how come i can't just sleep like a normal person?

why does my mind always have to be moving at a million miles a minute?

why do i constantly doubt myself in any situation?

i'm going to try sleeping again.

( emotional sobriety )

Your crush may be turning into a 24/7 obsession. Sure, you're going to have to focus a lot on them if you want to win them over, but don't go overboard and slip into stalker mode trying to get them to notice you ( Read more... )

All the men I’ve touched. All the lives I’ve strolled through. All the children that have smiled at me for no reason. All the indecencies I’ve ever hated myself over. All the dirt I’ve splashed my toes through. All the grass I’ve pulled out of the ground. All the snow that melted on my warm body. All the dollars I’ve spent. All the words I’ve typed ( Read more... )

I come off as ridiculous sometimes. Ridiculously clear cut. If I want to say something, I will carve it into the bark of a tree or send off some electronic impulses giving you a glimpse. I thought about your mouth today when I sucked my tongue. I thought about your words when I laughed at something only a few of us think is funny. I smiled and when ( Read more... )

I wanted to be with you alone ( Read more... )

It's ridiculous, some of the things people go through just to have children. The actual process of manifesting one and then pushing it out, the care, the emotional trauma, etc. I mean, I understand why people do this, but I can't fathom doing it myself. I am a motherly figure, and I do think I could (and probably will) handle it at some point in my ( Read more... )

watching the lake turn the sky into blue green smoke...I heard the soles of my adidas feet crunching the packed snow below me, between the weight and the air. The scent was still in my hair, probably also left on his pillow. The familiarity of me still on his skin. Every squeeze or kiss is still remembered, as he pitter-patters around the apartment ( Read more... )

I feel so completely lost but I'm doing everything I should be doing. I'm paying my bills. I'm going to school (and I think I might like it??). I'm working. I'm slacking and having fun. I'm doing things. But I'm not really writing. I mean, I am writing, but I can't seem to focus on the heart of what's coming out. I mean, I guess I could be doing ( Read more... )

I'm laughing. really. some people think I'm fucking nuts. I guess I am for what I do. I guess I always was a pretty physical creature with a sick mind. But I can turn it on and off, and when I let loose, it runs wild. I shouldn't be so bold. Honestly. It's killing me, and potential friendships. I think one of my resolutions is going to be a little ( Read more... )