'you're just melting away!'
Coworker said that this morning. A compliment on the physical, but it's easy to start overthinking it. So I checked in on the physical. Down 17 pounds since early October. Body feels more right than it has in a while, but still, that's fast.
I've been recording my weight daily since I gave up wheat because I was curious. Did not expect anything that dramatic. I've been at the gym a little less than normal, but probably walking a little more. Still on a downward trend, though it's slowing. I haven't been as careful about the wheat - sometimes pizza is what is easy and, easy has been sharing top priority with feels good. I'm trying to avoid eating for weight loss, but also trying to be good to my body and keep a health thing going. Mostly. Last night dinner was ALL THE FRIED and espresso milkshakes at Paper Moon. Good little Baltimore nostalgia hit, though my stomach could be happier.
The feelings have a lot to do with it, I'm sure. My stomach is a little iffy all the time. Cooking has mostly felt like work. Sometimes vitamins and string cheese is the effort I can muster for dinner and I am just not worrying about things like that, because feelings.
I'll be curious how things go in the next few weeks and months. I suspect I'm coming up on a sort of set weight for my body. This feels like about where I was before derby, and I have been doing weird combinations of broken and feelings and lifestyle shift pretty much since then. Not that we're back to some kind of stable normal now. But anyway. This feels like my body. Not my 22-year-old body, and not my fighting shape body, but like I'm close to something comfortable to live in.
Implications for packing are awful. The pile of slightly-small clothes I was planning to toss before now fits, so I'm taking all of that. Most of the clothes I've been wearing are a little on the large side, but A) I don't want to assume this change is permanent and B) that is my entire professional wardrobe, so I'm not letting it go. So I'm taking everything. Stupid things.
I've been recording my weight daily since I gave up wheat because I was curious. Did not expect anything that dramatic. I've been at the gym a little less than normal, but probably walking a little more. Still on a downward trend, though it's slowing. I haven't been as careful about the wheat - sometimes pizza is what is easy and, easy has been sharing top priority with feels good. I'm trying to avoid eating for weight loss, but also trying to be good to my body and keep a health thing going. Mostly. Last night dinner was ALL THE FRIED and espresso milkshakes at Paper Moon. Good little Baltimore nostalgia hit, though my stomach could be happier.
The feelings have a lot to do with it, I'm sure. My stomach is a little iffy all the time. Cooking has mostly felt like work. Sometimes vitamins and string cheese is the effort I can muster for dinner and I am just not worrying about things like that, because feelings.
I'll be curious how things go in the next few weeks and months. I suspect I'm coming up on a sort of set weight for my body. This feels like about where I was before derby, and I have been doing weird combinations of broken and feelings and lifestyle shift pretty much since then. Not that we're back to some kind of stable normal now. But anyway. This feels like my body. Not my 22-year-old body, and not my fighting shape body, but like I'm close to something comfortable to live in.
Implications for packing are awful. The pile of slightly-small clothes I was planning to toss before now fits, so I'm taking all of that. Most of the clothes I've been wearing are a little on the large side, but A) I don't want to assume this change is permanent and B) that is my entire professional wardrobe, so I'm not letting it go. So I'm taking everything. Stupid things.