[FANFIC] Secrets
Title: Secrets
Pairing: YamaShi
Author: macy
Genre: Fluff, Romance
Rating: G
AN:
- unbetaed, rushed
- alternative title: Macy's Procrastination. haha
- inspired by a Daa! Daa! Daa! fanfic. xD
- lame ending is lame.
- last day of exams tomorrow. will reply to comments then. ^^
Ryosuke's POV
I almost jumped when my cellphone suddenly vibrated. And the panic that took over me when I saw who was calling...
It was Mirai, my girlfriend for these past six years. I hesitate to answer the phone. You see, I'm in a situation right now and I have been avoiding Mirai for a fortnight. I'm really just feeling a bit on edge these past few days.
But I do miss her... I miss her so bad. It wouldn't hurt if we just talked through the phone right?
Before I could change my mind, I answered my phone. I had to smile when I heard her voice. I miss her so bad even though I just didn't see her for four days.
"Ryosuke, are you busy?" She asked at once. I felt guilty at that.
"No." I told her quickly. "Sorry, I couldn't answer quickly."
"No, it's okay." She said, and I imagine her smiling. "Where are you now?" She asked.
"I'm on my way to my parent's house." I told her. Okay, I lied. I really am just in my condo unit, but I think it's not safe to say that. She might want to meet up. We live near each other, you see.
"Ah, I wanted to show you something." She said,sounding a bit disappointed.
And the guilt continue to gnaw on me. "I'm really sorry." I told her, apologizing rather for lying.
"It's okay. I just wanted to show you what I found through my old stuffs." She said, and I could hear snapping sounds; like she's looking through papers or something.
"What did you find?" I asked her with a smile.
"Your old notebook." She said,
"Eh?" I uttered, perplexed. She laughed, and I couldn't help but smile once more.
"Do you remember your notebook in high school? I think this was from our 1st year..." She said and I could hear her again flipping a page. She was giggling.
"What's with it?" I asked, chuckling a bit myself.
"Just your scribbles." She said, and suddenly she laughed. I could feel my face heat up. First year... what did I write on my notebook in first year?! First year... In first year, Mirai still didn't know about my feelings... Oh jeez, what did I write?! I can't remember! I'm guessing they're embarrassing though, with Mirai's laughter.
"I'm guessing Yuto or Chii placed this with my things before graduation." She continued to say. "I can't believe I only saw it today." She said, gleefully.
I'm guessing she's right. Ugh, I might kill those two.
"Ne, can we meet this week?" She asked. The guilt returned.
"Ah, I don't know Mirai-chan..." I said quietly.
"Hm, Well, it doesn't matter. I'll just give this to Miyuu so she could give it to Misaki, okay? Miyuu's here right now. She's just about to go to her university. I'll ask her to tell Misaki to give you the notebook." She said. Miyuu, Mirai's little sister and Misaki, my little sister are classmates in university.
"Eh? Ah, no. It's okay. You can keep it." I told her hastily. I have a feeling I won't really like what's inside that notebook.
"No, I want you to read it. Promise me you'll read it??" She said with her pleading voice. I could imagine her face. Ugh, I'm whipped.
I sighed. "Well, okay... I'll read it." I said, defeated.
"Promise me." She demanded.
"Hai hai. I promise I'll read the notebook." I said.
"Then, I'll hung up now, ne? Chie-san will be arriving any minute now." She said.
"Ah, hai." I said, a bit taken.
"I love you."
"I love you, too." I said, and she hung up.
I sighed as I put my phone down. This is really exhausting,.. keeping secrets from Mirai is tiresome.
I decided I would just really go to my parent's home, or else Mirai will know I lied. Besides, my mom had been asking for me to visit.
Not very enthusiastically, I got up and changed my clothes.
About an hour later, I arrived at home, carrying with me a shortcake as an omiage. It was Kuu and Cookie who welcomed me.
"Wah, I missed you guys~"
"Ryosuke!" Someone called.
I looked up and smiled. "Hey, mom."
"Okaeri." She said, smiling.
"Tadaima."
I spent the afternoon hours talking to my mom. I did miss her. I appreciate her better now that I'm living alone. It must have been hard raising three children.
