[✐fanfic challenge] 15pairings: supernova
Title: Supernova
Author: made-in-wonder
Theme: #04, pain is pleasure
Fandom: Yugioh: Duel Monsters
Pairing: Malik Ishtar/Yami Malik
Disclaimer: Yugioh isn't mine. Props to anyone who catches the pun/reference I'm shamelessly making here.
It's been a while, Mr. Dominant Personality! Can you hear me yet? Of course not, not through this wall you've so cleverly constructed to keep me out, dampened, down, pressed and squashed in my place just like everybody else, sorted by the Great Malik Ishtar to the rightful position where I belong. But I just have to try speaking, it's too sad here otherwise, even if you can't hear…too sad, too sad, and what am I but the wish to never be sad again? Oh, the things I could tell you if you'd just let me speak: I see the world, Mr. Dominant Personality, I and not you can truly see, you've blinded yourself and shunted all the badness onto my poor shoulders, but I've got such a better view from up here, I see it all!
And I hate it all, too.
Ah, Mr. Dominant Personality, it’s so much more fun to be me than you. There’s so much in this world, so much to hate and disfigure and destroy - so much fear down here in the dark! Just slip backwards, tilt your head, relax, give in, and there's no more holding back, no more breaking! If you bend and not break, you break others instead. Come revel, come break everything, everyone, with me!
But no, you’re afraid, you cling to the light and the things that you love. You love so much, Mr. Dominant Personality - I bet you didn’t know that, didn’t consider it as the bile fills your brain and your chest burns with detesting - but it comes from love, isn’t that sweet - you suffer because you care, you cling, you desire like the greedy little child you think you’ve grown out of being! Why, without your love I wouldn’t even be - but even with my presence, what’s become of you?
You can't hide from me. You think you want to shine, shine like the sun or a million stars in the sky - you think you want to give off all that light, to burn in the darkness, piercing the miles and the hours, but what's become of that star? You've already gone supernova, poor little child, you've already exploded, in a blast of brilliant, agonizing brightness - and now only the darkness remains! You're nothing but a remnant, Mr. Dominant Personality. The star cooled and vanished long ago. But why should I tell you what you already suspect - what you already know, what you're so scared of admitting that there's this wall here, between you and me, this one last fragile cracking wall….?
Can you feel the darkness seeping through? Isn't it delightful?! Isn't this rich? The little boy who loves, now drowning only in hatred, my hatred, my hatred we share….Do you repel yourself? Of course you do. Poor thing! My life is so much lovelier - enjoy it! It’s marvelous! Thank you for the hatred, thank you for loving, for without your loving life, without that last explosion of light I never would have been. Thank you for loving, because hating’s such fun!
Hey, hey, Mr. Dominant Personality, did you know? I'm the nova, I'm the black hole, to your star, your poor extinguished star! I hate everything you love!
And you hate yourself, so I love you.
Author: made-in-wonder
Theme: #04, pain is pleasure
Fandom: Yugioh: Duel Monsters
Pairing: Malik Ishtar/Yami Malik
Disclaimer: Yugioh isn't mine. Props to anyone who catches the pun/reference I'm shamelessly making here.
It's been a while, Mr. Dominant Personality! Can you hear me yet? Of course not, not through this wall you've so cleverly constructed to keep me out, dampened, down, pressed and squashed in my place just like everybody else, sorted by the Great Malik Ishtar to the rightful position where I belong. But I just have to try speaking, it's too sad here otherwise, even if you can't hear…too sad, too sad, and what am I but the wish to never be sad again? Oh, the things I could tell you if you'd just let me speak: I see the world, Mr. Dominant Personality, I and not you can truly see, you've blinded yourself and shunted all the badness onto my poor shoulders, but I've got such a better view from up here, I see it all!
And I hate it all, too.
Ah, Mr. Dominant Personality, it’s so much more fun to be me than you. There’s so much in this world, so much to hate and disfigure and destroy - so much fear down here in the dark! Just slip backwards, tilt your head, relax, give in, and there's no more holding back, no more breaking! If you bend and not break, you break others instead. Come revel, come break everything, everyone, with me!
But no, you’re afraid, you cling to the light and the things that you love. You love so much, Mr. Dominant Personality - I bet you didn’t know that, didn’t consider it as the bile fills your brain and your chest burns with detesting - but it comes from love, isn’t that sweet - you suffer because you care, you cling, you desire like the greedy little child you think you’ve grown out of being! Why, without your love I wouldn’t even be - but even with my presence, what’s become of you?
You can't hide from me. You think you want to shine, shine like the sun or a million stars in the sky - you think you want to give off all that light, to burn in the darkness, piercing the miles and the hours, but what's become of that star? You've already gone supernova, poor little child, you've already exploded, in a blast of brilliant, agonizing brightness - and now only the darkness remains! You're nothing but a remnant, Mr. Dominant Personality. The star cooled and vanished long ago. But why should I tell you what you already suspect - what you already know, what you're so scared of admitting that there's this wall here, between you and me, this one last fragile cracking wall….?
Can you feel the darkness seeping through? Isn't it delightful?! Isn't this rich? The little boy who loves, now drowning only in hatred, my hatred, my hatred we share….Do you repel yourself? Of course you do. Poor thing! My life is so much lovelier - enjoy it! It’s marvelous! Thank you for the hatred, thank you for loving, for without your loving life, without that last explosion of light I never would have been. Thank you for loving, because hating’s such fun!
Hey, hey, Mr. Dominant Personality, did you know? I'm the nova, I'm the black hole, to your star, your poor extinguished star! I hate everything you love!
And you hate yourself, so I love you.