a breather?
so, whats new. well. we are on a "break"...so much has gone on in the past week, ive been crying, no eating, its rediculous...if you want the story...well, here it is... his 21st was this past monday, him n the guys went drinking, and i knew that, i also knew it might lead to a strip club, which it did, and he ended up onstage with the girls. upset...whatever, so i got over it once he agreed no more of it. then he says hes going out drinking like, the next week, when he says that its not gunna be a regular thing, so i feel like the guys are kinda making him into a new person, he had a new attitude towards me, didnt understand how anything was making me upset, wasnt trying to fix it like he would normally, right? so i get on the subject, he mentions he has to do what the guys say, they will be there for the next three years and make him miserable if he doesnt, which i understand the peer pressure thing, but i feel like they are going to eventually pressure him into something im not comfortable with, ya know? so i tell him that, he thinks i dont trust him, but infact i dont trust his friends who cheat on there WIVES...so we are on a break, not to mention, after that three years, who would be the one still by his side, the guys, or me?long story short....was i wrong? i want the truth guys its been killing me. even if i do go out, i am miserable, i dont want to be this way guys. but in public its like im worse off that if im at home by myself. i dont know what i want to do, but this isnt it. i have two choices, and i feel like hes pulling towards the worst, he just has givin up on me, and all i did was get upset over something. relationships are supposed to be equal, we are supposed to be able to both bend and work together to fix things, and he doesnt want to work with me. it hurts me so bad. god...what did i do? this is an emo post...friends only, he cant read it...other than that, my life has been pretty regular....end post...