"So, how's Mirai-chan?" She asked, as she pour me tea.
"Just fine. Still as busy as ever." I told her as I took my cup and sip.
"And what about that other thing... Have you told her?" She asked.
I looked at her sheepishly.
She sighed at me in exasperation.
"Really, Ryosuke, what are you still waiting for?" She asked me, and it was a bit annoying to see amusement in her eyes.
"I... I don't know. I just can't do it. Everytime I try, something interrupts..." I said quietly, my face burning.
My mother laughed lightly.
"Just ask her, or," She stopped. "Just ask her. Don't estimate her." She said mysteriously and then left me in the living room saying she'll start preparing for dinner. I didn't understand what she meant. Women.
I sighed when my mother was already out of earshot. "I just can't..." I said in a whisper, frustrated.
Well here's the thing. We'd been going out for years now and I'd love her even longer than that. We're both of age now, and I think we're both ready. The thing is, I just don't have the guts to pop her the question. It's not that I think she'll reject me, but I don't know... it's just so hard!!
I've been thinking about it since last year. We've talked about this before too, of course. Mirai and I are very open to each other. That's why lying to her is such a torture.
I remember I was even afraid of our circumstances. We were both a celebrity, and our relationship isn't really what you'd call 'official', and I was afraid of what asking her would mean to us with regards to our career. Surprisingly enough, it was Ryuu who listened and gave me advice.
"Why don't you ask Johnny-san first?" He had told me.
"That's a bit..."
"Well, you've" he made quotation marks in the air "'asked' him for permission before you asked Shida-chan out." He pointed out.
This is not necessarily true. We've been seeing each other since our third year in high school, but we were discreet. Two years after we graduated I had asked Johnny-san's advice about 'wanting to ask Shida Mirai out.' Eventually he said it was okay (He's getting old- well, older, I know.). We were already going out, but at this point it became more convenient for us since after telling Johnny-san, and after his 'go' signal, Mirai had also told her agency. And we could be more at ease at work.
Rumors spread about us, that was unavoidable, but our agencies' official statement is that we're close friends. And how can we not be friends if we were high school classmates.
"It took four months before Johnny-san agreed." I told Ryuu. "How many years would it take for him to agree with this?" I asked him skeptically.
Ryuu shrug. "Just try. It'll be better than upsetting him. You know that. Besides, you're he's golden boy, and you've been obedient forever. He'll be lenient."
And doubtful, I did it anyway. I asked Johnny about it and he told me he'll think about it. I was sure it would take months, years maybe before he agreed so it was a bit of a shock when two weeks later he told me it's okay but to wait for the next season.
Turned out, he was planning a drama for the two of us. The drama passed, more rumors about us came (both our agencies ignored them this time), Johnny-san already gave an 'okay', I've already bought the ring... but I still can't do it.
Not that I haven't tried. The first time, we were eating at a restaurant and I almost told her, but then Chie-san had called saying they needed Mirai in the HQ.
I planned on asking her during one of Hey! Say! JUMP's performance but then something came up and she couldn't come.
And I tried again during Valentines but then someone suddenly called. I found out from a squealing Mirai that Suzuka had just came back from America and that we needed to "go to the airport now!"
And now, I just can't do it anymore. I think I've used up all my courage.
I must have really been deep in thought because I literally jumped when someone hugged me from the back.
"Niichan!!"
"Misaki~! Mou! You'll give me a heart attack!" I told her.
She laughed. "You looked so serious!" She said.
I shook my head at her.
"Tadaima~!" She singsonged, grinning broadly.
"Okaeri." I told her dryly.
"Here." She said, tossing me a package. "Mirai-nee told Miyuu to tell me to give it to you." She said and then dropped her bag in the living room and started for the stairs.
"Call me when dinner's ready." She said as she ascended, yawning. It must be hard being a university student.
I shook my head once more, exasperated.
I sighed and return to my seat. I opened the package and had to smile when I saw a familiar notebook.
It was really my notebook in high school, but I still can't remember what I wrote in there. It looked old now.
I opened it and had to groan at what my eyes caught.
