Comments | maeveshne: Life...why bother?

maeveshne

Life...why bother?

May 25, 2007 17:28

For those of you who may not know, Tony, my teen, was sent to a special school in Mass-hole-chusetts (sorry...just how I feel at the moment) on May 2nd, where he will be for the next 12-18 months. Basically, he needs to learn the stuff that a good mom should have succeeded in teaching him. Since he did not learn those lessons, I can only assume ( Read more... )

ovarian pain, tony

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phoenixskywind May 26 2007, 00:51:52 UTC

*hugs and love*

maeveshne May 26 2007, 01:06:12 UTC

While I am not rich in money, I am thankful to be rich in love. Would that hugs and love equated money or financial security, sometimes. They are wonderful...but they would be easier to appreciate if one wasn't so worried all the time about financial matters, downright terrified of the way things have become. But, being rich in love is so much better than nothing, considering the dark path my thoughts are starting to tread...love you, sister, for keeping me as far off of it as you have.

maeveshne May 26 2007, 01:23:06 UTC

You know, I remember one other time I was this low. It was when my BF of 4 years up and left. Only then, I was able to see a counselor, a shrink, whatever. When that failed, I could go to NH and get the hell away from my life for a while, which helped ease the torment. Now...I have nothing. No recourse, at any rate. Sure, I have friends, some of whom are more dear to me than my blood kin. And all of whom are going through some private hell that I cannot help them with, any more than they can help me with. What a world we live in, huh? I have to figure out how to do this completely on my own, because I cannot expect anyone to be there for me. This way, if someone is, great; but if no one is, I will know I can do it on my own, no matter that I am at least as depressed as then, possibly even more. I mean, I came home tonight - no BF, he's at Arkham judging a Magic tournament like he is each Friday. It was all I could do to open the fridge to get some form of food...and then I was not hungry enough to bother eating, so I put ( ... )