Same Time Next Year [Part 2]
Title: Same Time Next Year [Part 2]
Author: maea_maie
Rating: I’m pretty much not sure how to rate this. LOL
Classification: 3 years after Hanadan Final.
Spoilers: The Last Chapter.
Warning: Mature, Angst and a very corny and dramatic dialogues LOL
Summary: ‘You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true. You may have to work for it, however.’
Disclaimer: to own or not to be owned? Only they could answer that.
Note: I was planning to split this FF in 3 parts but decided to just finish it already. I already have a next FF in mind and I can’t start it without finishing this first. I can’t just really do 2 things in the same time. *chuckles* I’m weak with that. This FF would have done much sooner but luck is just sooooo sweet. We got a power failure while I’m in the middle of writing this and everything that I’ve written before this just vanished like a Genie from the lamp. *poof!* and today onwards, the moral lesson is always save your file like for every 5 seconds! LOL! Just kidding. And I was supposed to write Jun differently here. More emotional, more selfish, a rape scene here and there [oh-la-la] LOL! … But I just can’t grasp with that feeling. I’m still not passionate enough for mature scenes. I think I still lack of emotions as a FF writer. I need more practice! Yep! So I Do hope that you guys will enjoy this last chappie.
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Thru all this years, Matsumoto Jun has already mastered patience. You won’t hear him argue or complain about anything regarding work. He’s serious, hard working and very dedicated. But, work is completely different in terms of his personal matter. Privately, He’s a one track mind kind of person. If he wants something he would be so restless not until he gets it. He would push thru and thru and he never changes his mind. He knows what he wants and no one can stop him. That’s why it’s still a mystery, on how on earth did he able to hold this patience for a year or so? Why did he still indulge and let this stupid thing continues eventhou his body, heart, mind and soul is in complete rebellion and is so against it?
Everyday is a torture.
He misses her every second, of every minute, of every hour.
Before, He would laugh at his friends when they utter those silly and overly coated love sick words. He would just shake his head when he sees them wanders around like a living zombie and cry at the side of every corners of everywhere. Smugly and confident of his own limits, He thought, “I would never be like that. I won’t degrade myself to such actions.” He’s the great Matsumoto Jun after all.
Oh but now? His well known patriarchy has now fallen.
He never misses her TV Guestings, dramas or movies. If his schedule interferes, he would let his manager tape her guestings or drama and he will watch it before he goes to sleep. Only her can give him the sweetest dreams and can cure his sleepless nights.
Earlier, he thought that he’s in control. He readies his self and had his emotions on check. As the old saying goes, ‘she can run, but she can’t hide.’ He will finish this once and for all. Right here. Right now.
But as he enters the Izakaya, he’s having a hard time to breathe. The anticipation is almost unbearable. If his heart has a mind of its own, it would have jump out of his chest already and throw itself to that person. As he enters the door, when he saw her, the longing feeling resurfaced. She’s still as lovely as she was before. In white off shoulder one piece dress, her presence just brightens the whole room. She’s the sun and moon combine among his personal cloudy and starless sky.
But this sun is making a delicious tingle in his body. Only she can do that. After their separation, no woman could make him feel this way. When their eyes met after his ‘hello’, her eyes, she’s not aware of it but it badly mess up the hormones inside of him. Unconsciously, she parts her very sweet lips and all the dam of self control had just come loose. He wants to taste them again. If the others were not in the same room as them, he would grab her and let insanity rules in. the idea itself gives a burning sensation thru out his body. He wants her, and he would make her want him too. And when she left, he waited for a few moments to tame his bulging pants. It’s a good thing that Okachang runs after her and distracts her for a moment. To prolong the time till Jun’s ready to go after her.
He pretends to concentrate on driving, but he’s well aware of her every sigh, of her every shift and of her every turns.
Now that they’re together like this, the feeling is so familiar. Ever since before, it just amuses him on how they always senses each other’s joy, sadness or pain. They always share everything. This closeness connects them like an invincible cable. Right now, they are one. He knows that she’s tense, he knows that she’s scared… because that’s what he’s feeling right now too. But whatever happens, He won’t mess this up. Everything in his life could suck, he would even give them his blessings, to suck it up with all their heart’s content. But this… nothing in the world would he permit this to be destroyed. He won’t let them. Never.