On the first page was the words: 'YamaShi Secrets'
It was Yuto's handwriting. I'm really gonna kill that guy. I thought of just throwing the notebook cause I knew I'll just be embarrass if I saw what inside, but I had promised Mirai so I just flipped to the next page.
I couldn't help but moan this time.
So this is why Mirai was laughing.
It really was my scribbles... and all my feelings were poured in there.
Written on the top of the page was: 'Yama-chan's Secret'
This time it was definitely Chii's handwriting.
I really wrote these, but maybe unconsciously. The words were scattered all over the notebook in different pages. It was barely readable, squish between notes and on the corners of the pages but Chii had make it a point to highlight them and even number them.
1. I can't believe I'm jealous of freaking tuna.
That was the first thing I read.
2. The only time I ever feel right is when I'm with her.
There were so many of them.
7. Yamada Mirai
11. I hate this industry! I hate rumors! Nishiuchi is just a friend! But now Mirai-chan thinks otherwise!!
23. I can't believe there are actually 'YamaShi' fans... that's surprising.
41. Stupid Chii! I won't confess to her just because Umika is begging you to beg me!
45. I'm gonna kill Yuto! He gave BEST pictures of me and Mirai!
59. I think I'm falling more and more.
66. She actually gave me chocolates! I'm so happy!
74. SHE SAID YES! I CAN DIE NOW, SHE SAID YES!
81. I do have a mother complex... haha. 14 year old mother complex.
89. He didn't let me audition for Blackboard!!
I couldn't help but feel so very embarrassed as I read them. Mirai read all of this. Ugh, someone just kill me.
On the last page was:
112. Graduation tomorrow... I still don't want to say goodbye to this school. To what we have here.
I had to smile. I was so worried then, but in the end, everything turned out well.
I was about to close the notebook when I noticed there was still some pages left. They were folded neatly.
I unfolded it and chuckled when I saw my friends' handwriting.
There were more... but this time, written at the top of the page of 'YamaShi Secrets'
All entries were listed neatly now. I started reading.
I've always known there's something about them. Ever since our TGQ! Haha. Yama-chan's that transparent. I'm rooting for you guys~! -Miki
I was surprised at this. Actually, I thought he had a thing with Mirai during TGQ. I never knew about this.
During their first date ever, Ryosuke brought Mirai to her favorite place, Disneyland~! -Ayano
Well, she would know, she helped me place the tickets in Mirai's locker. I am missing 3D now...
I actually had a crush on Mirai, first year. But seeing Ryosuke like that. I knew my feelings were no match! lols. He's whipped! XD -Chii
Seriously?! I never knew that!!
I still can't forget how Yama-chan glared at me after Mirai-chan's and my drama, Sotsu no Uta. I think that might have scarred me for life. -Jingi
Oh, I didn't really mean that. I was more frustrated than angry. Sorry, man.
Sometimes I can't help but feel threatened of Ryosuke. It just feels like he's stealing my best friend away from me! -Suzuka
Well, she was very open about this. She actually threatens me to keep away from Mirai. She's a bit overprotective.
Mirai-chan always enjoys matchmaking her friends. Shougo and I are one of her 'victims.' She's really dense. She's so busy with her friend's love lives she doesn't notice hers. -Nozomi
I laughed at this. This is very true.
My camera were always filled with YamaShi pictures. I've always thought I'd be rich if I was a paparazzo. LOL. -Rima
Oh yeah, our number one camera man. She actually gave me a copy of all our pictures just before graduation.
My first impression of the two was, "Mirai-chan acts like Yamada's okaasan." First impression never lasts though, and I think it'll be forever in my head that 'Mirai-chan acts like Yamada-okusan.'
So that's why she calls Mirai my 'okasaan.'
Having told Yama-chan the sentence 'I like Shida-sempai' is a mistake I would never do again. -Ryuu
Oh, I remember that. Haha. I knew he was joking of course.
I was the only one Yama-chan admitted his feelings for Mirai-chan to. But I wasn't the only one who knows. The whole class could tell. -Yuto
I was that obvious?!!
It was very distracting, the way he stares. And it's also disconcerting that he does it the whole day. Sometimes I just wish I wasn't seated between Mirai-chan and Yama-chan.
