there are 32,064,128 robins hiding in the trees of upper campus
the leaves are showing 512,256 shades between green and red
1024 clouds lifted to reveal this beauty
even the gnats are dancing rhythmically in delight
why shouldn't I?

I know what I must do...

The last 24 hours have been very up and down ( Read more... )

crash, slide, cease, crumpled by the wall, tears, tears that were never meant to be shed alone, but have been, have been for years, gallons, so many that I literally run out, tears that leave me empty, tears that leave me dead, wracked from the inside out, torn from my body and my soul, I feel the weight, my worries are so heavy, they are dragging ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. Today was a lot of fun and tomorrow will undoubtedly be at least as much fun as today. Perhaps I will just make a huge post on Sunday to summarize the weekend and the least couple of days.

I am really, honestly, truly happy right now.

Crappy weather, he said. I just smiled and walked. They were out of pens. I can't possibly write in blood. Unless it's with my jaw bone. Gray clouds show blue creeping through. Or is it grey showing bleu? I want carrots. 3 times a minute now. St. Helens is rumbling. Maybe we should feed it. What does it eat? There's an elephant in the room. ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what to say. I was asked today if I ever want anything and it struck me. Yes, of course. I want lots of things. I know it was meant on a more superficial level regarding food, but still. I do want lots of things deep things, hidden things. Not hidden because they are dark and scary. Hidden for no good reason. Or rather for the ( Read more... )

I have neglected to post for a while. My apologies. This weekend was very strange. It was both very good and very bad. I feel crappy now. I don't feel like typing it all out. There's too much. Talking is good.

It's interesting how the mind works over an accidental cut and twenty-four hours to stew over a comment from Professor Martin that I didn't know I was stewing over. I just realized that I feel lonely when I have no one to care for or take care of. Not in the sense that I need someone dependent on me, but just that I need someone who will let me ( Read more... )

I think I finally arrived... I think it was today
I thought I'd notice when it happened, but I just sat down and found it
Only tomorrow will tell for sure