Fic: Que Sera Sera (15/15)
Fandom: TOS/TNG/ST XI -slight AU where there isn’t a 16 year gap between the events of Generations and Star Trek 2009.
Pairings: Kirk Prime/McCoy Prime/Spock Prime, Kirk/Spock/McCoy, Scotty/Uhura
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: minor character death
Summary: Spock Prime went to save Romulus from a supernova and failed, leaving him in a universe that is similar and still so different from his own. Meanwhile in another part of the galaxy Kirk Prime was freed from the Nexus by Captain Picard and survived. Not believing that Spock Prime is dead Kirk Prime goes in search of him, and travels to the universe created when Nero went through the black hole. In that universe Kirk and Spock are starting on their five year mission, determined to write their own destinies after their encounters with Spock Prime. Unlike them McCoy doesn’t trust destiny as far as he can throw it, and he has his own problems to deal with, like getting custody of the three year old daughter he didn’t know he had.
Que Sera Sera
Kirk and Spock went with Bones and their counterparts to the clinic when Bones went in for the procedure the next morning.
Bones hugged Joanna hard and kissed her goodbye, before letting the elder Spock and Jim take her out to the courtyard. Bones didn’t want her to see him being prepped for surgery.
Kirk and Spock remained by his side.
“Why are you such a good patient with him Bones?” Kirk asked suddenly as he watched Bones wait patiently on the bed as McCoy ran his tests and prepared the drugs for the procedure. “Normally you yell at everyone and insist you can be back on duty.”
“Because I don’t have to watch my sickbay fall apart from a bio-bed, Jim.”
“Your staff knows what they’re doing, Bones, you should trust them.”
“Oh, and you don’t try to run out on me right after I’ve gotten you to stop bleeding because your crew might fly the ship into an asteroid?”
Kirk didn’t answer.
Bones smirked. “I thought so.” He winced as McCoy pressed a sedative into his shoulder.
“Hey, how come you don’t put those in his neck?” Kirk asked.
“What do I look like, Kid, a vampire? The neck is a valid injection site, but I never use it.”
“Another strike against the ‘I’m just like him’ idea.”
McCoy took his final readings made sure a nurse was ready to assist him.
“All right we’re ready.”
As they began to move Bones’ bed into the next room Kirk’s arrogant front suddenly went away and he just looked scared.
“Don’t leave.”
“Jim?”
“I know I’m a control freak who projects arrogance to compensate for insecurities and I need you here to knock my head in for that, Bones, so you can’t leave me!”
Kirk grabbed Bones’ arm, gripped his hand and squeezed hard. Spock quickly came over and covered their hands with his own.
Bones smiled at them. “Thanks you two…for everything.” Then his eyes fluttered closed under the effects of the sedative.
With that McCoy moved him into surgery and they were gone.
***
They sat in the small waiting room anxiously. At the two hours mark Kirk stomped outside to pace around in the courtyard, and after watching him for half an hour the elder Spock came out to join him.
“Leonard is a gifted surgeon, Jim. The odds are in his favour.”
“Because Bones is destined to be with me even though I rejected him?”
“Jim, when I told you about all that I merely-"
“Was your destiny to cause me pain?” Kirk asked the Vulcan.
“Do not blame me, Jim, I did not make your choices for you.”
Kirk glared at the elder Vulcan. “But you influenced those choices! I’ve seen your world, your life, and I can’t un-see it! I know everything!”
“You know nothing.”
Kirk went back to glaring at the landscape.
“Why did you show me all that in that meld?”
“It was never my intention that you know so much, Jim. I only wished to show you the events that caused such devastation in your universe as swiftly and completely as possible. However, if my memories in any way influenced your desires of one another earlier then I cannot regret what happened.”
“Why not?”
“Because you could have so many more years with them than I will now.”
Kirk couldn’t help but be intrigued.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“In my universe an encounter with a doorway to a pocket universe where time did not exist robbed my Jim from Leonard and me for nearly eight decades. It robbed Jim of the chance to watch his grandchildren grow up. It robbed us all of the chance to truly grow old together. Even though we are together again now that time can never be given back.”
Kirk leaned against a nearby bench, thinking.
“Those kids…are they still around where you come from?”
“Yes.”
“Aren’t you robbing him of seeing them at all if you stay here?”
Spock pondered that question as they went back inside, perhaps he was.
They came back into the waiting area and found the younger Spock with Joanna now sleeping in his lap.
