i really do need to get over jealousy. it's so useless. but it does love to make itself my bedfellow. damn this heart of mine.

so, after a lifetime of fully believing i should have been born into the leisure classes i have grown increasingly bored not doing anything so far in new york. not just bored but a bit depressed. but i think it's just my inborn(and totally rational) fear of money running out. i'm still meant to one day be taken care of and if i didn't feel the ( Read more... )

whoa. i'm in new york now for real. last night was easily the most beautiful flight of my life, scenery wise. there was one point where the moon was just coming out and all the sky above it was carolina blue and then right as it touched the moon it was hot pink and then beneath that deep purple and then just clouds everywhere. and it made me ( Read more... )

so, my hopes of a couple fun filled days hanging out with ben and playing final fantasy x 2 have been dashed. the good lord gave me a flat tire. thanks, lord.

maryam is most definitely a miranda.

maryam has decided that i am carrie bradshaw on sex and the city. and being that she knows me best i trust her opinion.

waking up crying from dreams where you discover that your mother and all your best friends really hate you is just about the worst feeling in the world. but not even that is going to ruin my day because new york is but a week away.

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Build up my chi.

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the new year is here and it's already so much better than the old one. i'm going to fight to keep the upswing going. i am not afraid to draw blood to make this the best year of life.

i have decided that 2005 is going to be the year of growing old with grace.