you spend months at a time living on the edge of life, on the rim, so you don't have to look around and see how bad things are. and you forget how bad things are.

where the fuck is my fairy god mother?

"goodnight, sweet princess. you are still on your own; be stoic; don't panic; get through this hell to the generous, sweet, giving love of Spring"

List your ten current favorite songs, then tag 10 friends to do the same.

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this. is. so. messed. up.

Don’t make an anecdote of my heart.
Please, don’t even start.
Your hand leaves cigarette burns in mine.

reliance on anyone to make you happy or treat you well is only setting yourself up to be hurt. in fact, going out with anyone without the intent of marrying them is basically self-destructive and masochistic. love was fed to us from the day we were born. by movies, tv, books, songs, parents, peers. we pretend we're in love, because its supposed to ( Read more... )

forcing anyone to do anything is basically extorting, black mailing, and raping the entire world. everything gets passed on, and circles back on you. thus the basic belief of karma. peer pressure sucks anyway, if you want to fit in then your just as fucked up as the people who value a person on the basis of what they'll do under pressure. this said ( Read more... )

someone answers questions
i haven't asked
when i look out the window
sometimes i just see the glass
or his skeleton
like a definition
in a polka dotted sky
footprints in my mind
and a way of thinking
like a sad record skipping
just to get by.
gentle docile and strange
weary water
ragged mange
a constellation rearranged
a constellation rearranged

i stumble upon rare moments of happiness and all others seem weak and pale in comparison. disappointment and sexual deprivation causes depression and so i get drunk, hook up with people i don't want to hook up with, and have a hangover. life is redundant. words are redundant. thoughts are redundant. i'm just about ready to die.

so i have pine needles in my underwear. anyone care to explain that one?

his name was...paaaaaaaaatrick.