“Do you want me to take her?” Kirk asked.
Spock shook his head.
“You are good with her,” the elder Spock noted.
“Thank you.”
“Why won’t you do more for this relationship, Spock?” his asked his young counterpart. “Since you are attached to the child and you desire Jim and Leonard."
“Because I wished to be spared your pain,” Spock answered bluntly.
“My pain?”
“You spoke of what your Jim and your Leonard meant to you and I could see the pain they cause you be their leaving. I do not wish to know such pain.”
“Spock, I believed them both dead of course that loss hurt, but I had wonderful years with them that I would not trade for anything in the universe, even if they had not returned to me now. The benefits of the three of us being together far outweigh the pain of being alone without them.”
"Really?"
"Without a doubt."
Jim looked at his Spock. “We could have even more wonderful years in our own world, Spock.”
“I know, your counterpart has given me reason to think you deserve to know the people there.”
“It’s not just my ties to the people back home you know. You have your own relatives to consider. Your brother wants you home, Spock.”
Kirk sat up straight in his chair. “Brother?” he asked, and turned his head to look at his Spock.
Spock glared at the floor. He was forbidden to speak or think of Sybok and the destruction of his home world had not changed that.
“I do not know of whom he speaks.”
“I did not expect you to. You may be an only child, Spock, but I am not.”
Kirk just stared in shock.
“World isn’t so cut and dry as you thought is it?” Jim asked him.
“Don’t look smug, old man. You don’t know anything about me or what I think about all this!”
“You sure? You seem to think I do. You seem to think you’re just a carbon copy of me. Well, let me tell you right now, Kid, you’re not!”
Kirk shot out of his chair, but Jim was ready and quickly blocked his advance.
“You intend to let them simply carry on like this?” Spock asked his older self.
“My captain can hold his own in a fight even now, can yours?”
It seemed not as Jim got Kirk’s hands behind his back and pinned him to the wall.
“Now you listen up, Kid, and you listen good. You are a brash, arrogant, loud-mouth and I don’t think you could write a proper report to save your life.”
“Right, old man, you’re wonderful and I suck I get it!”
“I wasn’t finished! You’re also loyal, determined, and smart. I know, my Spock told all about your adventure with Nero. You’ll go far, Kid, but you can’t do that by looking back. You can’t keep comparing yourself to whatever you’ve seen me be. You need to start trusting in yourself and your crew and understand that your Spock and your Bones love you for you, not who you think you should be.”
Jim shifted his weight off Kirk and released him from his grip.
“And also you can’t fight worth a damn.”
Kirk dropped down into his chair.
“Gives speeches like that a lot do you?”
“It’s my thing.”
“Well I hope I never become such a windbag.”
“I hope so too. You shouldn’t be just like me, and you shouldn’t let yourself be so scared of what might come that you ignore what’s here and now.”
“Yes, your destiny is what you make of it. Even if it is not the way I would like to see it. I must let you live your lives on your own.”
Jim turned to his Spock a tiny flame of hope spreading through his chest.
“Spock, are you saying…?”
“We could stay, Jim, and give further aid I know that, but I see now that to do that would make us a crutch. They are too uncertain of themselves in our presence. We must step back and let it be, let them grow into whatever they will be on their own.”
Spock leaned over in his chair, taking Jim’s hand and pressing their fingers together in a Vulcan kiss.
“Take me home, Jim.”
“And once again you two decide everything without me,” McCoy’s voice called out from the door.
“Bones.”
Spock and Jim rushed up to him, staying on either side to support him as he slumped down in exhaustion.
“I’m too old for this.”
Jim chuckled. “Never, Bones.”
“How is he?” Spock asked as he and Kirk rushed up to them too.
“He pulled through just fine, and he’s got a clean bill of health. You can go see him just don’t-”
Kirk dashed into the other room shouting Bones’ name.
“Do that.”
They followed Kirk into the room to find him squeezing Bones tightly.
“Too tight,” Bones croaked out, and Kirk loosened his hold. “Haven’t I told you how to treat an invalid?”
Kirk just put his hands on either side of Bones’ face and kissed him deeply.
Bones smiled when Kirk pulled back. “That’s a good way to treat one.”
“I’m sorry, Bones, you were right, they’re right. Even if we just some weird spin-off of them I won’t not do this just because they did.”
“That’s what I wanted to hear.”
Kirk moved off the bed, but kept his hand wrapped tightly around Bones’.