Jeez, I must have been like a stalker or something.......
I've always teased Mirai-chan with Ryosuke. When it was just us girls, I call Mirai-chan 'Mama' and refer to Yama-chan as 'Papa.' -Umika
Ehh??? I didn't know this!! So does this mean, she'd like me all along, too???
There were more, but it were the last ones that got my attention.
It was true, I did like Ryosuke. But just as a fan. It was frustrating when the rumor came out. I hate to be the reason of YamaShi not happening~! :< -Mariya
Nishiuchi is here too??? When was this???
I remember when thirteen years old Yama-chan went to me looking all fidgety and anxious. I knew at once what to tell him: 'The rumor is not true. Shida-san and I are not dating.' -Hikaru
Hikaru. So it's really those two who did this. I will really kill them!
I always wanted an oniichan, it came true when Nee-chan brought Ryo-nii home and introduced him to the family. -Miyuu
Miyuu????? Shida Miyuu?!?!
And I always wanted a twin sister~!! And Miyuu is just perfect! Just marry already, you two! -Misaki
And even Misaki?!
'Turn to the next page.' was written at the bottom. And I knew who the handwriting belongs to.
Mirai.
I turned the next page and saw more of her handwriting.
So since I've read about Yamada's Secrets, I though it'd just be fair that you know about Shida's Secrets as well. So here's my list.
I didn't know why, but I felt a bit nervous as I read.
1. I love you more than I love tuna, you dummy.
2. Yes, I've had a crush on you since TGQ. Since TGQ SP, even. You were just dense.
I laugh at that, feeling very light headed.
3. No, I am not dense. I knew you felt something, too, you were too obvious... but I was waiting for you you know.
4. You were very obvious even Ishihara Satomi-san knew. She wouldn't stop teasing me during our Bull Doctor.
5. I believed the rumor about Mariya-chan, though. I... well, I actually cried then. Now don't you go start feeling guilty! That's in the past already!
6. I actually named that stuffed hippo after you.
7. Sometimes your fanservice with the other members get to me. LOL, silly, I know.
8. I was talking about you when I said 'voice that cracks' makes my heart go doki-doki.
9. You are a dork at times but you are cool most of the time even though you don't try.
10. The only time that I ever felt complete is when I'm with you.
11. When it's just me and Umika, I call you 'Papa' as well. It's our little secret.
12. Yuto actually knew that I knew that you like me. Don't kill him, he's one of your best friends.
13. I get jealous easily, I just don't show it.
14. It actually makes me smile when you're jealous over whoever is my current leading man.
15. I really mean it when I said you are my leading man in real life.
16. I never missed any of your performance. Even before we were together.
17. I love seeing you perform, you're just so happy.
18. Imagined how giddy I am when I found about our birthdays. 'Destiny' was ringing in my head. I am such a fangirl. Haha.
19. I always say that I don't think about love very much. That was a lie.
20. I never told you but whenever it rains, I remember that kiss in the zoo during that rainy day.
The list went on and on and I don't know, my feelings were mixed up. These were things I never knew before. Mirai poured all her feelings in writing the list.
I read and I read until it was just the last two:
49. I have more, but I have limited space here and I think we can talk about those if we want to.
50. Confession to make: I knew about your plan. Kudos to Yuto and Chii. Don't kill them-
That made me stop. THOSE. TWO. HOW CAN I NOT KILL THEM?! THEY RUINED IT!
But there were more things written.
-and keep reading! I also knew you tried asking me and I know I am partly at fault that didn't turn well. But it's just stupid to avoid me. And since you and I are not getting any younger and I've been waiting for this since forever, I'll do the honors.
Yamada Ryosuke, will you marry me?n
Oh.......
I might not kill those two afterall.
And there was one more line at the bottom of the page.
51. I rather liked the way 'Yamada Mirai' sounded, as well.
AN:
- inspired by YamaShi FB group's YamaShi Secrets (most of these are from there~ :DD)
- you imagine what ryuu is doing here. whether he's back with jump, university, or whatever. i have my own version of his story in my mind... and that goes for the rest of 3d as well. xD
Thanks for reading~
Pairing: YamaShi
Author: macy
Genre: Fluff, Romance
Rating: G
AN:
- unbetaed, rushed
- alternative title: Macy's Procrastination. haha
- inspired by a Daa! Daa! Daa! fanfic. xD
- lame ending is lame.
