i spent the day texting tony back and forth. trying to convince him to come back to me ( Read more... )

not much as happened to me lately. oh..wait... tony left me. it started with him spending a lot of late nights at the studio.. then came the lies and the excuses... and finally, he stopped coming home at all.  i changed the locks and i'm thankful that he's left all the kids with me. it's going to be hard to explain to tegan and ben how another ( Read more... )

tony was right. this pregnancy was a mistake.

4:52:52 AM madedad: *snuggles closer to you*  are you really glad to be with me or are you pretending because of the baby?
4:53:28 AM xtdawgxx: *whispers* don't ask me that, baby

4:54:37 AM madedad: *looks into your eyes, knowing the answer*

4:55:31 AM xtdawgxx: *doesn't make eye contact with you*

 Tony!

I have the BEST name for our baby!!!!!

I'm sooo excited!

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 not gonna lie... i sorta want to die

 i went to the doctor yesterday to confirm the pregnancy and the blood test says that i am. the doctor is a little concerned about my hormone levels and my history of having first trimester miscarriages but i have faith that THIS baby is going to be okay. it has to be. it's the last part of tony that i'm ever going to have. i'm supposed to be ( Read more... )

 i've sunk to an all time low.... i'm pregnant...  at least i think i am... but i should probably get a blood test to confirm it because those urine tests have never been reliable for me.  tony wants nothing to do with me and if the test comes out positive, i'm prepared to face this alone. it's what i deserve because i'm a rotten and horrible ( Read more... )

 don't have unprotected sex while you're on fertility shots, kids... you'll end up pregnant, for sure ( Read more... )

 okay... i'm devastated... i really really want another baby.. i've wanted it for a long time... it's been over a year since i've wanted one but it's not going to happen. and i'm trying to come to terms with it. but it's killing me.

the thing is... i know that we shouldn't have another one but i still want it more than anything. i want to feel a ( Read more... )