“So we’re okay?” Kirk asked.
“Yeah we’re okay.”
“Good.”
Bones looked at Kirk seriously. “Promise that we’re really going to try, Jim.”
“I promise.”
“You agree to this too, Hobgoblin?” Bones asked, and both he and Kirk turned to look at Spock as he came up to the other side of Bones’ bed, putting Joanna, still asleep, next to Bones so he could hug her.
“Of course, with your attitude, Doctor McCoy, and the captain’s reckless behavior my presence in this relationship will be essential.”
“Hey!”
***
When Bones was well enough to travel again everyone, including their older selves, went back to the Enterprise. While several crewmembers asked many awkward questions during the trip they arrived at the proper planet without incident and both trios went down to the Guardian.
“Fascinating.”
Bones shivered. “It’s creepy.”
“I think it looks like a doughnut.”
McCoy rolled his eyes. “Kids these days have no respect for anything.”
Jim stepped up to the Guardian “Guardian, take us home.”
The middle of the Guardian smoked and then cleared to reveal Scotty, Uhura, Chekov, and Sulu still waiting for them. McCoy and Jim smiled, they weren’t too late after all.
“That’s your crew?” Kirk asked.
Jim shook his head. “No, that’s our family. In time you’ll have that too.”
Kirk smiled. “I think I’m getting there.”
Jim nodded, and smiled again. “Well, you three, I won’t say it’s been pleasant, but it was certainly fun.”
McCoy turned to Bones. “Try to keep those two out of trouble and take care of yourself too. You guys deserve peaceful long lives.”
“I’ll do my best and thank you for everything.”
The elder Spock looked at the three young men and held up his hand in the proper salute.
“Good luck.”
Then Jim, Spock, and McCoy held each others hands and stepped through the portal and back into their own world, never to be parted again.
Bones, Kirk, and Spock watched as their counterparts stepped through the gateway. It shimmered as they passed through it and then went blank. All at once the three younger men were alone.
“You know,” Bones said, “even after all that’s happened I’m really going to miss those guys.”
“Indeed.”
After a few minutes of silence Kirk slapped Spock and Bones on their backs and smiled.
“Well, you two let’s get back to where we belong.”
Kirk reached for his belt and flipped his communicator open.
“Scotty, three to beam up.”
The End
Pairings: Kirk Prime/McCoy Prime/Spock Prime, Kirk/Spock/McCoy, Scotty/Uhura
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: minor character death
Summary: Spock Prime went to save Romulus from a supernova and failed, leaving him in a universe that is similar and still so different from his own. Meanwhile in another part of the galaxy Kirk Prime was freed from the Nexus by Captain Picard and survived. Not believing that Spock Prime is dead Kirk Prime goes in search of him, and travels to the universe created when Nero went through the black hole. In that universe Kirk and Spock are starting on their five year mission, determined to write their own destinies after their encounters with Spock Prime. Unlike them McCoy doesn’t trust destiny as far as he can throw it, and he has his own problems to deal with, like getting custody of the three year old daughter he didn’t know he had.
Que Sera Sera
Kirk and Spock went with Bones and their counterparts to the clinic when Bones went in for the procedure the next morning.
Bones hugged Joanna hard and kissed her goodbye, before letting the elder Spock and Jim take her out to the courtyard. Bones didn’t want her to see him being prepped for surgery.
Kirk and Spock remained by his side.
“Why are you such a good patient with him Bones?” Kirk asked suddenly as he watched Bones wait patiently on the bed as McCoy ran his tests and prepared the drugs for the procedure. “Normally you yell at everyone and insist you can be back on duty.”
“Because I don’t have to watch my sickbay fall apart from a bio-bed, Jim.”
“Your staff knows what they’re doing, Bones, you should trust them.”
“Oh, and you don’t try to run out on me right after I’ve gotten you to stop bleeding because your crew might fly the ship into an asteroid?”
Kirk didn’t answer.
Bones smirked. “I thought so.” He winced as McCoy pressed a sedative into his shoulder.
“Hey, how come you don’t put those in his neck?” Kirk asked.
“What do I look like, Kid, a vampire? The neck is a valid injection site, but I never use it.”
“Another strike against the ‘I’m just like him’ idea.”
McCoy took his final readings made sure a nurse was ready to assist him.
“All right we’re ready.”
As they began to move Bones’ bed into the next room Kirk’s arrogant front suddenly went away and he just looked scared.
