Comments | magicpandadance: "And all the colors mix together to grey. And it breaks her heart..."

magicpandadance

"And all the colors mix together to grey. And it breaks her heart..."

Feb 05, 2003 21:13

So tired. I fight so hard, to almost, not quite, hold my life together. The center cannot hold. All this sweat blood tears. All for what. All i want is peace. All i want is to be done ( Read more... )

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mouse7384 February 6 2003, 00:20:23 UTC

You may not want to hear this right now but too bad!

I love you lots and lots and if I can't give up on life, I don't want to let you give up either. I know you are in lots more pain than I can ever imagine one person being in for a day let alone the rest of their life.
But I know I can't stop you from doing anything you have already set your mind to, and it would be unfair of me to try. All I want to do is continue being friends with you and be here when you need to talk or go hang out or anything.

There, I'm done. No need to comment on this, I just wanted you to know a piece of my thoughts as they are tonight after reading your LJ.

jasonwarlock February 6 2003, 03:43:06 UTC

As far as wanting people to hate you, I can't, I won't. And I won't apologize for the promise, even tho I can't fathom what you are going thru. I love you, and I don't think I could stop even if I wanted to.

cuddlycthulhu February 6 2003, 08:36:23 UTC

Well, you aren't going to get my hate, Panda, due to the fact I don't hate. Ha.

What you will get is what I've given you all along: love, respect, kindness, support, and sympathy.

Just remember to please check out the things we talked about. My world would be a darker place without you in it. That isn't some cliche bullshit, it's the honest truth.

-Ren

almus February 6 2003, 17:37:00 UTC

For the past 6 days, off and on (but more on than off) I have felt like there is a railroad spike through my right shoulder blade. at best it is like a dull throbbing, at worst it feels like a rod about an inch think has been pierced between the bones in my shoulder and is holding them wedged apart ( ... )

sylvan February 6 2003, 18:31:52 UTC

Honey, I am so sorry. I do love you and no I cannot imagine your pain and as sorry as I am to say it I think were I in your shoes I would have ended things long ago. However, there is always a chance they will find something, something that will help. I don't know what to say but I love you and I look forward to your visit where I will hug you a lot.

*huggles* balothejester February 6 2003, 20:06:19 UTC

All these friends have said things that I wish I had known how to form today. Thank you for being my best friend and for caring. Thank you for the times that I've seen you happy. Thank you for trying to find a reason in yourself.
I love watching you smile, hon. You are the single best friend I could ask for, despite all the hurts we've hit each other with.
I agree with Ren. This world would not be the same without Panda.
*hugz*
I hope we can see the field sometime soon.
I love you.