10 drabbles-prompt from st_xi_kink
Summary: Drabbles based on songs (prompt form st_xi_ kink meme
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Star Trek XI
Pairing/Characters: Kirk/McCoy, Spock
Disclaimer: Don't own anything
1. Savin’ Me- Nickelback
Jim looked at the sleeping man in his arms and smiled, hugging him tighter as he thought about how lucky he was to have this. Bones had always been there for him. Right from their first meeting, part of Jim had known that Bones was going to save him from himself. It took a while before he became consciously aware of that, before he realised that the torn parts of his heart were being slowly but surely mended. At first he’d been scared of this new feeling, tried to push Bones away and curl back up into his lonely shell, but Bones hadn’t let him. Jim had been certain that something would go wrong to destroy this fragile happiness, that he could never deserve Bones’ love. But gradually Jim had discovered that their bond was too strong to be broken, no matter what the universe threw at them. Jim was damn glad he’d taken that chance. Jim laced their fingers together and kissed where their rings touched. Yeah, Bones had definitely saved him.
2. Addicted- Saving Abel
McCoy hated himself for this. But he couldn’t stop. Jim’s scent, taste and those soft breathy whimpers falling from those pouty pink lips were intoxicating. He should be content with what he had. Jim was his best friend, as well as his fuck-buddy. Why couldn’t he be happy with that? He hated himself for wanting more. He knew Jim could never share his desires. Jim was so much smarter, braver, more attractive, just so much better than McCoy, it was amazing he even found him good enough to fuck, let alone be friends with. McCoy wanted to scream. Cry. Run. Run away from Jim and never come back. God how he wanted to. Just get out now and spare himself more heartbreak. But he knew he couldn’t do that. It was already far too late. He was addicted to Jim, everything about him. So, like always, he bit back ‘I love you’ as he came, completely unaware that Jim was doing the same.
3. Keep Holding On- Avril Lavigne
Please wake up. Please Bones. C’mon. Just open your eyes. Please. For me. Please. I can’t lose you. This is all my fault. I shouldn’t have let you come. I knew it was dangerous. But you insisted. And I said yes, because I can never say no to you. But I need you too. Always have. You can’t leave me. Not now. Not before I have to chance to stop being a goddamn coward and tell you I love you. Dammit, why won’t you wake up? Please Bones please. Just hold on a little longer. Just a little longer, til we get back to the ship. M’Benga will fix you up and everything will be ok. Just keep holding on a little longer. Please. Please Bones.
4. New Divide - Linkin Park
McCoy reached out desperately to Jim, futilely trying to close the gap between them. Lightning flashed, bright and blinding, illuminating the blackness for a split-second. Jim’s eyes were burning with fear, urgency, and worst of all, resignation.
“You can’t save me. Go, now.”
“No! I’m not leaving you! Don’t you dare let go!”
“Bones, get out of here now! That’s an order!”
“And I’m disobeying it!”
“Please Bones.” Jim whispered, voice suddenly cracking. “Please, I can’t be responsible for your death!”
“And I can’t be responsible for yours!”
Their eyes locked and Bones could see he’d won. Immediately he started clambering over the slick, crumbling rocks, ignoring the voice that told him this was impossible and insane.
30 minutes later when he was holding Jim safely in his arms in Sickbay, he was glad that he’d picked up a little of Jim’s penchant for achieving the impossible and insane.
“Thanks for not giving up on me.”
McCoy kissed Jim’s forehead gently.
“You would have done the same for me.”
Jim smiled and snuggled closer.
5. Perfect- Alanis Morissette
Jim laughed sadly as the hot, dry wind rushed through his hair. It was fitting, for him to die like this. From a random stroke of fate, where he had time to think about what a fuck-up he was. God he was pathetic. He’d known for a long time he would never be the man his father was, never be a hero, but the least he could have done was save Sulu. A guy who probably had a future and people who cared about him. But he was too useless to even do that, and now they were both going to die.
