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Yesterday was my birthday. I spent the whole day with Yasuyuki. We went sight-seeing, we left the hotel early in the morning and didn't get back until well into the night. So this is the first time I've had a chance to come online.
Want to thank everyone for the birthday wishes.
And happy Christmas.
Last night was... strange.
He was strange all day. Looking at me. Blushing... Then last night we... I guess to be blunt about it, we tried to have sex.
I say 'tried' because I didn't think it worked out as well as Yasuyuki had planned... Because he had planned it, I can see that now. But it was a surprise to me last night.
... Can't lie. I've thought about it... I've thought about being with him. Doing those things with him that he wants. I've thought about it a lot. Just not that night...
I think I messed up. But I don't think it was a bad thing either. We had fun, even if we didn't go that far with it. I still love him. More now than before.
Want to thank everyone for the birthday wishes.
And happy Christmas.
Last night was... strange.
He was strange all day. Looking at me. Blushing... Then last night we... I guess to be blunt about it, we tried to have sex.
I say 'tried' because I didn't think it worked out as well as Yasuyuki had planned... Because he had planned it, I can see that now. But it was a surprise to me last night.
... Can't lie. I've thought about it... I've thought about being with him. Doing those things with him that he wants. I've thought about it a lot. Just not that night...
I think I messed up. But I don't think it was a bad thing either. We had fun, even if we didn't go that far with it. I still love him. More now than before.