i need a new username. i lost my purse. my parents are taking away my internet from my labtop. i couldnt sleep cuz i cried all night. i hate my father. my mother just stares so i cant say anything about her. they think im some kind of psychiatric person. im not. if i was i would have run away from my home by now because that would be the most ( Read more... )

4 day weekend! yay! i have/had such a bad headache... but i came home and slept for like 6 hours so i feel better... whole lot better. i have to be optimistic in this entry... o wait before i do, i told asked my mom if she would be mad at me if i were to get kicked out of asfa... she said no. surprise there! but i was crying so yeah... i hope i ( Read more... )

i have like 3 tests in a row... sorta... not really, i just took one and then i have one 3rd and 4th... very stressed but i just dont care nemore... seriously... the only that really makes me care is the fact i lost my purse!! its like black leather (i dont know if it is real leather or not) and it has a pink M on it and the strap is pink... i ( Read more... )

its seriously really, really cold today. well just inside the school. im pushing my friends away and i feel awful. i dont know why i do it. but when i do, it makes me feel so evil.

i typed sooooo much on here and then i was gonna minimize this page when i accidently exited out. there was only one thing that i really remember ( Read more... )

i love showers. they are the best. i feel so refreshed yet so sleepy. i learned a new word today, anhedonic... i really like that word. it is a psychiatric term. it is a symptom of depression. it is the lack of the ability to have pleasure. like u dont want to have fun. i feel anhedonic sometimes. follow your heart, your intuition ( Read more... )

soooo tired. seriously. i think im gonna fall asleep ne second. my nose and head hurt. its almost 1 in the morning. i really should go to sleep. im kinda scared though. i feel sick again. nausea. crap. it sucks. i really gotta go. but before i do, the guy i semi-like said he thought i had pretty eyes. i would be thrilled about this but i am a bit ( Read more... )

im failing school. i need to put more effort into my studies... i have a physics quiz today. i didnt study for it. im going to fail. ill ask my teacher if i can take it tomorrow since i wasnt there yesterday. i feel so much better. i hate throwin up. it really burns. i want a bean burrito... i had one yesterday but i ended up throwing it up. im so ( Read more... )

i really need to study. im failing everything. i dont want to fail out. i love asfa. i cant fail out. i cant. i cried on my b'day because of my damn geo grade. my mom was trying to stick up for my grade... she was like whatever... its your first, get over it. i was like who are u and what have u done to my mother? well i think i did better on the ( Read more... )

that weekend was okay. okay considering that i only had fun doing the classes. the way back was awful. awful. i cried so much... kdee thinks i cried because stella and jessica were talking about me... stella mite think something similar. i think i dont know what to think. i mean is sadness and depression two different things or the same? depression ( Read more... )