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[privytoschemes]

I feel my adolescence seeping out of my skin. I want to put on a sweater to keep it all in. I wan to live my days as the sixteen year-old that I am. I'm feeling very Plath-like tonight, like I am just a small drop of water in a great wide ocean, waiting to be carried off. I'm impatient, I want to scream. I haven't screamed in my entire life. I have

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[freakin_sweet]

Oh, hon...it's not primetime teendrama at all, for even those of us beyond our teens have these feelings. (i'm 30...) My yearnings are for the medievil life...for the chivalry I suppose, the deeper connection to what makes us who we are... Ages past always seem like they would be better, and as for a people's morals and values, yes, there is definately a rapid decline in those areas. You're not a hypocrite; you're human.

Here's to a better tomorrow!

[sickophelia]

you are very eloquent for a sixteen year old...maybe there is hope for the next generation ;) I think a lot of women deal with that paradox. we want to be independent but we long for these romantic lives. not to mention things seemed much simpler then, much less gray area when it came to issues like marriage, love, and sex. i'm going to add you to my friends list, feel free to do the same.

[privytoschemes]

surely - i can always use more friends.

[onefoolishline_]

i can honestly say that i feel this way often. especially lately; i am engaged and love my fiance very much and look forward to the life we will have.
however i'd be lying if i said i didn't sometimes feel like i was betraying a deep rooted expectation i have of myself to be this single wildly successful femme who travels the world and NEVER looks back...
but deep down i see that both of these are conflicting ideologies, and i do not think they can be fulfilled in their own right. it is a cage of confusion, best to ignor the bars. :)