Now that he remembers the situation at hand, Jun tightly clenched his jaws. He wants to talk but he really can’t. He’s afraid that he would shout at her. His temper, He’s not good in controlling it. And he really hates shouting at her. It makes their heart distant, and he doesn’t want them to be more distant than they already is.
“I’ve heard that you’re planning to go to America… is this true?” this is the calmest manner he could muster. But his voice is so thick and tight that if to be ticked, it promises eruption.
Mao sighs. She knows. She already sees it coming. Who’s the traitor? The blabber? The tattler? The tell tail? But lots of people who love her are against of them apart, so in this case, all of them is on his side.
“Yes.” Mao answered quietly, staring at the darkness outside her window.
Confirming it is different from knowing it. Hearing it personally from her mouth, it just adds fuel to the fire.
“I won’t allow it.” Jun said in gritted teeth. “You are mine. I always keep what’s mine.”
Mao made a sharp intake of breath and looks at him with burning eyes. Like a kitten in fury. “I-won’t-let-you-control-me.” She spat those words in syllables.
“Try me.” Jun countered in equal fury.
The tense atmosphere calmed a bit when ‘tashika na kotto’ filled the car.
The ringtone.
When he heard it earlier at the Izakaya, he knows that she still have feelings for him. The victory scatters warmth inside his body. He’s never been sure of anything before, but this is one bet he’s willing to make.
Flustered, Mao quickly dug onto her bag.
“Hello?” Mao tentatively replied.
Her caller has a loud voice. In a very familiar high pitch voice.
“Mao chan! How are you?”
No doubt.
“Is MatsuJun with you?
Jun flinched. How did he know?
“Nino kun, you just can’t call me every time Jun is missing. I’m not his keeper.”
So he’s a constant caller of her. He never heard of this. Nino never mentions this. He would need to talk to him later. He would have to tie his own hands thou to avoid blood and murder.
“We have this theory that Jun will come around and will just kidnap you. “ He heard laughter in the background and he was shock. His other band mates were with Nino too!
“Actually, you’re right this time. And yes, he’s kidnapping me.”
“Alright!” and all voices just keep talking in the same time.
“Pay up, pay up.” Nino chants excitedly.
“Dammit! This is all Jun’s fault.” Ohno muttered.
“You’re not just an entertainer; you’re also a con artist.” Aiba accused.
“Don’t take my entire money idiot! Hey! hey! Don’t run! Bastart! Bastard!” Sho’s voice fainting.
They’re using an intercom! They think this is entertaining?
Jun opens the window in his side, snatch Mao’s cellular phone and throw it at the river they passed by.
Mao’s in shock “Are you out of your mind? That’s a very important thing you threw!”
He didn’t reply and just step on to the gas in full speed.
Mao looks again at her side window and angrily wipes the frustrating tears.
His joyride with Mao has never been this agitating. If only he could go back at the times were Mao would just hold his hand and lean her head on his shoulder. What happened to them?
Jun suddenly turn right and park the car farther away from the highway road. They were beside a dark, foggy, empty field. Only the faint glistening of the moonlight is present to stand as their light. Originally he plans to take her to his apartment, Only 20 minutes more to get there, but … it had already come to this. Jun hears Mao holding back her hiccups. At the past, whenever they have arguments and Mao ends up crying, that’s were the war ends. He’ll get soft and helpless since he can’t really stand to see her cry.
“Okada kun is waiting for me Jun. so please let me go.” She didn’t dare to look away from the windows.
“I didn’t agree in our break up Mao, but you continued to avoid me. I thought that perhaps you’re just confused, that’s why I gave you time to think it thru… but going to America is another thing. I endured when we don’t go out anymore; I endured seeing you around but not greet, talk or walk my way to you. I can endure it all… but Mao… America is another thing. It is entirely different! I won’t be able to survive it!”
She understands him. She definitely understands him. She can absolutely relate in everything that he said.
“Jun, I’m not contented at the current me. I need to grow and America will help me get it. I’m going to study and try my luck on Hollywood. I will try my best and participate in every audition. You understand me right? You’re also a hard working person yourself…”
“…and besides, you already have a Girlfriend.” Mao swallowed the sudden lump on her throat. “She’s very beautiful. You both look good together.” If truth be told, it’s really how she sees it. She never pretends otherwise. She never gets ugly when jealous.
