TEARSI think this is self-explanatory ( Read more... )

I almost lost my head tonight, racing down the street-circuit of Macao, wondering about all the things money can buy. Like Madsen said: 'I've always liked whores, you know? There's something pure about them.' Yeah! at least they're pretty honest about what they're really looking for. Well, what if I had money like those damned suckers tonight? Yeah ( Read more... )

Sometimes the most stupid things are important turning points in your life and people have to go separate ways. It's like the whispering in this song now... Shit. And it's nobody's fault. Just the way it had to be so that things move on.

Today I found out that my father's friend, Martins, is again in the hospital in Macao. I'm not sure about how that makes me feel, the man being so close to death. Most of the 5 weeks I spent in Macao this summer we where with him. Inspite of all the things I find wrong in his character he strikes me as a good person, I respect him and unlike many ( Read more... )

Last night I watched Ghost Dog and Jeepers Creepers. This last one was really cool because it reminds me of some horror classics. It was funny that when the movie ended and every one went away the wind howlled away when a draught of air came in through the open windows, and the white curtain in the kitchen danced like a ghost in a horror flick. ( Read more... )

It's wonderful the effect music can have on you. I had been trying to get hold of this CD for so long now. Not because it's exceptionaly good and remarkably original but because backside is part of that set of bands I heard on the Fearless Records' Punk Bites 2 collection. I used to hear Punk Bites all the time back in the good old "punk rock days ( Read more... )

Last night I was eating junk food and watching old movies on TNT. It felt really good for a change. Old movies had glamour and since the special effects were nothing grand back on those days they had to rely on the storyline and actually write interesting plots and develop rich characters. Tonight I might do it again. Buy myself a treat of junk ( Read more... )

Slowly destroying myself.

I'm sitting here not doing anything. Lonely, I feel an immense emptiness within me. Is it always going to be like this? What's life got in store for me? What's the point of being put in this world when you don't even have enough energy to get around? The walls of silence beset me from all corners and myself is the only real company I have. Only in ( Read more... )

I was lying down on the couch, watching TV, while the room seemed to be getting smaller and smaller, and the whole world outside, when I was looking through my bedroom window, blacker and blacker. I try to think out my life but even words seem to have deserted me, leaving me baffled and confused. Sometimes I think I am not equipped to live this ( Read more... )