“Don’t leave.”
“Jim?”
“I know I’m a control freak who projects arrogance to compensate for insecurities and I need you here to knock my head in for that, Bones, so you can’t leave me!”
Kirk grabbed Bones’ arm, gripped his hand and squeezed hard. Spock quickly came over and covered their hands with his own.
Bones smiled at them. “Thanks you two…for everything.” Then his eyes fluttered closed under the effects of the sedative.
With that McCoy moved him into surgery and they were gone.
***
They sat in the small waiting room anxiously. At the two hours mark Kirk stomped outside to pace around in the courtyard, and after watching him for half an hour the elder Spock came out to join him.
“Leonard is a gifted surgeon, Jim. The odds are in his favour.”
“Because Bones is destined to be with me even though I rejected him?”
“Jim, when I told you about all that I merely-"
“Was your destiny to cause me pain?” Kirk asked the Vulcan.
“Do not blame me, Jim, I did not make your choices for you.”
Kirk glared at the elder Vulcan. “But you influenced those choices! I’ve seen your world, your life, and I can’t un-see it! I know everything!”
“You know nothing.”
Kirk went back to glaring at the landscape.
“Why did you show me all that in that meld?”
“It was never my intention that you know so much, Jim. I only wished to show you the events that caused such devastation in your universe as swiftly and completely as possible. However, if my memories in any way influenced your desires of one another earlier then I cannot regret what happened.”
“Why not?”
“Because you could have so many more years with them than I will now.”
Kirk couldn’t help but be intrigued.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“In my universe an encounter with a doorway to a pocket universe where time did not exist robbed my Jim from Leonard and me for nearly eight decades. It robbed Jim of the chance to watch his grandchildren grow up. It robbed us all of the chance to truly grow old together. Even though we are together again now that time can never be given back.”
Kirk leaned against a nearby bench, thinking.
“Those kids…are they still around where you come from?”
“Yes.”
“Aren’t you robbing him of seeing them at all if you stay here?”
Spock pondered that question as they went back inside, perhaps he was.
They came back into the waiting area and found the younger Spock with Joanna now sleeping in his lap.
“Do you want me to take her?” Kirk asked.
Spock shook his head.
“You are good with her,” the elder Spock noted.
“Thank you.”
“Why won’t you do more for this relationship, Spock?” his asked his young counterpart. “Since you are attached to the child and you desire Jim and Leonard."
“Because I wished to be spared your pain,” Spock answered bluntly.
“My pain?”
“You spoke of what your Jim and your Leonard meant to you and I could see the pain they cause you be their leaving. I do not wish to know such pain.”
“Spock, I believed them both dead of course that loss hurt, but I had wonderful years with them that I would not trade for anything in the universe, even if they had not returned to me now. The benefits of the three of us being together far outweigh the pain of being alone without them.”
"Really?"
"Without a doubt."
Jim looked at his Spock. “We could have even more wonderful years in our own world, Spock.”
“I know, your counterpart has given me reason to think you deserve to know the people there.”
“It’s not just my ties to the people back home you know. You have your own relatives to consider. Your brother wants you home, Spock.”
Kirk sat up straight in his chair. “Brother?” he asked, and turned his head to look at his Spock.
Spock glared at the floor. He was forbidden to speak or think of Sybok and the destruction of his home world had not changed that.
“I do not know of whom he speaks.”
“I did not expect you to. You may be an only child, Spock, but I am not.”
Kirk just stared in shock.
“World isn’t so cut and dry as you thought is it?” Jim asked him.
“Don’t look smug, old man. You don’t know anything about me or what I think about all this!”
“You sure? You seem to think I do. You seem to think you’re just a carbon copy of me. Well, let me tell you right now, Kid, you’re not!”
Kirk shot out of his chair, but Jim was ready and quickly blocked his advance.
“You intend to let them simply carry on like this?” Spock asked his older self.
“My captain can hold his own in a fight even now, can yours?”
It seemed not as Jim got Kirk’s hands behind his back and pinned him to the wall.
“Now you listen up, Kid, and you listen good. You are a brash, arrogant, loud-mouth and I don’t think you could write a proper report to save your life.”
“Right, old man, you’re wonderful and I suck I get it!”
“I wasn’t finished! You’re also loyal, determined, and smart. I know, my Spock told all about your adventure with Nero. You’ll go far, Kid, but you can’t do that by looking back. You can’t keep comparing yourself to whatever you’ve seen me be. You need to start trusting in yourself and your crew and understand that your Spock and your Bones love you for you, not who you think you should be.”
