So there's a boy, he's been interested in dating me for a little while. I kinda avoided it because he was a little far away, and I just wasn't keen on that. Either way, I'd avoided it, and then for 3 months, I didn't have to worry, cos he didn't speak to me. And then out of the blue, he starts talking to me again, and starts to push the concept. In ( Read more... )

He's mean to me. Malicious. So much so, he's made me cry. But everyone else seems to like him.

The logical side of my brain says he's a dick who just knows how to pretend he's not.

The emotional side of my brain says clearly, I deserve it.

I hate my brain.

...you pissed me off...
...nearly ended our friendship...
...started innumerable arguments...

OVER A DIRECT DEPOSIT SLIP!?

I'm so glad I'm not a violent person.

So it's rare for me to genuinely love a pop song. Because I feel about pop the same way I feel about... well, pot. That is, yeah, it's fun, and exciting, but the joy is fleeting, and for all intensive purposes, artificial. And then, once in a while a pop song comes along that really stirs me. The ast one before this was "Close My Eyes" by Lasgo. To ( Read more... )

To the friends who stayed until I hurt them, or forced them to leave ( Read more... )

To do list ( Read more... )

"In this vast and endless world,
Drawing our own map,
And holding back our tears,
We'll continue on walking."

Wise words from a wise man.

Feeling a little better. Though still in the emotional ballpark of being hit by a truck. I feel like a dissapointment, mostly, and, well, unacceptible. I'm sure at some point down the line, I'll divulge the reasoning. For now, though, I just kind of want to log how I feel ( Read more... )

So I just spent an hour and ten minutes riding the train feeling the most horrible malignant ball of emotions tearing apart my insides. I spent the entire ride squirming uncontrollably. Fortunately, I maintained composure in public. As much as I enjoy to make a scene. Of course, I can't be too upset, because 90% of the emotion is my own damn fault ( Read more... )

So yesterday was pretty effing fabulous ( Read more... )