Jun take her cheeks in the palm of his hands in an intimately familiar manner. He leans closer until their eyes level together.
“She’s beautiful… but it’s your face that I would never get tired looking at. She can make me smile, but you can make me laugh. She’s perfect, but I still want to have the imperfect you. Whenever she kisses me, I taste you. Whenever she holds me, I feel you. When I’m with her, I wish that I’m with you. She comforts me with words, but you can simply comfort me with just your smile. When I’m with other woman, all I could only see is you… It’s like a curse. This present that I’m currently holding is all just a fantasy to me. You’re my only reality. “
“I Love you without even knowing how, when, where or why. The reasons just don’t even matter, its roots just can’t be explained either. You’re the only one who can soften the worst blows in my life by just sitting beside me. I’m the most happiest with you, I thought, why should I question something so wonderful?”
His words rendered her speechless. How could you react in such mind blowing confession?
She knows that he’s going to kiss her; he’s looking at her quivering lips with high level of intensity. Unconsciously, as if in anticipation, her mouth parts, half open. When he finally touched her lips, everything stops. Everything and everyone faints into oblivion. It’s only just Jun and her. They’re in this small world were problems and worries are not necessary. This is the world she dreamt of. If only this kind of world do exist. ..
While kissing her, he slowly rolls his tongue inside her mouth, massaging her tongue and mouth. He’s been kissing her for so long that Mao is the first one to pull away from his mouth to catch her own breath. Jun decides to concentrate on her neck next, lightly kissing and licking it. He slowly moves up to her ear and put her earrings in his mouth while sucking her earlobe. Mao whimpers in sensation.
“My Apartment is just 20 minutes away…” Jun whispered in her ears, His breath igniting those desires that she have been keeping for so long.
She doesn’t have the strength to say no anymore. She’s now completely under his control.
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Jun rest his face on the hollow of Mao’s neck. Both were panting and breathing heavily in extreme exhaustion. They just stay that way while listening at the quick pacing of each other’s hearts. Minutes passed by, their breathing finally returns back to normal. When he felt Mao starting to move below him, he hugs her tighter, imprisoning her. He’s still inside her and doesn’t want to let go of her yet.
“Don’t move.” His voice husky.
“Jun, I Have to go.” It’s impossible but she tries hard to get out from his grasp.
“I Love being inside you. It’s like our life and soul is connected. We belong together since we both fit perfectly. Don’t fight it Mao. We are meant to be.” He kisses her neck all the way up by the ear, then slowly working his way down her neck to the collarbone.
“Stop it Jun...” She reason as she tries to wiggle again. Not letting herself be seduced once more.
“Don’t move Mao, your every movement will just provoke my lower body.”
Jun chuckled and Mao got stunned. She felt him slowly growing inside her. He’s aroused again! Jun thrust his lower body to her ever so slowly to prove his point.
“See? It’s your fault. You have to pay for the consequence.”
“J- Jun…” She felt herself burning again. Everything his lips touch creates a sensuous heat in her sun kissed skin. “I have to go…”
“You don’t have to…”
Jun place his lips against her neck, drawing lines up to the back of her ear. She shudders as Jun gently growls and hums, vibrating his lips and cheeks as he does so. He continues to do it up and down her neck, up to the bones of her face and lips, stimulating her voice into erotic moans. Luring and enticing her is a talent of his, there's a slim chance that she'll win this.
“I have to…” She said between moans. “… and we already broke up…”
That stopped him. He leans forward and towered over her. She has the urge to close her eyes as he was looking at her in the saddest way that she has never seen before.
“Why are you breaking my heart Mao?”
If only he knows how badly she bleeds even without a wound, a cut or a scratch. Everyday she would force herself to go on, a gloomy, sad, depressing life without him by her side. If only she could make him understand that everything she’s been doing up to now is for the best. And whatever may happen, her heart would be always and forever be his.
“You have to move on Jun. Please forget about me.” Mao’s voice croaks. It’s a lie. If he moves on, lucky for him because she will be stuck with this pain all alone since she knows that she could never move on from this.
He placed both his hands on her flushed, soft, plump cheeks and softly rubs her skin.
“I Love you.”
Mao closes her eyes in defeat. It’s her weakness and he knows it. He’s so unfair.
He kissed her right eyelids.
“I Love you”
Then the left
“I Love you”
Her nose
“I Love you.”