- last day of exams tomorrow. will reply to comments then. ^^
Ryosuke's POV
I almost jumped when my cellphone suddenly vibrated. And the panic that took over me when I saw who was calling...
It was Mirai, my girlfriend for these past six years. I hesitate to answer the phone. You see, I'm in a situation right now and I have been avoiding Mirai for a fortnight. I'm really just feeling a bit on edge these past few days.
But I do miss her... I miss her so bad. It wouldn't hurt if we just talked through the phone right?
Before I could change my mind, I answered my phone. I had to smile when I heard her voice. I miss her so bad even though I just didn't see her for four days.
"Ryosuke, are you busy?" She asked at once. I felt guilty at that.
"No." I told her quickly. "Sorry, I couldn't answer quickly."
"No, it's okay." She said, and I imagine her smiling. "Where are you now?" She asked.
"I'm on my way to my parent's house." I told her. Okay, I lied. I really am just in my condo unit, but I think it's not safe to say that. She might want to meet up. We live near each other, you see.
"Ah, I wanted to show you something." She said,sounding a bit disappointed.
And the guilt continue to gnaw on me. "I'm really sorry." I told her, apologizing rather for lying.
"It's okay. I just wanted to show you what I found through my old stuffs." She said, and I could hear snapping sounds; like she's looking through papers or something.
"What did you find?" I asked her with a smile.
"Your old notebook." She said,
"Eh?" I uttered, perplexed. She laughed, and I couldn't help but smile once more.
"Do you remember your notebook in high school? I think this was from our 1st year..." She said and I could hear her again flipping a page. She was giggling.
"What's with it?" I asked, chuckling a bit myself.
"Just your scribbles." She said, and suddenly she laughed. I could feel my face heat up. First year... what did I write on my notebook in first year?! First year... In first year, Mirai still didn't know about my feelings... Oh jeez, what did I write?! I can't remember! I'm guessing they're embarrassing though, with Mirai's laughter.
"I'm guessing Yuto or Chii placed this with my things before graduation." She continued to say. "I can't believe I only saw it today." She said, gleefully.
I'm guessing she's right. Ugh, I might kill those two.
"Ne, can we meet this week?" She asked. The guilt returned.
"Ah, I don't know Mirai-chan..." I said quietly.
"Hm, Well, it doesn't matter. I'll just give this to Miyuu so she could give it to Misaki, okay? Miyuu's here right now. She's just about to go to her university. I'll ask her to tell Misaki to give you the notebook." She said. Miyuu, Mirai's little sister and Misaki, my little sister are classmates in university.
"Eh? Ah, no. It's okay. You can keep it." I told her hastily. I have a feeling I won't really like what's inside that notebook.
"No, I want you to read it. Promise me you'll read it??" She said with her pleading voice. I could imagine her face. Ugh, I'm whipped.
I sighed. "Well, okay... I'll read it." I said, defeated.
"Promise me." She demanded.
"Hai hai. I promise I'll read the notebook." I said.
"Then, I'll hung up now, ne? Chie-san will be arriving any minute now." She said.
"Ah, hai." I said, a bit taken.
"I love you."
"I love you, too." I said, and she hung up.
I sighed as I put my phone down. This is really exhausting,.. keeping secrets from Mirai is tiresome.
I decided I would just really go to my parent's home, or else Mirai will know I lied. Besides, my mom had been asking for me to visit.
Not very enthusiastically, I got up and changed my clothes.
About an hour later, I arrived at home, carrying with me a shortcake as an omiage. It was Kuu and Cookie who welcomed me.
"Wah, I missed you guys~"
"Ryosuke!" Someone called.
I looked up and smiled. "Hey, mom."
"Okaeri." She said, smiling.
"Tadaima."
I spent the afternoon hours talking to my mom. I did miss her. I appreciate her better now that I'm living alone. It must have been hard raising three children.
