, to be honest, because he was stagnating for me. I loved the character, I had so many big dreams for him, but he wasn't making new relationships and I hadn't canon-updated him, and if I DID canon update him without any of the others around I felt like it'd taper out without his chance to work out his issues with/on people, so I felt stuck on him despite the fact he pretty much needed to canon-update to grow. But then we got a Serph! And I canon-updated in Serph's intro by Vritra'ing! And Vritraing made him meet a whole lot of new people! And issues with Serph rose and were worked out and WEREN"T worked out! And then he befriended Kuhn! And then the rest of Embryon came! And Sera! And, in short, I have never been in as awesome and good and open a position with Heat as I am now and you can pry him out of my cold dead hands.
ICly, he's in... a hugely complicated mental doki-doki confusion heartbeat wahhh place. He likes having his people here. He likes getting to ... be with Embryon again even if he feels that his past will always keep a wall between them. He feels really embarrassed about his situation with Serph but doesn't want to change it. He's getting closer to Sera and at the same time isn't actually doing it in the way he wants so he's both happy and conflicted. He's got a lot of friends here and is meeting new people and he's got enemies as well. Sometimes they cross over. All in all, Heat is in a good position without being in a conflict-free position. He's really, really hungry all the time, though.
OOCly, I haven't been better. It's awesome. I'm so happy. Play with Heat anytime. Ask me to jump you if I'm not out. I can play him without even having to think about it. We cool.
Lexaeus
Dropping: Unlikely. Not impossible, but no urge to.
Although Lexaeus is pretty much my backburner character -- a fact I usually feel horribly guilty about -- I don't for him, and it's not indicative of me feeling he's growing stale. He's just a quiet guy who doesn't have much of an 'urge' to hop people for conversation. What I should do is post a little more to make up for it, but he cool. He wasn't always -- I came pretty close to losing his voice early on, because I got him and within a couple of weeks, my HD died, making it next to impossible for me to RP. That lasted like... a month and a half before they FINALLy fixed my computer, which meant right at the point I needed to be establishing him, I couldn't. But I think things more or less worked out.
ICly, He's in an okay state in camp. Not great, naturally, in the trapped in camp sort of way, but unlike Marluxia and his crazy-ass goals, Lexaeus worked much more closely on projects relating to human memory and emotion and their ties to Nobodies, something he can still pay attention to in camp. Of course, it'd be good to get out and be able to work on the whole HEARTS things, but this isn't bad so far, and is actually an interesting enclosed environment to see how Nobodies are/are not changing when having to relate closely to 'hearted' constantly. I won't say he's enjoying himself, because he doesn't, but he's not more discontent than usual.
OOCly, I'm in a good place with him! Like I said, he's pretty quiet/backburner, but he still makes his comment count because I've generally got him out here or there, and he works well for making the occasional post, if not jumping people. Mentally, I still feel connected with the character and comfortable with his voice -- though I'm nervous about December's North American release of re:CoM to see if they changed his voice significantly in the translation/localization. Orz. Yeah. I'm nervous about that.
Jinana
Dropping: Minimal chance
There are characters I would rather break a few fingers than drop, and then there are characters I don't want to drop but wouldn't be too bothered if I HAD to. Jinana falls somewhere in the middle -- if I HAD to, I could drop her without feeling like I was gutting myself, but I sure wouldn't be okay with it either, because I feel like there's still so much to do, so many places to go. So she's pretty damn low down on the list.
ICly, she's feeling... not so great. As she's telling Kuhn, since Bat came she's worried Mick might come as well, and that feeling has enough fear/disgust with what he did and what happened to her that she's somewhat disgusted at herself for that sense of weakness. She's not sure what to do about Bat, or if she has the right to do anything about Bat, and is being super-cautious around people in case Bat would use them against her. She's very tense.
OOCly, I'm good with her! She's going through a complex period, but I'm enjoying playing her a looooot, so. Definitely working for me! She tends to fluxuate between one of my mains and closer to backburner by month instead of staying solidly in one place, but she just seems to work in waves like that for me.
The Collector Manikin
Dropping: No, but probably someday.
Although I got off to a bit of a rocky start with the Collector Manikin, mental disconnect, etc, I found my groove with him and he's doing well with no pressing urgent droppingness. I'm perfectly aware that he's probably someone who won't stick around forever with me, because he's primarily 'fun' play (with just enough trauma to keep things interesting), but he's not one I want to... well, baby like some of my other ones. For now, though, no drop in sight.
ICly, he's feeling kind of weird -- he just remembered (aka: canon updated) past the massacre of his people, and obviously that' sgoing to leave some lingering discontentment. I'm sticking with a sort of ... good-natured discomfort here because that's what we see in-game, with his "I THOUGHT I'D BE HAPPY BUT I KIND OF WANT TO LEAVE WITH YOU AND SEE THE WORLD". So he's not done much talking about what he remembers, and he's just... working with what he's got and trying to make the best of it, like he always does. Still, he's unsettled and kind of weirded out and wistful, even while he is sure you want to buy his watches.
OOCly, I just caught him up to prepare for Chiaki's arrival -- honestly, I should have learned from Heat that "the height of their arc" isn't always the best place to take them, and somewhere on the downward slope often has a lot more to work with. I'm glad to have caught him up even if I haven't played with it much yet -- and I'm sure I will once Chiaki intros. Definitely looking forward to that. Also, Chiaki, if you're reading it, I'm happy to have him demolished in as many ways as Chiaki might be inclined to; he saves. I'm feeling good on him; again, I'm perfectly aware I'll drop him eventually, but eventually's definitely not just yet.
Sakubo
Dropping: OH HELL NO.
The thought of dropping them hasn't even crossed my mind. I am so, so excited to have them -- I literally want to play with them CONSTANTLY. Even while juggling other characters, I consistantly want to toss them into some post or another. Biz has already laughed at me for exactly how many comments Sakubo racked up in September alone stop laughing Biz bawwww :( For me, having Sakubo is just so incredibly exciting. Cold dead hands, guys. Cold dead hands.
ICly, they're doing pretty well, though both have their own wistfullness tossed in with the good times. Bo is worried about the state of his body back home, whether or not he's causing his mom more trouble by being here, etc., but he's making friends and gets to spend all of his free time with the people he loves, so he's pretty happy despite it. He'd still go home because it's the right thing to do, but he's excited and hopeful. Saku gets to have a real body that feels real, reacts real, isn't just doll-anatomy polygons with textures slapped on top. She's not thinking of it in gendered terms, exactly, but hey, right now she's a real girl. And although she and Bo still share, now when she's actually out and about physically she doesn't feel like she's borrowing a body to do so. And Endrance is here (and Haseo sob) and Bo of course and she's making new friends, real ones, who know her condition and don't care, and she wants to stay. But she too would go if it came to it because Bo knows it's the right thing and she'll support Bo despite herself. She's ...also kind of sad in a way even she can't put into terms and I haven't fully figured out yet, but it has to do with not having an escapist platform while here -- one of the reasons she and Bo play is to pass as normal siblings who have to share a single computer, and she can't hide things here when she's spent her entire online career doing so. It's more like real life in that way, and Saku doesn't trust real life. It's a dead-end thing for her. So all those are combined to set up a pretty good situation but with a lot of underlying tensions and sadnesses.
OOCly, I couldn't be better hell yes. I'm secure, I'm happy, I love the state they're at, I want to have them out all the time. Booyah!