*sigh* Once again, once everything starts looking better, its only a setup to how much worse it's going to get ( Read more... )

Things have actually been pretty good recently ( Read more... )

 god damn it.

So, I am at Adam's house, and I think that I am dying. I know I say that all the time, but I MEAN IT THIS TIME. 

Since I've last written, things have turned all nice and shitty again. I'm so glad that I got my hopes up that everything was going to be better. Shit went down with Adam, but I'm not going to talk about that on here. For some odd reason my father has been exceptionally nice to me recently...and I still dont know how to deal with him not yelling... ( Read more... )

Alright, well it's been 4 months, so I guess I can start writing on here again showing off how pathetic I still am.

Sunday was the 7 month divorsary (yeah, DIVORSARY..I'm so clever, I know) of Clayton and I being broken up, and honestly I didn't notice until it was pointed out to me..and even then I was still somehow at ease. I think after 7 months ( Read more... )

This year has been total and complete shit so far. I dont like it. Im turning 18 this year, and so far it isnt looking all too bright...I dont know. It's...it just feels like everything that could possibly go wrong, has gone wrong, and is in no mood to correct itself. I fucking hate being helpless, but there is nothing I can do to help myself.

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wow, tonight sucked some major ass. and the biggest issue was that nothing really went wrong. If my spelling.grammar suck, it's because i am mildly sdrunk ( Read more... )

Something is very very very wrong...and its just another thing that i cant do anything to fix.

im just gonna....im gonna jump off a cliff. okay? okay.

Oh, god help me. Besides for the fact that the past (almost) two months of my life have been fantastically shitty, tonight has been exceptional to that. It has somehow been worse than the past 56 days. And no, I haven't been keeping count, I'm just that bored that I just took the time to figure out how long it has been since my life spontaneously ( Read more... )