Her right cheeks
“I Love you”
The left
“I Love you.”
The right corner of her mouth.
“I Love you”
The left
“I Love you.”
And he saves the best for last.
Jun kiss her mouth in a slow, lingering kiss. And while doing it, he gently sucks on to her bottom lip. He slightly pulls away with her lip while sucking it and then catching her lips again, doing the process over and over again.
“J-Jun, we… we haven’t finish talking.” She manages to say in between kisses.
“We’re already talking.” Jun murmured in her mouth.
When he starts to move his body on top of her, all the reasoning just flew out of the window.
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Mao twitches as the warm sun rays from the window touch her face. Mao blinks as she tries to remember the previous things that happened to her, but it’s not hard for the memories to flood in so easily. It’s so beautiful that it’s so impossible for her to forget. Mao blushes and smiled at the memory. Last night, Jun just couldn’t get enough of her. He keeps doing it again and again and again. He’s insatiable, as if he’s making up at the long, lost time of separation. Every part of her body is sore. but she still felt good. great. excellent.
Mao doesn’t want to wake up. If it’s possible, she wants to be inside his arms forever. She snuggles closer to him and Jun, still in his dreamy state hugs her tighter in response. She saw Jun smiled and she wonders if he’s dreaming of her.
She leans her head at his chest, and as expected, calm waves her whole being while listening to his steady breathing and heart beats. This is where she belongs, in his arms, by his side.
If only life could be that easy.
She felt her eyes starting to build up tears.
Who knew that with one careless picture of them, everything will change?
A fan that’s been stalking Jun’s apartment had caught them kissing in his front door. It was suppose to be a short kiss; she’s planning to give him just a quick peck, but Jun pulled her closer to him by the waist. And once he opened his mouth for a kiss, that’s where they become oblivious of everything around them. That fan caught the scene in her cellular phone video and bitterly passes it on the internet.
And that’s where all the nightmares started.
It was like the 2nd Takuya Kimura incident. There are suicide attempts, boycotts and blackmails. Some fans accept their relationship, and she’s eternally grateful for that, but others were just selfish and did a lot of insane things up to the next.
Jun assures her that everything would be alright since this already happens before too. His company told him that the decision is for him to handle whether he’ll admit it or not. But the thing is she’s not worried about the company or the fans. She’s more worried at him. She knows him from heart. He may act all proud and mighty but he’s also the most sensitive person she ever met. Since he’s an actor, he can pretend in front of her, but in his private moments, she caught him staring blankly into space in deep furrowed face. She knows that he’s worried. When it comes to someone close to him, he’s surprisingly altruistic. He disregards his self and more concern at the welfare of the others. He’s more worried at the consequences of what will Arashi and the company will receive. And that’s one thing she wants to avoid, making him choose between her and the others. Jun love his career. Its one thing he wish for ever since he was young and he really works hard for it. She always knows that she would always be 2nd in his set of priorities, that’s why all she can do is to keep that first intact.
Without Jun knowing, she contacts Johnny Kitagawa, the founder and the former Company president itself. She asks for an appointment and he graciously oblige, disregarding his busy schedule. Despite the cruel accusations to Kitagawa san, she knows that the old man is warm and broad minded. Jun only has good words and high respects to the former president and that’s why she’s not scared of facing him alone. As Jun puts it, ‘he barks but he doesn’t bite’. Jun said that despite the rumors, Johnny doesn’t mind them having a relationship if they know how to handle it. Since Johnny’s artists is being launch for female audience, their private lives and most especially their love life is not forbidden but just strictly be hidden.
“I’m not against with the relationship. Jun is already old enough, and he already did his best up to this very present to make me a very proud and happy mentor of his, that’s why you don’t have to worry at all.”
“I’m happy hearing that sir, but I didn’t come to discuss about that. I’m here to seek for your help and advice.” She filled her lungs with air to calm this overly nervous state of hers.
Kitagawa san raised an eyebrow at her as if willing her to go on.
“I think I’m still not good enough for him sir, that’s why I want to cultivate myself first. I don’t want his fans to accept our relationship by force; I want them to acknowledge me with all their heart. Jun is hurting, he’s being torn between your company, the fans and me, and I don’t like that. That’s why I should do my best to reach his level of popularity.”
The Old man looks at her with those wise eyes of his “It’s brave of you, but how would you plan to do it?”
