life by design
I'm going to take a moment out of my day to write about certain things that I can't believe are real.
Firstly, everyone keeps asking why bush has been re-elected. The Mirror printed a cover that asked how so many people could be so dumb.
I don't know the answer to that, but I will say this (again): people aren't dumb. They're trained. They're being conditioned. They're being prepared for the future, which is something that I don't necessarily look forward to, as an earthling. But at the same time, it is inevitable for me to have hope and be excited to see how things will be when I am 30, 40, 50, 60, etc. I am morbidly excited. If you're familiar to some of my rhetoric on what I think about the earth and human beings, you know that I have a pretty firm grasp on what's probably going on. I say probably not because I know, but because something is inside of me that gives me a certain sense of what's going on. I'm not a godly or religious person. I just like puzzles.
It blows my mind that in the period of just a few years, my beliefs have gone from corner to corner to corner and now that things have boiled for a while and risen to the top, it's actually quite simple. Here's what I say to people who have political vitriol or are giddy with victory, after everything that's happened in the last couple days, and beyond that, the last couple years...here's what I say to anyone who gets upset about what's going on - whether they be conservatives who are STILL little bitches for whatever reason even though they possess the power, or liberals who are pissed off at the conservatives for abusing that power:
So, the country (hell the world) is fcked, but let's not blame the president whose family helped and who personally helped to escalate the fcking. let's not put the blame all on him because he's such a great president who's doing what any idiot politician in their right mind would do in the same situation. let's not blame him because when 9/11 happened, he didn't, as david cross puts it, lock himself in a hotel room somewhere, run to the corner with a bottle of booze screaming i don't know what to do?! what am I gonna do?! let's not blame him because he's the one who took the genius pills that day and knew exactly what to do, while karl rove told him how to do it. let's not blame him because he's such a great, genuine guy. let's not blame him for winning over kerry, who probably would have done the same thing, in the same way, even though the right made him out to be some sort of flip floppy freak of politcal nature. let's not blame either of them because they are made from the same slippery ingredients.
let's blame the left because their ideas go overboard most of the time. let's blame the people who know everything because they watch fox or listen to michael moore or listen to people who hate michael moore. let's blame everyone who voted for bush because they're too scared to allow someone else to try something different. let's blame the right because their ideas are only right because they say they are. let's blame the terrorists because they're the ones that flew planes into the WTC. let's blame the corporations that suck saudi cock. let's blame clinton for the recession. let's blame kerry for voting for some more money to go towards the war in iraq before he voted against it. let's blame the UN for bending over while america said you like that?! let's blame hans blix because he is the one that knew there weren't WMD's in iraq before bush or his cabinet ever said there were. let's blame the french and the germans because they never sided with america in the war in iraq. let's blame george tennet for the bad CIA information. let's blame rumsfeld for the abu graib mess. let's blame the democrats for destroying their party and dividing the country. let's blame liberals because they don't have any good ideas and just like to whine about everything. let's blame cheney for convincing bush to reject the kyoto treaty. let's blame koch industries and cargill and enron and microsoft. let's blame everything on everyone else because it's easier than realizing and admitting that there's not a single person or a group to blame. it's easier than realizing and admitting that this might not be something anyone could have prevented, and it might be way bigger than any of us could ever imagine. let's just ignore the idea that all this unrest might be something we, as a people, can't control. the simplest ideas are usually the right ones. the further you go into it, the more complicated it becomes and the closer you get to understanding there is absolutely nothing anyone can fcking do about anything in the world, other than what happens in his/her own life. be good to yourself and too each other while enjoying it while it lasts instead of blaming everyone else for why you don't. it's not up to you.
there. I fucking said it. Just get over it. The world and its global society is in no place to "start a revolution" or "win the hearts and minds" of whatever group. We're all in the same boat and it doesn't matter who's at the helm; some are swabbing the deck in the cold rain and some are being fed grapes in the most luxurious inner-cabin, but we're all on the same ship. People are already starting to forget they gave up. People are already being born and raised naturally homogenized citizens of whatever americanized country they were born in without rebellious or inquisitive bones in their bodies. It's already begun and if anyone thinks that anything they say or do will stop it, they're trying too hard. it's not meant to be a fucking struggle. it's life. you're supposed to enjoy it. you're supposed to savor every little thing and make sure you're doing what you want to do in the best way you know how, regardless of the environment. the human individual is nothing to be quashed. don't connect yourself to the rest of them. you are you and finding where you fit in with the rest of them is how you adjust to being generous and kind; it's how you adjust to the laws of nature at this place and this time in this universe, being thrown into a carbon-based shell that is forced to interact with others just like you. you're not any more important than any of them, no matter how much other people assume they are more or less important than you. if you don't get that, i can't fucking help you and once a taker, always a taker. you'll never get it and when you're gone, some part of me will still be here to forget you.
