Sleep until life becomes your dreams...
Yesterday, fully disabled, and was forced to SLEEP, to address cumulative degradations. Bath was a foolish delusion - but I scrubbed the latest mini-chaffings because I am a bar of soap and every day some new carving emerges from within. Just want to make this clear: I slept out of NEED. 'twas no whimsical shirk nor misdeed.
Today, I slept some more. But now, the more I sleep, the more I feel I sleep from WANT and not from NEED. But I remind myself NOT to be deceived. In many - maybe most - instances, "WANT" is just a sneakier extension of "NEED." Yet, we so often persecute it, don't we? Well, I am here to say that we should listen better to WANT, respect it and honour it. Why? Because WANT is the completion of - the resolution of - real NEED.
When you WANT something, it means you feel you are able to choose other alternatives than that, or those, you WANT to choose. So, you may assume that what you WANT might be just one out of an equally important assortment of of choices now available. This is how it looks on paper, in math, maybe in law, but certainly not in your heart or soul - or even physiology. But a little cognitive or emotional dissonance may creep in, in WANTing days, where other pressing concerns or people, or addictions/obsessions, may insist that you now ignore those selfish WANTS, and get on with what "you" obviously NEED - like getting back to work.
We all need a break from the strains of every week - the demands, the humiliations, the trials, the strains of what we generally agree are NEEDed. Things like achieving the most sales for the week is said to be what is NEEDED, for your sake, and for the sake of the boiler room company, so essential to the greater good of society. Sooooo... We need a Saturday, to get away! To break free and even rebel, sybolically. And, after Saturday, we may not be said to NEED a Sunday - but we really FEEL we'd like to have a Sunday, to relax and do some easier things - easier things we WANT to do. Have a coffee. Go to church, which shows no significant register on the GDP.
This is because WANT can be the deeper extension of need. Sunday meets to needs of Saturday, but at a deeper, more discrete, more subtle level. It is a spiritual resolution, or completion, of what is NEEDED. WANT is secretly NEED in deeper disguise. Take Sunday away, and you take health or sanity away, eventually.
It was because I forced myself to stop listening to my WANTS that I ever broke down with the endless disability called, CFS, in the first place. Then, again, the same thing happened just before I came down with "COVID," which never leaves. And now, I NEEDED to sleep yesterday, but only WANT to sleep today. I know enough, by now, to sower my WANTs with love, or my DEEPER FATIGUE will NOT be resolved, and my week will turn into another nightmare very quickly. If we don't address deep fatigue, we get sicker, deeper down and then, suddenly, we are on our deathbed, confused as to what has happened!
Do what you WANT. Let other people do what THEY WANT, if you want free and easier society. A society that will learn, on a deeper level, through meditation, self-awareness and self-actualisation, that external controls and addictions and demands are not the road freedom or true wealth. Emotions like guilt and hate and jealousy - these are not NEEDS, they are encumbrances, blocking inner recovery. And money is a fiat elusion fueling only greed. This you do not need. And give not to Caesar what Caesar says he owns of thee. There, there is no true NEED, only the attempt to pull you away from your natural WANTS, and then NEEDS. Telling you: "Eat bugs and like it!"
Real imagination, real solutions, real productivity and real invention and economy arise best from a conspiracy of both WANTS and NEEDS. So, sleep when you want, as you feel you NEED, deep down, until your dreams come back around, wake you up, and lead you to your true reason for being here in the first place.
One day, you will cease to fall into the same traps and sins of the past, and find a better future shining ahead. One to which you WANT to advance.
I see that, in my eyes, the old, threatening capillary, "spiders," have advanced - as may have other bad things. And so, clearly, my WANT to sleep more is definitely a real NEED to sleep a little more.
For now, I am continuing to ignore, "reality"...
Today, I slept some more. But now, the more I sleep, the more I feel I sleep from WANT and not from NEED. But I remind myself NOT to be deceived. In many - maybe most - instances, "WANT" is just a sneakier extension of "NEED." Yet, we so often persecute it, don't we? Well, I am here to say that we should listen better to WANT, respect it and honour it. Why? Because WANT is the completion of - the resolution of - real NEED.
When you WANT something, it means you feel you are able to choose other alternatives than that, or those, you WANT to choose. So, you may assume that what you WANT might be just one out of an equally important assortment of of choices now available. This is how it looks on paper, in math, maybe in law, but certainly not in your heart or soul - or even physiology. But a little cognitive or emotional dissonance may creep in, in WANTing days, where other pressing concerns or people, or addictions/obsessions, may insist that you now ignore those selfish WANTS, and get on with what "you" obviously NEED - like getting back to work.
We all need a break from the strains of every week - the demands, the humiliations, the trials, the strains of what we generally agree are NEEDed. Things like achieving the most sales for the week is said to be what is NEEDED, for your sake, and for the sake of the boiler room company, so essential to the greater good of society. Sooooo... We need a Saturday, to get away! To break free and even rebel, sybolically. And, after Saturday, we may not be said to NEED a Sunday - but we really FEEL we'd like to have a Sunday, to relax and do some easier things - easier things we WANT to do. Have a coffee. Go to church, which shows no significant register on the GDP.
This is because WANT can be the deeper extension of need. Sunday meets to needs of Saturday, but at a deeper, more discrete, more subtle level. It is a spiritual resolution, or completion, of what is NEEDED. WANT is secretly NEED in deeper disguise. Take Sunday away, and you take health or sanity away, eventually.
It was because I forced myself to stop listening to my WANTS that I ever broke down with the endless disability called, CFS, in the first place. Then, again, the same thing happened just before I came down with "COVID," which never leaves. And now, I NEEDED to sleep yesterday, but only WANT to sleep today. I know enough, by now, to sower my WANTs with love, or my DEEPER FATIGUE will NOT be resolved, and my week will turn into another nightmare very quickly. If we don't address deep fatigue, we get sicker, deeper down and then, suddenly, we are on our deathbed, confused as to what has happened!
Do what you WANT. Let other people do what THEY WANT, if you want free and easier society. A society that will learn, on a deeper level, through meditation, self-awareness and self-actualisation, that external controls and addictions and demands are not the road freedom or true wealth. Emotions like guilt and hate and jealousy - these are not NEEDS, they are encumbrances, blocking inner recovery. And money is a fiat elusion fueling only greed. This you do not need. And give not to Caesar what Caesar says he owns of thee. There, there is no true NEED, only the attempt to pull you away from your natural WANTS, and then NEEDS. Telling you: "Eat bugs and like it!"
Real imagination, real solutions, real productivity and real invention and economy arise best from a conspiracy of both WANTS and NEEDS. So, sleep when you want, as you feel you NEED, deep down, until your dreams come back around, wake you up, and lead you to your true reason for being here in the first place.
One day, you will cease to fall into the same traps and sins of the past, and find a better future shining ahead. One to which you WANT to advance.
I see that, in my eyes, the old, threatening capillary, "spiders," have advanced - as may have other bad things. And so, clearly, my WANT to sleep more is definitely a real NEED to sleep a little more.
For now, I am continuing to ignore, "reality"...