“By growing apart from him.” She can’t believe that this day did finally come. The farewells and the goodbyes.
“What if you come back and he doesn’t harbor any feelings like he used to?”
Mao smiled bitterly. Just thinking about it, she’s already in pain. “Then, were just not really meant to be...”
Kitagawa san chuckled in amusement. “Now I know why Jun picked you. You’re not like other girls who clings and having a ‘You and me against the world’ theatrics. You’ll face them with patience, pride, brains and wits.”
She shrugs her shoulders “This is how I love sir. I fight my own battle.”
“A… I already have a prediction. I will tell you if we meet again someday.” Kitagawa san offered a hand to her.
Mao accepts it and firmly shakes his hands. “I Hope so sir. I wish to see you again someday in a different situation, a more joyous encounter perhaps.”
“I’ll count on it.”
After that meeting, she decides to talk about this with Jun, and as expected, Jun is so angry and is so oppose at the idea.
“I already chose you Mao! Don’t make decisions on your own!” Jun was breathing heavily. The thought of being away from her is unbearable.
Mao holds tightly on the hem of her shirt to avoid soothing his anger with her hands.
“I don’t need this… complications Jun. I’m tired of this.”
Jun’s eyes widen “You’re giving up?”
Actually, she’s fighting this battle in ways that he doesn’t know.
Jun hugs her and he felt her body stiff in his hold. He starts to panic with her reaction.
“Don’t do this Mao. I need you. I want you. I Love you.”
“I’m sorry Jun…” It’s all that she could say.
That conversation took a day. Jun being so stubborn and doesn’t want to let her go. And because of that, she did something to finalize it all. She phones and gathers a large number of media people and reporters. She hailed a press conference.
“I’m very sorry for not immediately commenting regarding this rumor. I have no explanations regarding the pictures, but one thing that I can confirm is that I, Inoue Mao, and Matsumoto Jun has no romantic relationship involvement or whatsoever. I’m very sorry for the inconvenience that this rumor had brought up, and I hope that Matsumoto Jun’s fans will not do any harm in terms of physically, mentally and most especially verbally after this. Thank you very much.”
She successfully avoided him after that. Jun calls her non stop, that's why she changes her number. Jun oftenly goes to her apartment, she decides to return back to her home town in Yokohama. She tries her best not to clash in schedules too. If Arashi or Jun is present, she will most definitely not attend it.
Jun is at the edge, he was about to make a statement in TV too but Kitagawa san stopped him. and to confuse the media and also perhaps to help Mao, he distracts him. He Implanted Marika in his life. He's the one who introduced Marika, A daughter of a friend. It may be risky, but Kitagawa san become successful because of following his instincts, and this instinct that he's having right now, he would hold on to that. and besides, He likes Mao very much. This fondness won't change.
After that incident, she did try her best, the hardest that she could be and been rewarded with a lot of works and offers. But she still felt empty. She felt that it’s still not enough. That’s why she decided to try her luck in America. That place is the biggest turning point of success in every ambitious actors and actresses. If she succeeds there, she solemnly promises that she will return back to him. She will brace herself whether he’ll accept her or not. She will take chances even how slim that chances would be. No one knows up until when she will return back to Japan again. She can’t make a promise to Jun. She’s afraid of breaking it.
She slowly and carefully pulled herself out of Jun’s arms and glances at the alarm clock on the table. She didn’t been able to call Okada kun but she would just apologize later. He also wants to try his luck in America since he also has some relatives living there too. He’s going to be her guide and he had managed a place for her to stay. It’s already 1:45 and their flight is 3:00. No one knows but her manager that her flight to America is this Afternoon. It’s supposed to be a secret and as if Jun senses it, he’s been able to catch her before they part. Why isn’t she surprised? She never doubt it, they’re destined to be together. And because of that knowledge, it seems to lift her sadness a little.
After fixing herself, she looks at Jun for one last time.
“No more next time, no more next year…” She whispers.
“…but there’s eternity right?”
Before she burst into another batch of tears, she left. She’ll save the crying at the airplane later.
But unknowingly, Mao didn’t know that Jun is awake all this time. As she close the door, Jun opened his eyes.
“I will make you go for now...” Jun buried his face at Mao’s pillow and deeply inhales on her scent.
“…Since I will follow you wherever you are.”
When will this game of hide and seek ends?
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