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when sleepy, i do things without thinking.
confronted you yesterday. you know what? looked at you, and realise that i.. don't know the person who was standing in front of me.
thought that i knew you well. those years of friendship.. it seems like they never existed in the first place; like we've never known each other; like we've never had fun together; like we've never.. seen each other before. we're strangers (maybe even worse than that) after four years of friendship.
so this is how our friendship ends. you don't have the answer to my question, and i don't have any questions to ask you other than "WHY".
my heart feels numb. want to cry, but the tears are holding themselves back. the well in my heart which is holding the tears is full. it's threatening to overflow.
last time, described seeing you as salt being poured into my wound. now, seeing you feels like my heart is broken into pieces, but they're held together by glue, which is useless because it can't stick the pieces together properly. it'll never be able to do so.
this pain.. hate you? i don't.. i don't hate you. i don't WANT to hate you.
i feel numb. my knuckles hurt. my chest feels heavy. it feels like being punched in my chest. i want to shout like i've never shouted before.
not sure how am i going to do exams with this kind of feelings in my heart.. feeling so depressed, but can't show it.. don't want to go to school..