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How do you know when you're "grown up"? When I was little, it was so easy. There were so many definitions. There was going to Intermediate, there was turning 18, there was getting older than my friends' big sisters were then. Well, I've been to intermediate, and I don't feel grown up, and I've gotten older than my friends' big sisters were then, and I don't feel I've grown up. And I don't think being 18 will make me feel grown up, even if I am legally an adult.
And now people are doing things which which are adult(ish-not sensible, but things older people do, and not kids). People get drunk. My friends, people my age, get drunk. Illegally, but still. Of all the things I never thought I'd hear, it's girl guides talking about getting drunk, but there you go.
It's so weird, because this is something people older than me do, and now, they're the same age as me. It's probably just me, but it's so strange to think of it. So this thing, which the big kids did, but never people my age, is now something my friends do. And, for me, it's scary.
Everything which was in the future is here now.
I've sat my first exams. That doesn't make me anymore grown up, just more worried, and more tired.
People have boyfriends! My friends, people my age,have them. Proper ones, not year-6-type ones. And that's worrying.
People, actual people to me, are going off to, or at, university. Not just faceless entities in mufti who I used to pass in the corridor. People, who like and respect, people who I grew up knowing(again, friends' big sisters, such as the lovely aim_toothpaste).
These things, which I've always associated with growing up, are here now. But I'm not anymore grown up. Is anyone grown up?