Jim shifted his weight off Kirk and released him from his grip.
“And also you can’t fight worth a damn.”
Kirk dropped down into his chair.
“Gives speeches like that a lot do you?”
“It’s my thing.”
“Well I hope I never become such a windbag.”
“I hope so too. You shouldn’t be just like me, and you shouldn’t let yourself be so scared of what might come that you ignore what’s here and now.”
“Yes, your destiny is what you make of it. Even if it is not the way I would like to see it. I must let you live your lives on your own.”
Jim turned to his Spock a tiny flame of hope spreading through his chest.
“Spock, are you saying…?”
“We could stay, Jim, and give further aid I know that, but I see now that to do that would make us a crutch. They are too uncertain of themselves in our presence. We must step back and let it be, let them grow into whatever they will be on their own.”
Spock leaned over in his chair, taking Jim’s hand and pressing their fingers together in a Vulcan kiss.
“Take me home, Jim.”
“And once again you two decide everything without me,” McCoy’s voice called out from the door.
“Bones.”
Spock and Jim rushed up to him, staying on either side to support him as he slumped down in exhaustion.
“I’m too old for this.”
Jim chuckled. “Never, Bones.”
“How is he?” Spock asked as he and Kirk rushed up to them too.
“He pulled through just fine, and he’s got a clean bill of health. You can go see him just don’t-”
Kirk dashed into the other room shouting Bones’ name.
“Do that.”
They followed Kirk into the room to find him squeezing Bones tightly.
“Too tight,” Bones croaked out, and Kirk loosened his hold. “Haven’t I told you how to treat an invalid?”
Kirk just put his hands on either side of Bones’ face and kissed him deeply.
Bones smiled when Kirk pulled back. “That’s a good way to treat one.”
“I’m sorry, Bones, you were right, they’re right. Even if we just some weird spin-off of them I won’t not do this just because they did.”
“That’s what I wanted to hear.”
Kirk moved off the bed, but kept his hand wrapped tightly around Bones’.
“So we’re okay?” Kirk asked.
“Yeah we’re okay.”
“Good.”
Bones looked at Kirk seriously. “Promise that we’re really going to try, Jim.”
“I promise.”
“You agree to this too, Hobgoblin?” Bones asked, and both he and Kirk turned to look at Spock as he came up to the other side of Bones’ bed, putting Joanna, still asleep, next to Bones so he could hug her.
“Of course, with your attitude, Doctor McCoy, and the captain’s reckless behavior my presence in this relationship will be essential.”
“Hey!”
***
When Bones was well enough to travel again everyone, including their older selves, went back to the Enterprise. While several crewmembers asked many awkward questions during the trip they arrived at the proper planet without incident and both trios went down to the Guardian.
“Fascinating.”
Bones shivered. “It’s creepy.”
“I think it looks like a doughnut.”
McCoy rolled his eyes. “Kids these days have no respect for anything.”
Jim stepped up to the Guardian “Guardian, take us home.”
The middle of the Guardian smoked and then cleared to reveal Scotty, Uhura, Chekov, and Sulu still waiting for them. McCoy and Jim smiled, they weren’t too late after all.
“That’s your crew?” Kirk asked.
Jim shook his head. “No, that’s our family. In time you’ll have that too.”
Kirk smiled. “I think I’m getting there.”
Jim nodded, and smiled again. “Well, you three, I won’t say it’s been pleasant, but it was certainly fun.”
McCoy turned to Bones. “Try to keep those two out of trouble and take care of yourself too. You guys deserve peaceful long lives.”
“I’ll do my best and thank you for everything.”
The elder Spock looked at the three young men and held up his hand in the proper salute.
“Good luck.”
Then Jim, Spock, and McCoy held each others hands and stepped through the portal and back into their own world, never to be parted again.
Bones, Kirk, and Spock watched as their counterparts stepped through the gateway. It shimmered as they passed through it and then went blank. All at once the three younger men were alone.
“You know,” Bones said, “even after all that’s happened I’m really going to miss those guys.”
“Indeed.”
After a few minutes of silence Kirk slapped Spock and Bones on their backs and smiled.
“Well, you two let’s get back to where we belong.”
Kirk reached for his belt and flipped his communicator open.
“Scotty, three to beam up.”
The End