the world of politics has become a front for the progression of making everyone on earth equal, less the oligarchy which has been there since civilization began in the fertile crescent and will always be there until something unthinkable happens. even war is political at this point. terrorists have always existed. it's just that now, they're used as political pawns in the restructuring process of destroying the singular entity of america and replacing it with worldwide americanization. believe it or not, we all participate, no matter what you want to think. even if you're a hermit in the backwoods of Saskatchewan, you are one less person that is making more room to fill in that space with exactly what you're trying to avoid. you may resist. you may even die resisting, but the truth is, in my mind, if you occupy space, you're part of it. The world is a big place. Big enough for human nature to maneuver things around to meet the needs of this inevitable progression.
I don't hate the politicos or the corporations or the elite. I used to. But hating them would be hating myself, which is toxic.
I ordered a coffee pot and grinder just a week or two ago and got it within one or two business days. It was a good deal, delivered straight to me in nice fancy packaging. I pulled it out of the box and it was new and black and shiny. It smelled like a factory. I stared at it and ran my fingers over it thinking of how lucky I am that I can literally click some buttons and poof! shiny new-fandangled objects show up at my door for me to use as a consumer. I am a consumer. And sometimes little things like that make me feel guilty. As if I'm too self-indulgent to deserve such convenience or luxury. I said this outloud. bw said, "why?! don't be!" It dawned on me that he's right. Why feel guilty? I sometimes let myself connect too much and that's what happens. this is MY existence. Consumer or not, this is what I am, here and now and I'm going to enjoy this while it lasts. that's my purpose. to enjoy. and bw is the main instrument of this purpose.
and my next entry will be about him. it is his birthday after all.
Firstly, everyone keeps asking why bush has been re-elected. The Mirror printed a cover that asked how so many people could be so dumb.
I don't know the answer to that, but I will say this (again): people aren't dumb. They're trained. They're being conditioned. They're being prepared for the future, which is something that I don't necessarily look forward to, as an earthling. But at the same time, it is inevitable for me to have hope and be excited to see how things will be when I am 30, 40, 50, 60, etc. I am morbidly excited. If you're familiar to some of my rhetoric on what I think about the earth and human beings, you know that I have a pretty firm grasp on what's probably going on. I say probably not because I know, but because something is inside of me that gives me a certain sense of what's going on. I'm not a godly or religious person. I just like puzzles.
It blows my mind that in the period of just a few years, my beliefs have gone from corner to corner to corner and now that things have boiled for a while and risen to the top, it's actually quite simple. Here's what I say to people who have political vitriol or are giddy with victory, after everything that's happened in the last couple days, and beyond that, the last couple years...here's what I say to anyone who gets upset about what's going on - whether they be conservatives who are STILL little bitches for whatever reason even though they possess the power, or liberals who are pissed off at the conservatives for abusing that power:
So, the country (hell the world) is fcked, but let's not blame the president whose family helped and who personally helped to escalate the fcking. let's not put the blame all on him because he's such a great president who's doing what any idiot politician in their right mind would do in the same situation. let's not blame him because when 9/11 happened, he didn't, as david cross puts it, lock himself in a hotel room somewhere, run to the corner with a bottle of booze screaming i don't know what to do?! what am I gonna do?! let's not blame him because he's the one who took the genius pills that day and knew exactly what to do, while karl rove told him how to do it. let's not blame him because he's such a great, genuine guy. let's not blame him for winning over kerry, who probably would have done the same thing, in the same way, even though the right made him out to be some sort of flip floppy freak of politcal nature. let's not blame either of them because they are made from the same slippery ingredients.
