i hate boys...i never get the ones i want and always end up with the nasty pervertos

sometimes i feel like such a horrible person. someone asked me "if you dont wanna be here why are you here?" cuz this place is driving me crazy. i think its cuz when im home i jus keep myself going so i dont hafta think. then im here...with nothing to do but think...then i jus want to go out and do everything imaginable that i can do just to be ( Read more... )

theres never any escpae for me. yeah its best to face life..but one day im gunna have to see my biggest mistake every day n practically liive with it...literally...family is family blood or no blood i guess...so incest should be banned altogether

im still alive...and bored as hell. im sad i hafta go back to hellwater but i guess i must get going so that i can leave. theres life after adfag and this boy is being really nice to me even tho he's never seen me. weird huh? ehhhh my tummy hurts and i feel like i could throw up even tho i havent done anything. sleepy time now since i do have ( Read more... )

the first and only time i fall for a gayass was probly the most important gayass that i shouldnt have ever fallen for. i jus dunno what to do with myself and its put me in a mood where i jus wanna lay in bed and sleep and sleep and sleep and never have to think about what happened what ive done and what will never be the same. i dont know who ive ( Read more... )

theres no place like home

but for some reason

when i clicked on my "recent entries"

it showed me my oldies

goldies

ehh not really but

so wheres my new

silver man

make new friends

but keep the old

one is silver n the others gold

i learned that song in preskool

ok im done being gay

so i screwed up this semester when it came to grades.

but ive grown so much....(no not adultlike thank u very muc). i can talk to grown up without feeling stupid...ok so maybe not very stupid...i can give an eight minute speech without dying...i can forgive ppl better...i learned about myselfy and other "growing personally" stuff. i know who i dont ( Read more... )

sometimes the people that you care about alot dont even give two shits about you n thats really sad.people take the people in their lives for granted everyday and thats so mean.

other people think they are the freaken queens of the world and everyone has to do what they say. i wonder why they think theyre any more better than anyone else.

other ( Read more... )

so im done wif work

yay

why the freak does this fag always double space

like im writing a paper

whatever

ok so here some quotationals im gunna hit you up with man

cuz theyre kool

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour ( Read more... )

ive had sucha "different life"

weird that it took me almost 18 years to realize that

im trying to take it all in

i should write a book

but it would take so long

so very long

its almost like when i try to think about it

its so much

that im jus like whatev man its all in the olden days

someone told me that ppl who study psycology are trying to help ( Read more... )