He couldn’t believe he’d ever thought that he might be able to make something of himself. That Starfleet might be able to fix him. He should have known better. The only thing he didn’t regret about joining Starfleet was meeting Bones. At least he’d had those 3 years of feeling like, maybe, just maybe he could be good enough to love. Well, it was time for that illusion to end. ‘I love you Bones, and I’m sorry I couldn’t be perfect for you.’
6. Flirt- Pussycat Dolls
McCoy’s heart does that painful clenching thing when he sees Jim zeroing in on his next conquest, his eyes playful and intense. That look had been directed at him many times, but it had never meant anything. Jim could flirt with anything that breathed, but he was a lot more discriminating about who he actually slept with, and McCoy was the wrong gender to be on that list.
McCoy downed his next shot in one gulp, reveling in the burning liquid’s ability to numb the pain in his heart, if only for a few hours.
Jim glances over at him, and gestures, slightly apologetically, that he’ll be ditching McCoy, as usual, and McCoy forces a smile, as usual, then proceeds to drown himself bourbon, as usual.
7. The Right Man- Christina Aguilera
Jim could hardly believe this was happening, even as he heard Pike ask him the million dollar question. If someone had told him 5 years ago that he would be getting married at 26, he would have laughed. He’d thought he was too broken to love, or be loved, and while he'd felt a spark right from their first meeting, he'd never expected it to grow into something so strong.
He could feel Bones fidgeting nervously beside him and realized he’d probably been silent a couple of seconds too long. Jim sent him a reassuring grin.
“I do.”
Bones smiled back as he slipped the band onto Jim’s finger. It felt right, like it had always belonged there.
His hands shaking a little with emotion, Jim in turn slid a ring onto Bones’ hand.
And when he leaned forward to capture Bones’ lips in soft, gentle kiss, their fingers still twined together, Jim knew that he’d finally found his place in the universe.
8. Grease
“This film is most illogical. It depicts many stereotypical behaviors of human teenagers that are, to the best of my knowledge, negative and largely false, as though they are admirable qualities, as well as providing no plausible explanation as to why Sandy chooses to compromise her ethical beliefs in order to impress Danny, despite his repeated ungentlemanly acts towards her. Each of the adult characters are represented as incompetent and foolish, and in addition, much of the lyrical content is nonsensical and contributes nothing to the plot. Finally, the resolution contains a flying automobile. It is my understanding that hovercars were not invented on Earth for many years after this film was created.
Jim shook his head sadly, while Bones just poured another glass of Saurian brandy. “Never mind Spock. Just never mind.”
9. Nobody’s Fool- Avril Lavigne
Jim came to the realization that life was unfair sooner than the average kid. He was 4 when he fully understood that he didn’t have a dad, like other kids, and that Frank would never replace him. Jim also knew that Winona had been too damaged by George’s death to be the sort of mother he should have had. And with this knowledge, it was inevitable that Jim would learn to cope by sticking strictly to the belief that people were bastards who would exploit you if they could, and Jim was resolute that he would not be one of the fools who allowed that to happen to him.
It had worked for 22 years, until the day he met Bones. Then his world was turned upside down. He found himself unable to shut this man out, no matter how much he fought with himself. And now, after 4 years of friendship, 3 years as lovers and 3 as husbands, he was glad that he had decided to give in to the feeling, no matter how terrifying it had been at the time.
10. You Oughta Know- Alanis Morissette
Jocelyn loved waving her new husband in Leonard’s face like a trophy every time he came over to visit Joanna. He tried to pretend it didn’t hurt, but he knew he wasn’t fooling anyone, least of all himself. Joce had been his first, and (he’d thought), only love and she had crushed his heart in a way he’d never even thought was possible. 4 years after the divorce and it still hurt just as much as the day it happened. At first, fucking Jim was just a pathetic attempt at revenge. Even if she never knew, it still felt good, knowing that he could land someone far sexier than her new husband.
But, after a while, he realised that it was something more than that. He’d been terrified of putting his still-fragile heart into another’s hands again, but gradually he came to trust that Jim wouldn’t hurt him like Jocelyn had. He realised that he’d won their petty game of revenge. Sure, she had bucket-loads of money and a high spot on the social ladder, but he had something far more valuable than she did. True love.