Oh baby come close to meeeee
Im at the lie-berry and stuff. Stuff stuff stuff. My sister had the weirdest dream and its really been getting to me since she told me. I will explain it:
Soooo, my mom's dad killed himself (blew his head off and she found him) so suicide has always been an issue with her, and for the last 4 years, she's described to me all the ways she wants to kill herself and locked herself in her room so she could and all this other crap. Welll, when we were little my mom used to sing that song "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray; you'll never know dear, how much I love you, so please, dont take my Sarah away." I know its stupid, but she used to sing it before she lost her mind. And in my sister's dream, everything was in the dark (Im guessing this relates to how we've been in the dark about whether my mom's alive or not for a while) and she could hear someone singing that song, but she didnt know who. There was a small light and she kept walking towards it, and when she found it, it was my mom holding a candle, singing that song, and when she got done, she said "Good-bye" and blew her head off.
I know my mom is going to kill herself, especially since I had nearly the same dream the day before my sister, we pick up on stuff together before it happens. Its just only a matter of time...
This week: hanging out with Mr. Jason some day or another, prolly tomorrow (I'll call to confirm that, by the way) then hopefully seeing my dear Sharon.
Next Week: Josh's birthday, then him leaving FOR A MONTH to Chicago (now who will I have to bOne?!!?!) and then my summer courses start. Dont know what else, hopefully something interesting like a nuclear war or moose shaving.
Soooo, my mom's dad killed himself (blew his head off and she found him) so suicide has always been an issue with her, and for the last 4 years, she's described to me all the ways she wants to kill herself and locked herself in her room so she could and all this other crap. Welll, when we were little my mom used to sing that song "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray; you'll never know dear, how much I love you, so please, dont take my Sarah away." I know its stupid, but she used to sing it before she lost her mind. And in my sister's dream, everything was in the dark (Im guessing this relates to how we've been in the dark about whether my mom's alive or not for a while) and she could hear someone singing that song, but she didnt know who. There was a small light and she kept walking towards it, and when she found it, it was my mom holding a candle, singing that song, and when she got done, she said "Good-bye" and blew her head off.
I know my mom is going to kill herself, especially since I had nearly the same dream the day before my sister, we pick up on stuff together before it happens. Its just only a matter of time...
This week: hanging out with Mr. Jason some day or another, prolly tomorrow (I'll call to confirm that, by the way) then hopefully seeing my dear Sharon.
Next Week: Josh's birthday, then him leaving FOR A MONTH to Chicago (now who will I have to bOne?!!?!) and then my summer courses start. Dont know what else, hopefully something interesting like a nuclear war or moose shaving.