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Watch her as she flew deep within the blue
A day out from the county I.C.U.
There's nothing you can do
Someone gently says to you
The doctor says that now it won't be long
I try and live up to the moment and I hope that I don't blow it
And what is it in me that she hears?
It's just a song she likes
Her little arms around my neck
And a dying girl whispers in my ear
Tell me now can you feel it?
I've been keeping company with a ghost
She comes to me like a piece of summer
She comes to me on the days when I need it most
Well summer dies and nothing lasts forever
And you're so fine, the way you stand up to your fears
The summer dies and its just moments we have together
I'd give my bones for you to get a few more years
For you and me, oh Annie
More than life than trying to survive, oh Annie
My boyfriend took pictures of me as I held you
I travel alone and the loneliness brings me to tears
The summer dies and it's just moments we have together
I'd give my bones for you to get a few more years
For you and I, oh Annie
More to life than trying to survive, oh Annie
Stronger than the hands that hold you
You sing along to the song on the radio
If I drank too much when I am with this
Just this once would you forgive this
And hold on, the days gone by
Tell me now can you feel it?
I can't keep this all to myself
She's elegant and she means it, no
Years for you and I, oh Annie
More to life than trying to survive, oh Annie
Watch her as she flew deep within the blue
Watch her as she slips away from you
I'll keep fingers crossed always for you
Today was something else, defenitly. I have never had a migraine that bad in a really long time. It got so bad that even the teachers noticed and Mrs. Semlick sent me to Nurse Diane. Things went great from there, lemme tell ya.
So I pass out in Nurse Diane's office, waiting for the Aleve I've just taken to set in, and when I wake up, Jared and George are sitting across from me at the counter, sitting and chatting and staring at me like I'm some world wonder or something. It seemed they'd been talking about me for a long time, by the way they shut their mouths as soon as I lifted my head from the pillow. Jared blushed big time, and I KNEW something was going on. I dated Jared at one point, so I know when he's trying to be sneaky and failing.
So Jared says something stupid about my beanie ( the " Everyone Loves an Irish Girl." one) to the effect of " You can't really be Irish, you don't have red hair and green eyes."
Excuse me? Mr. Poster Boy for the next Howdy Doody. First of all, my hair is red-blond because I'm not just Irish, I'm Russian and Norwegian as well. That's where I get my blond hair and blue-gre eyes and millions of freckles and fucking glow in the dark pale skin. Second of all, I've got an all Irish temper on me, according to my whole family and group of friends. And third... Nice fucking sterotype, ya asshat.
So I chose to give into that lovely Irish temper at that moment, made sure that Nurse Diane was out of the office, and yelled at them. " If there isn't something medically wrong with you, then get the fuck out of the room!" I said, in a very no-nonsense tone. George told me to fuck off and Jared dragged him out of the room, because George is fucked in the head and has no qualms about beating up a girl. That's why he's got no girlfriends, because the last one ended up in the hospital for a month.
Apparently there was a girl in the office that I hadn't seen, and she told Nurse Diane that I'd told them off, and I'm sitting here thinking Nurse Diane's gonna yell at me or something, and then she gives me a big hug. She doesn't like negative things in her office. (And apparently I don't count. Huh.) So go Annie, Defender Chick... something like that...
I went to Lloyd Center with Lindsay and Adam, to Hot Topic so Adam could buy things with his nifty gift card. 100 dollars on it. I have never gotten that much money on anything, unless I worked all summer for it. He got a pair of pants, four shirts, some makeup, and a tube of liquid eyeliner/mascara for me. In bright green. I'm so wearing it tomorrow.
Today in Health, we watched a movie with Molly Ringwald in it, the story line goes thus: A girl had slit her wrists and gone to the hospital. She recovers and resurfaces in life at a block party and greets all her old friends. She slowly falls in love with her best friend, Rick. He becomes obsessed in love with her because thier parents are determined to keep them apart, so they commit suicide together by sitting in her parents garage with the car on. That's how far we've gotten. It's really depressing, but it makes me laugh at the same time. Partly because everyone was laughing at me for singing all the songs that were in the movie, because it was from the eighties and I knew them all. Justice didn't seem to mind, he just held my hand and cradled my head on his shoulder because I was kinda crying when her parents found them dead in the car...
I swear, I will never be so in love with someone that I'm willing to die for them, not like that. And I wouldn't be stupid like her character and let my boyfriend talking me into suicide. Nuh-uh. No guy is worth that much to me. I'd rather live a life alone than be dead with my love. I like my life, there's no reason for me to give it up.
Wednesday Kel's gonna take pictures of me. Pretty pretty pictures. I love it when I have friends that are willing to take my mind off things by dressing me up pretty and taking pictures of me.
I should bathe. I've got glitter all over my face, and I'm sure as hell not sleeping in it. Plus some Epsom salt, for those aches and pains in my shoulders. I wish someone would give me a backrub.