How can I ever find the capacity to place into words what I feel constantly grasping at my heart. No matter how hard I try nothing ever seems to make things go away, by things I refer to memories, trepidations, preconceived anxiety toward certain ideas or situations. Sometimes it seems as if it takes nothing at all to deliver me into a manic ( Read more... )

Well I suppose the most polite thing to do would be to apologize for not having written it months... not that I really know who it is exactly that I'm writing to ^^; Well things most certainly have been eventful in my world... lets start from home base literally..... I moved into my parents home here in Raleigh that they are unfortunately unable to ( Read more... )

This morning at 1:00 AM a dear friend Wanda Wood died in the make-shift hosptal bed in her own home after a long and hard-fought battle with a very progressive form of cancer. Her suffering was so great in the end that her medication was all that kept her semi-concious life in tact. I did not, very regretablly, go to see her in and during those ( Read more... )

Ok ... now that I've recovered from my erh previous condition... took 2 days ^^;.... Oh well I needed to cool down and collect myself. I don't know why but I always flip out and get worried and upset over what eventually becomes nothing and a situation that once appeared bleak and hopeless becomes bright and the best situation possible.... go ( Read more... )

FUCK EVERYTHING RIGHT ABOUT NOW .... JUST FUCK IT ALL...... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHERES MY BOOZE!!!!! AHHHH SON OF A FUCKING BITCH I HATE EVERYTHING!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT !!!! I honestly don't understand why my ass has a fucking glow in the dark bullseye on it ... obviously the size of the continent of Australia... ( Read more... )

Ok so I thought that I was getting better but alas.... I was wrong. So I have been doped up on every cold medicine now onto man... well not every one but Advil is my best friend. I had whitled away my Saturday with Jason, who was sleeping, while I was playing Shadows of Destiny and blowing my nose like a tuba. Needless to say i've been very ( Read more... )

Ok so yeah things are definitly lookin' up ... for now anyway. No ALL things but for the most part... Work was ok today, we were all tired and people were shitty. I have come to the conclusion however, that when all people involved in said shitty day are all having an equally shitty day that its not shitty at all ... in fact in turns out to be ( Read more... )

Ok at least I feel a little bit better today.... well enough to write anyway. Yesterday just as I walked through the door I began to feel weird, then my throat got sore quite suddenly, and now I feel like shit. Which, btw, is fan-freakin'-tastic given the fact that I have to talk to people all day at my job...in fact it was today that I had to ( Read more... )

Alright first off, I9'd like to wish my younger brother Christopher a Happy 21st Birthday !! Bottoms up..... well errh maybe not of well Happy B-Day anyway. I didn't have time to pst yesterday unfortunately as I was out with my younger sister and her friend Jessica whose mother was kind enough to take her in so that she could stay here in NC. Well ( Read more... )

Ok here we go ... again todays post is a whole lot like yesterdays..... 1) No Furuba 2) Apartment people are sucking more each minute 3) Patients suck and my patience is wearing thin 4) People are stupid (okay that ones earned a permanent place as its no surprise) 4) Hooray for Pink Dragon!! ^^ Oh there are some new things though ... the state ( Read more... )