"So, how's Mirai-chan?" She asked, as she pour me tea.
"Just fine. Still as busy as ever." I told her as I took my cup and sip.
"And what about that other thing... Have you told her?" She asked.
I looked at her sheepishly.
She sighed at me in exasperation.
"Really, Ryosuke, what are you still waiting for?" She asked me, and it was a bit annoying to see amusement in her eyes.
"I... I don't know. I just can't do it. Everytime I try, something interrupts..." I said quietly, my face burning.
My mother laughed lightly.
"Just ask her, or," She stopped. "Just ask her. Don't estimate her." She said mysteriously and then left me in the living room saying she'll start preparing for dinner. I didn't understand what she meant. Women.
I sighed when my mother was already out of earshot. "I just can't..." I said in a whisper, frustrated.
Well here's the thing. We'd been going out for years now and I'd love her even longer than that. We're both of age now, and I think we're both ready. The thing is, I just don't have the guts to pop her the question. It's not that I think she'll reject me, but I don't know... it's just so hard!!
I've been thinking about it since last year. We've talked about this before too, of course. Mirai and I are very open to each other. That's why lying to her is such a torture.
I remember I was even afraid of our circumstances. We were both a celebrity, and our relationship isn't really what you'd call 'official', and I was afraid of what asking her would mean to us with regards to our career. Surprisingly enough, it was Ryuu who listened and gave me advice.
"Why don't you ask Johnny-san first?" He had told me.
"That's a bit..."
"Well, you've" he made quotation marks in the air "'asked' him for permission before you asked Shida-chan out." He pointed out.
This is not necessarily true. We've been seeing each other since our third year in high school, but we were discreet. Two years after we graduated I had asked Johnny-san's advice about 'wanting to ask Shida Mirai out.' Eventually he said it was okay (He's getting old- well, older, I know.). We were already going out, but at this point it became more convenient for us since after telling Johnny-san, and after his 'go' signal, Mirai had also told her agency. And we could be more at ease at work.
Rumors spread about us, that was unavoidable, but our agencies' official statement is that we're close friends. And how can we not be friends if we were high school classmates.
"It took four months before Johnny-san agreed." I told Ryuu. "How many years would it take for him to agree with this?" I asked him skeptically.
Ryuu shrug. "Just try. It'll be better than upsetting him. You know that. Besides, you're he's golden boy, and you've been obedient forever. He'll be lenient."
And doubtful, I did it anyway. I asked Johnny about it and he told me he'll think about it. I was sure it would take months, years maybe before he agreed so it was a bit of a shock when two weeks later he told me it's okay but to wait for the next season.
Turned out, he was planning a drama for the two of us. The drama passed, more rumors about us came (both our agencies ignored them this time), Johnny-san already gave an 'okay', I've already bought the ring... but I still can't do it.
Not that I haven't tried. The first time, we were eating at a restaurant and I almost told her, but then Chie-san had called saying they needed Mirai in the HQ.
I planned on asking her during one of Hey! Say! JUMP's performance but then something came up and she couldn't come.
And I tried again during Valentines but then someone suddenly called. I found out from a squealing Mirai that Suzuka had just came back from America and that we needed to "go to the airport now!"
And now, I just can't do it anymore. I think I've used up all my courage.
I must have really been deep in thought because I literally jumped when someone hugged me from the back.
"Niichan!!"
"Misaki~! Mou! You'll give me a heart attack!" I told her.
She laughed. "You looked so serious!" She said.
I shook my head at her.
"Tadaima~!" She singsonged, grinning broadly.
"Okaeri." I told her dryly.
"Here." She said, tossing me a package. "Mirai-nee told Miyuu to tell me to give it to you." She said and then dropped her bag in the living room and started for the stairs.
"Call me when dinner's ready." She said as she ascended, yawning. It must be hard being a university student.
I shook my head once more, exasperated.
I sighed and return to my seat. I opened the package and had to smile when I saw a familiar notebook.
It was really my notebook in high school, but I still can't remember what I wrote in there. It looked old now.
I opened it and had to groan at what my eyes caught.
