in one week i will be taking the nationwide test for pharmacy technicians. if i pass i get a CPhT after my name. i don't think i am quite prepared enough and i kinda doubt i will even pass. i don't know. i mean i know i am smart and i succeed at pretty much everything i try for, but maybe i haven't tried hard enough this time? i'm nervous ( Read more... )

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my computer now only turns on after warning me the hard drive must be replaced immediately. so i am temporarily (hopefully) internet-less. except for like now when i'm at my parents' for lunch. so little chance for posting ( Read more... )

it is getting harder to say good bye at the end of the night. i want to come home to him and spend the night with him. i think he's feeling it too ( Read more... )

i got a car! its a 2006 red saturn ion2- its so pretty. and so not smushied like my old saturn. yay! oh and i spent almost exactly my insurance check on it, a little under! car! yay car!

so i call ryan every few weeks. get an update, see how he's doing, brag about my great life. somehow, though, it always makes me feel bad. he doesn't return my calls. i end up feeling like i'm not important to him. then he doesn't seem to genuinely care about how awesome my life is. or i just don't feel encouraged after talking to him. he makes ( Read more... )

i have been shopping for *new* used saturns. paul was really nice and went over them with me last night. cars all look the same to me. i found a good one at the saturn of oceanside. it is berry red, a 2005 saturn ion 2. (the car i wrecked was a silver 2005 saturn ion 2). and it has almost the same milage, a little less actually. it looks like my ( Read more... )

so this week started pretty badly. monday night i find out that my friend died. he was older (probably late 70s) so it is not so tragic, especially since he was starting to get alzheimers so maybe quick spreading cancer is the easy way out? anyway, funeral for him is tomorrow ( Read more... )

paul and i talked some more and i feel better now. not really gonna get into it all but i feel more loved and more hopeful and more like there is something i can do about this situation.

i <3 paul