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emotions
I think there's something I need to work on.
My emotions, my mood, my happiness, it lies too heavily on the people I'm closest too.
Maybe that's normal, I don't know.
How can somebody who claims to care about you, so easily cut you out of their life entierly over something stupid? It doesn't make any sense to me. It didn't make sense the first ( Read more... ) -
Weekend Lists
Stuff I am doing and I want to do before Monday.
Doing:
Saturday
. Work 1-4pm
. 4:30pm 2nd Interview at Clic Klak
. 10pm Nanochrist CD release party @ Neu+tral
To Do before Monday:
. Call Rogers about Bills
. Call Aunt about paying internet bill
. Read Film Script & Start to make notes
. Laundry
. Patch up holes in Velvet Skirt
. Look up OSAP debt relief ( Read more... ) -
Moving Forward Three Times
So again (This is the third time I’ve had to re-write this cause it keeps getting deleted.) This morning I got three not so good txt messages. Not the best way to start my day, plus it’s raining ( Read more... ) -
Roller Coaster
I'm kinda getting sick of this emotional roller coaster I seem to be on.
One minute I seem to be perfectly fine, doing whatever, feeling pretty good maybe even laughing, then one small comment can send me into tears all over again. This can be short bursts or last a while, after which I can go right back to laughing or smiling or whatever. WTF.
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cycle
Why does this keep happening?
Why is this vicious cycle repeating itself all over again?
Obviously there's something I'm not getting.
I let myself be open,
It was so fucking hard to convince myself that 'hey I shouldn't be afraid of love, I should embrace it'
Well I did. And go figure, now I'm hurting again and managed to make somebody I care ( Read more... ) -
Today
Start work today between 2 and 3 hopefully a good 5 hours if I'm lucky, I need the money. Getting less then I thought on my pay today, not cool. Rogers fucked up my bills again so I have to call them and figure that shit out. Lovely.
Still need to call the store back about interviews being done. Need money. Not having much luck in looking for a ( Read more... ) -
Endurance
How do you express the pain you feel, when those you love push you away?
And how many times must it be endured?
Before you loose the will to try? -
switchy
I need to stop being overemotional and so mood-switchy. -
Reading
Did a Tarot reading on myself, wasn't expecting much from it. Well instead I got a lot of shit I already knew and a generally bad reading altogether. Didn't really get answers to what I was asking but more to what I wasn't. Didn't do much to elevate my mood.
Getting out of the house tomorrow.
Groceries (basics only)
Cleaning/maybe laundry
Call store ( Read more... )
