got up early today to go to the dr.'s and i couldnt even get into my appt..stupid people.. then i worked and when i left work my car wouldnt start cuz i left the lights on (way to go me..). So, the car sat there all day and then i spent the day with my mom. i swear to god she's got menopause cuz she has moodswings worse than before..then i went to ( Read more... )

stupid...... G... i really love people...

got up this mornin and went to work... only to find out i didnt have to work!! woo hoo! so i ran some errends and went home. my mom was in a good mood today! she got me and a friend (?) a free 2 week pass at the paradise springs place for working out. and if that god damn noodle bender doesnt send that money soon i'm gonna explode... let me tell ( Read more... )

so i went to finally get the dress today...1 step closer to prom..whew. then i changed the headlight on the pimpmobile which wasnt as hard as i thought it would be. Anna picked me up and we've been at her house since. My mom thinks I have court today(Thursday)..i dunno. I guess we're going to a party after prom...i hope it makes me feel better ( Read more... )

you know.. i feel so left out all the time, but i dont understand why. If i actually think about it, i'm not as left out as I feel i am... make sense? anyways..i haveta go shopping for prom which i'm not to excited about since I never got to go with the guy i wanted to..but i'll still do it cuz anna really wants to go and she's really lookin ( Read more... )

i feel as though i'm on the verge of going crazy...so much to fear..yet...i have nothing left to lose. i'm here.. but am i really. why dont i get noticed...it's as if i'm just a hinge. Everyday i seem to feel more empty and lonely... what to do.. what to do..???

~*Magically*~

yeah.. i dont even know anymore. about anything...or everything.. it's all fucked up. like a big blurb and i dont know what's to become of it, but hopefully something good. i need good right now. i do... today was another free day.it was nice to get out. yet,...too many thoughts occur in my mind all at once and it's scary... and these thoughts ... ( Read more... )

freedom for a day! i got to go to stephi and anna's. i got to see jesse!!! i missed him. I also hung out with Matt, James and his sister Beth. Nice people. Anna gave me 2 presents last nigt!I learned something new! haha ! Katie had a cow this morning and decided to ruin our day and future get togethers because she likes to torcher us and make ( Read more... )

grounded....
i feel so dead.. i have no life without my friends... so depressing...did i mention my mom is crazy? i shall carry on...

love....
me . . ....
~*magically*~

so.. lost... lets go back to the "reject" entry.... yea i dont understand guys ... i did something that i thought meant something, but i guess not...i dont know anything anymore... lost in confusion.... i seriously need to find myself... or then again maybe i just need to get completely lost....

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