let's blame the left because their ideas go overboard most of the time. let's blame the people who know everything because they watch fox or listen to michael moore or listen to people who hate michael moore. let's blame everyone who voted for bush because they're too scared to allow someone else to try something different. let's blame the right because their ideas are only right because they say they are. let's blame the terrorists because they're the ones that flew planes into the WTC. let's blame the corporations that suck saudi cock. let's blame clinton for the recession. let's blame kerry for voting for some more money to go towards the war in iraq before he voted against it. let's blame the UN for bending over while america said you like that?! let's blame hans blix because he is the one that knew there weren't WMD's in iraq before bush or his cabinet ever said there were. let's blame the french and the germans because they never sided with america in the war in iraq. let's blame george tennet for the bad CIA information. let's blame rumsfeld for the abu graib mess. let's blame the democrats for destroying their party and dividing the country. let's blame liberals because they don't have any good ideas and just like to whine about everything. let's blame cheney for convincing bush to reject the kyoto treaty. let's blame koch industries and cargill and enron and microsoft. let's blame everything on everyone else because it's easier than realizing and admitting that there's not a single person or a group to blame. it's easier than realizing and admitting that this might not be something anyone could have prevented, and it might be way bigger than any of us could ever imagine. let's just ignore the idea that all this unrest might be something we, as a people, can't control. the simplest ideas are usually the right ones. the further you go into it, the more complicated it becomes and the closer you get to understanding there is absolutely nothing anyone can fcking do about anything in the world, other than what happens in his/her own life. be good to yourself and too each other while enjoying it while it lasts instead of blaming everyone else for why you don't. it's not up to you.
there. I fucking said it. Just get over it. The world and its global society is in no place to "start a revolution" or "win the hearts and minds" of whatever group. We're all in the same boat and it doesn't matter who's at the helm; some are swabbing the deck in the cold rain and some are being fed grapes in the most luxurious inner-cabin, but we're all on the same ship. People are already starting to forget they gave up. People are already being born and raised naturally homogenized citizens of whatever americanized country they were born in without rebellious or inquisitive bones in their bodies. It's already begun and if anyone thinks that anything they say or do will stop it, they're trying too hard. it's not meant to be a fucking struggle. it's life. you're supposed to enjoy it. you're supposed to savor every little thing and make sure you're doing what you want to do in the best way you know how, regardless of the environment. the human individual is nothing to be quashed. don't connect yourself to the rest of them. you are you and finding where you fit in with the rest of them is how you adjust to being generous and kind; it's how you adjust to the laws of nature at this place and this time in this universe, being thrown into a carbon-based shell that is forced to interact with others just like you. you're not any more important than any of them, no matter how much other people assume they are more or less important than you. if you don't get that, i can't fucking help you and once a taker, always a taker. you'll never get it and when you're gone, some part of me will still be here to forget you.
the world of politics has become a front for the progression of making everyone on earth equal, less the oligarchy which has been there since civilization began in the fertile crescent and will always be there until something unthinkable happens. even war is political at this point. terrorists have always existed. it's just that now, they're used as political pawns in the restructuring process of destroying the singular entity of america and replacing it with worldwide americanization. believe it or not, we all participate, no matter what you want to think. even if you're a hermit in the backwoods of Saskatchewan, you are one less person that is making more room to fill in that space with exactly what you're trying to avoid. you may resist. you may even die resisting, but the truth is, in my mind, if you occupy space, you're part of it. The world is a big place. Big enough for human nature to maneuver things around to meet the needs of this inevitable progression.
I don't hate the politicos or the corporations or the elite. I used to. But hating them would be hating myself, which is toxic.
I ordered a coffee pot and grinder just a week or two ago and got it within one or two business days. It was a good deal, delivered straight to me in nice fancy packaging. I pulled it out of the box and it was new and black and shiny. It smelled like a factory. I stared at it and ran my fingers over it thinking of how lucky I am that I can literally click some buttons and poof! shiny new-fandangled objects show up at my door for me to use as a consumer. I am a consumer. And sometimes little things like that make me feel guilty. As if I'm too self-indulgent to deserve such convenience or luxury. I said this outloud. bw said, "why?! don't be!" It dawned on me that he's right. Why feel guilty? I sometimes let myself connect too much and that's what happens. this is MY existence. Consumer or not, this is what I am, here and now and I'm going to enjoy this while it lasts. that's my purpose. to enjoy. and bw is the main instrument of this purpose.
and my next entry will be about him. it is his birthday after all.