On the first page was the words: 'YamaShi Secrets'
It was Yuto's handwriting. I'm really gonna kill that guy. I thought of just throwing the notebook cause I knew I'll just be embarrass if I saw what inside, but I had promised Mirai so I just flipped to the next page.
I couldn't help but moan this time.
So this is why Mirai was laughing.
It really was my scribbles... and all my feelings were poured in there.
Written on the top of the page was: 'Yama-chan's Secret'
This time it was definitely Chii's handwriting.
I really wrote these, but maybe unconsciously. The words were scattered all over the notebook in different pages. It was barely readable, squish between notes and on the corners of the pages but Chii had make it a point to highlight them and even number them.
1. I can't believe I'm jealous of freaking tuna.
That was the first thing I read.
2. The only time I ever feel right is when I'm with her.
There were so many of them.
7. Yamada Mirai
11. I hate this industry! I hate rumors! Nishiuchi is just a friend! But now Mirai-chan thinks otherwise!!
23. I can't believe there are actually 'YamaShi' fans... that's surprising.
41. Stupid Chii! I won't confess to her just because Umika is begging you to beg me!
45. I'm gonna kill Yuto! He gave BEST pictures of me and Mirai!
59. I think I'm falling more and more.
66. She actually gave me chocolates! I'm so happy!
74. SHE SAID YES! I CAN DIE NOW, SHE SAID YES!
81. I do have a mother complex... haha. 14 year old mother complex.
89. He didn't let me audition for Blackboard!!
I couldn't help but feel so very embarrassed as I read them. Mirai read all of this. Ugh, someone just kill me.
On the last page was:
112. Graduation tomorrow... I still don't want to say goodbye to this school. To what we have here.
I had to smile. I was so worried then, but in the end, everything turned out well.
I was about to close the notebook when I noticed there was still some pages left. They were folded neatly.
I unfolded it and chuckled when I saw my friends' handwriting.
There were more... but this time, written at the top of the page of 'YamaShi Secrets'
All entries were listed neatly now. I started reading.
I've always known there's something about them. Ever since our TGQ! Haha. Yama-chan's that transparent. I'm rooting for you guys~! -Miki
I was surprised at this. Actually, I thought he had a thing with Mirai during TGQ. I never knew about this.
During their first date ever, Ryosuke brought Mirai to her favorite place, Disneyland~! -Ayano
Well, she would know, she helped me place the tickets in Mirai's locker. I am missing 3D now...
I actually had a crush on Mirai, first year. But seeing Ryosuke like that. I knew my feelings were no match! lols. He's whipped! XD -Chii
Seriously?! I never knew that!!
I still can't forget how Yama-chan glared at me after Mirai-chan's and my drama, Sotsu no Uta. I think that might have scarred me for life. -Jingi
Oh, I didn't really mean that. I was more frustrated than angry. Sorry, man.
Sometimes I can't help but feel threatened of Ryosuke. It just feels like he's stealing my best friend away from me! -Suzuka
Well, she was very open about this. She actually threatens me to keep away from Mirai. She's a bit overprotective.
Mirai-chan always enjoys matchmaking her friends. Shougo and I are one of her 'victims.' She's really dense. She's so busy with her friend's love lives she doesn't notice hers. -Nozomi
I laughed at this. This is very true.
My camera were always filled with YamaShi pictures. I've always thought I'd be rich if I was a paparazzo. LOL. -Rima
Oh yeah, our number one camera man. She actually gave me a copy of all our pictures just before graduation.
My first impression of the two was, "Mirai-chan acts like Yamada's okaasan." First impression never lasts though, and I think it'll be forever in my head that 'Mirai-chan acts like Yamada-okusan.'
So that's why she calls Mirai my 'okasaan.'
Having told Yama-chan the sentence 'I like Shida-sempai' is a mistake I would never do again. -Ryuu
Oh, I remember that. Haha. I knew he was joking of course.
I was the only one Yama-chan admitted his feelings for Mirai-chan to. But I wasn't the only one who knows. The whole class could tell. -Yuto
I was that obvious?!!
It was very distracting, the way he stares. And it's also disconcerting that he does it the whole day. Sometimes I just wish I wasn't seated between Mirai-chan and Yama-chan.
