Hetero?? Another hetero??
Dancing on The Time
Pairing : Kyuhyunxyou
Rating : PG-13
Warning : Un-betaed, many grammar mistakes (Yeah, i know I have to learn English harder, and I’m doing it right now)
Summary : You know, inside of Kyuhyun’s memories, you have a part of it
WC : 1,103
A/N : This fic doesn’t make sense and of course it's fail, really. And i write and post this because Suju hetero fic needs more love seriously.
Dancing on the Time
You come again, between the door of reality and dream. It has been four years since the first time Kyuhyun saw you. And you always look the same, nothing change and always dance in the flow of the time. Dancing sweetly but not as sweet as fairies, moving elegantly but not as elegant as angel. And you always smile to Kyuhyun whom kept staring at you in a daze, hypnotized by how you can dance in the air, without any gravitation touching your feet and every part of your body, whereas you don’t have wings like fairies or angels.
You know, inside of Kyuhyun’s memories, you have a part of it. And you knew, the reason why Kyuhyun always stares at you in a daze is because he wonders whether you were real or not. You are only a part of his memories, a cliffhanger memory that he doesn’t want to recall but you always appear unexpectedly. At the recording, his debut, practice’s time and even on the plane.
Kyuhyun thinks, if god of the death really existed, for sure you were the opposite side of it or him or her. You were there, the first creature that he saw when he was conscious from his near-to-death state because of the accident. You smiled at him and said something that could be heard by him only, ‘you are awake, mortal’. And you were still there, when the members visited him and were relief because he survived, you shook your head in cynical manner. Kyuhyun thought he was crazy and decided that he should go to psychiatrist, checking his saneness. But it was only a decision, his pride won’t let him to go.
Kyuhyun doesn’t believe your existence, he is a Christian and Christians don’t believe ghost existence, Christians only believed God, angels and Satan. And Kyuhyun thinks that you are not Satan but also not God. Maybe you were an angel, but angel is a creature that different from human, from mortal, and Kyuhyun knows, you are human, or maybe you were, because he never knows the end of your story. If you were still alive, how can you become like this. If you were dead... no, you know that Kyuhyun won’t accept that scenario. He’d rather to be confused by your existence than to think that you are dead.
And on the China’s days, when he got sick, you showed another smile, recalling how it felt to get sick, and Kyuhyun looked at you sarcastically, because he thought you smiling at his suffering. It was not your fault, you didn’t mean to mock him, but you were too busy with your own thought of remembering when the last time you got sick.
You smile when he says that you can’t go to other members’ room when you float closer to the door. The members may see you and get frightened. It’s silly, you think, because it’s only him whom can see you. Even more he doesn’t believe your existence but he talks to you. Or maybe his mind is separated into two, the side which he wants to believe your existence and the opposite.
Kyuhyun thinks that you look the same like the last time he saw you, when you were in touchable state. Still with a smile in teasing manner, sometimes looks cynical, your stare are still as calm as before but he knows, there is something missing in your eyes, something essential that makes him stop to examine you.
You may be the guardian of time, he said one day. You dance along with time but don’t get older like me, he continued. You smiled hearing his words, in fact, you are the victim of time, you don’t get older because time feels guilty of eating you and time gives eternity to you for the replacement. You can’t say it to him, he already knows the fact but he denies it, though you say it to him, he won’t believe you until he sees the proof with his own eyes.
And when Christmas is approaching, you can feel his tension. He starts waiting your presence and keeps staring at you when you come. You know why, and you smile, reassuring him that you won’t disappear for the second time. He smiles back, the smile of his and says ‘though you disappear, I will find you this time.’ You keep smiling, though you know that the reality is the opposite side of his words, you will disappear when he finds you.
The warmer Christmas this year passed and you still appear. Kyuhyun looks relief.
You are there, when he picks up his call from your parent. He gets pale when he ended the call, and he asks you ‘what does it mean?’. You just bow your head, avoiding his eyes. And he takes his coat, says something to his leader group and leaves. You just stay in the air of his room, knowing that your second time is coming.
Kyuhyun stares at you, you that can be touched but not moving. And your parent is there too, crying in sadness or maybe happiness, who knows? And your brother is there too. You look at the rare scene that can’t be seen when you are alive, your brother hugging Kyuhyun, trying to soothe him. In your memory, both of them didn’t get along together.
Your body is found floating in the surface of the cold winter lake by a villager. The polices say that your body has been drowning in the depth of the frozen lake for four years and because of the temperature goes higher day by day lately, your body can be found. You sill remember exactly, that day, on the coldest Christmas, the worst winter in South Korea, you went here, searching for a natural ice skating ring. And just like another bad luck, you were slipped and end of story.
Kyuhyun is still standing there, behind your parents who are still crying over your dead body. Maybe sadness because they just found out that their daughter was died or maybe happiness because finally they found you though in the death state. He keeps staring at your dead body, thinking that how come your body remains the same like for years ago, not getting decomposed, not getting eaten by time.
You float closer to him, whispering,”Finally, I was found.”
He turns his head, and his mouth parts, saying something but you don’t know what it is, because you can’t think anymore, the illusory mind which keeps your existence slowly fading away. And for the second time, you disappear.
~End of Dancing on The Time~
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And for readers who read Kodou and are waiting for the update, sorry, I want to finish Kodou, the last part but I can’t because of my boredom over that series *or maybe having too much play time*, but io'm working on it now.
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