the way things can change with such seemingly little time is impressive. even to me. and i'm the one that things have changed with. my feeligns. my friends. the realizations of life and that nothing will ever be the same, and no love will ever last after it's ending, and that no friend will truely be there forever. every waking moment- things are ( Read more... )

this is me. and i'm not sure what to say.

my life-
with jennifer.
at work.
getting drunk.

that's about all that's really been happening.
i cut candice off. hrm. got too close. waved at her as i drove by while i was in sanctuary today. that's it.

*falls over*

i miss my brother.

"i'm sorry i can't help you, i cannot keep you safe
i'm sorry i can't help myself, so don't look at me that wayi've been listening to slipknot since about 2pm. and then this popped in my head. forwhatever reason i always put songs to whatever is going on in my life. i think a lot of people do that ( Read more... )

i enjoy feeling like this. i feel completely fucking insaine, but it's nice.

to beable to fully feel every emotion on the spectum is nice.

i admitted some difficult things to myself recently. and then i admitted them to someone else. heh,. i grew a fucking sac. nothing will come of it i'm sure, but it feels damn nice for the time being.

Quickie ( Read more... )

"beat the pussy up, beat the pussy up"

I'M 20FUCKING1 BITCHES!!!!!

it's funny how one single night... no... a matter of a few short hours.. can completely turn things around. i got the best birthday present in the world and she doesn't even know it.

we're finally real friends.

don't call my name out your window i'm leaving.

i feel like a dirty who that's been left lying barely breathing in the floor of a dirty hotel bathroom. ooh.. gotta love this feeling.