Jeez, I must have been like a stalker or something.......
I've always teased Mirai-chan with Ryosuke. When it was just us girls, I call Mirai-chan 'Mama' and refer to Yama-chan as 'Papa.' -Umika
Ehh??? I didn't know this!! So does this mean, she'd like me all along, too???
There were more, but it were the last ones that got my attention.
It was true, I did like Ryosuke. But just as a fan. It was frustrating when the rumor came out. I hate to be the reason of YamaShi not happening~! :< -Mariya
Nishiuchi is here too??? When was this???
I remember when thirteen years old Yama-chan went to me looking all fidgety and anxious. I knew at once what to tell him: 'The rumor is not true. Shida-san and I are not dating.' -Hikaru
Hikaru. So it's really those two who did this. I will really kill them!
I always wanted an oniichan, it came true when Nee-chan brought Ryo-nii home and introduced him to the family. -Miyuu
Miyuu????? Shida Miyuu?!?!
And I always wanted a twin sister~!! And Miyuu is just perfect! Just marry already, you two! -Misaki
And even Misaki?!
'Turn to the next page.' was written at the bottom. And I knew who the handwriting belongs to.
Mirai.
I turned the next page and saw more of her handwriting.
So since I've read about Yamada's Secrets, I though it'd just be fair that you know about Shida's Secrets as well. So here's my list.
I didn't know why, but I felt a bit nervous as I read.
1. I love you more than I love tuna, you dummy.
2. Yes, I've had a crush on you since TGQ. Since TGQ SP, even. You were just dense.
I laugh at that, feeling very light headed.
3. No, I am not dense. I knew you felt something, too, you were too obvious... but I was waiting for you you know.
4. You were very obvious even Ishihara Satomi-san knew. She wouldn't stop teasing me during our Bull Doctor.
5. I believed the rumor about Mariya-chan, though. I... well, I actually cried then. Now don't you go start feeling guilty! That's in the past already!
6. I actually named that stuffed hippo after you.
7. Sometimes your fanservice with the other members get to me. LOL, silly, I know.
8. I was talking about you when I said 'voice that cracks' makes my heart go doki-doki.
9. You are a dork at times but you are cool most of the time even though you don't try.
10. The only time that I ever felt complete is when I'm with you.
11. When it's just me and Umika, I call you 'Papa' as well. It's our little secret.
12. Yuto actually knew that I knew that you like me. Don't kill him, he's one of your best friends.
13. I get jealous easily, I just don't show it.
14. It actually makes me smile when you're jealous over whoever is my current leading man.
15. I really mean it when I said you are my leading man in real life.
16. I never missed any of your performance. Even before we were together.
17. I love seeing you perform, you're just so happy.
18. Imagined how giddy I am when I found about our birthdays. 'Destiny' was ringing in my head. I am such a fangirl. Haha.
19. I always say that I don't think about love very much. That was a lie.
20. I never told you but whenever it rains, I remember that kiss in the zoo during that rainy day.
The list went on and on and I don't know, my feelings were mixed up. These were things I never knew before. Mirai poured all her feelings in writing the list.
I read and I read until it was just the last two:
49. I have more, but I have limited space here and I think we can talk about those if we want to.
50. Confession to make: I knew about your plan. Kudos to Yuto and Chii. Don't kill them-
That made me stop. THOSE. TWO. HOW CAN I NOT KILL THEM?! THEY RUINED IT!
But there were more things written.
-and keep reading! I also knew you tried asking me and I know I am partly at fault that didn't turn well. But it's just stupid to avoid me. And since you and I are not getting any younger and I've been waiting for this since forever, I'll do the honors.
Yamada Ryosuke, will you marry me?n
Oh.......
I might not kill those two afterall.
And there was one more line at the bottom of the page.
51. I rather liked the way 'Yamada Mirai' sounded, as well.
AN:
- inspired by YamaShi FB group's YamaShi Secrets (most of these are from there~ :DD)
- you imagine what ryuu is doing here. whether he's back with jump, university, or whatever. i have my own version of his story in my mind... and that goes for the rest of 3d as well. xD
Thanks for reading~