Mao, 2013-10-25
I thought this was going to be his last entry but then uhhh he posted another two more and I will get to those as soon as I'm done here. I'll be posting them in separate entries because I feel like each of his entries from now on will merit their own posts. [~hibimaosuki]
To everyone
Yesterday at 7pm, I was allowed to do a special broadcast on NicoNama.
And there, I got to talk about my future.
To those who watched despite being busy, thank you very much.
And to all the fans.
For making you feel worried and said,
I sincerely apologise.
There's no excuse for making such a sudden, serious announcement
I have a lot to do until February of next year,
after which I have decided to retire from entertainment.
I do have to apologise to everyone first,
for crying during the live broadcast.
I really just had to tell everyone
If I try to imagine the faces of everyone who left comments
For me, it made me think that everyone's coming from a tough viewpoint, and I didn't think my heart would hurt as I cried.
I'm really sorry.
About the announcement,
I don't want anyone to misunderstand
It doesn't in any way mean that I no longer want to be a performer.
I thought long and hard before coming to this decision.
And in that time, everyday I stressed over it, second-guessed myself so many times, and I decided that I didn't want to lie to myself about giving all my strength as an entertainer, so I fully commited myself to my work.
When I made this announcement,
The fans were as sad as I expected, huh?
I worried about that every day.
It pained me, I couldn't sleep, it continued every single day.
However, you only live once [1]
And I want to live it with no regrets,
I spent a lot of time thinking about it and as a result I came to a strong decision.
That is
To look beyond the world of entertainment, and study in various fields in order to boost my personal worth.
That's what I'm determined to do.
I already said this during the live broadcast, but
I don't regret this decision.
To everyone who was upset by this, I am very sorry.
I didn't do this announcement by blog
More accurately, I wanted to tell everyone with my own words, so I especially borrowed NicoNama.
And I'll face everyone with this time left, I wanted to make happy memories with everyone until the end, so this was the timing it became.
I'm sorry to those who were surprised or upset.
To the office who listened to my opinion, everyone on the staff, and all of the fans, I am truly grateful to you.
Everyone who I met through my jobs and my experiences, and more importantly
All the fans who have supported me since my debut, I definitely won't forget you.
All the days I spent with everyone, the many memories, everyone's smiles, support, and the presents and letters I received
They made me who I am. They're my treasures.
Next year, in February
The six years from when I was 16 years old until 22 years old, every single day I spent with everyone, I will thrive on all the memories.
The decision to go down a new road will be a tough one, and I know I have to exert more effort than I ever have before.
However, I'll take care to learn those things that I haven't been able to up to now.
I think that someday, I will again want to devote myself to being a better, wonderful person who can make everyone happy.
I still have work left to do until February.
Unrelated to this decision of mine, I want to work on this piece just as hard as I've done before.
And, the time I'll spend with everyone
This time I have left, for everyone
To be able to remember it as something happy
To laugh a lot, and to make memories, I want that to be my present to everyone.
For making you feel so many things, [2]
I deeply apologise.
I am sincerely very sorry.
Until February, douzo yoroshiku onegai itashimasu.
[1] OKAY I'M SORRY I was upset while translating and then I got to this part and I cracked up and all I could think of was "Mao did you say YOLO"
[2] And at this one I was like "... For making you FEEL ALL THE THINGS *insert meme here*"
To everyone
Yesterday at 7pm, I was allowed to do a special broadcast on NicoNama.
And there, I got to talk about my future.
To those who watched despite being busy, thank you very much.
And to all the fans.
For making you feel worried and said,
I sincerely apologise.
There's no excuse for making such a sudden, serious announcement
I have a lot to do until February of next year,
after which I have decided to retire from entertainment.
I do have to apologise to everyone first,
for crying during the live broadcast.
I really just had to tell everyone
If I try to imagine the faces of everyone who left comments
For me, it made me think that everyone's coming from a tough viewpoint, and I didn't think my heart would hurt as I cried.
I'm really sorry.
About the announcement,
I don't want anyone to misunderstand
It doesn't in any way mean that I no longer want to be a performer.
I thought long and hard before coming to this decision.
And in that time, everyday I stressed over it, second-guessed myself so many times, and I decided that I didn't want to lie to myself about giving all my strength as an entertainer, so I fully commited myself to my work.
When I made this announcement,
The fans were as sad as I expected, huh?
I worried about that every day.
It pained me, I couldn't sleep, it continued every single day.
However, you only live once [1]
And I want to live it with no regrets,
I spent a lot of time thinking about it and as a result I came to a strong decision.
That is
To look beyond the world of entertainment, and study in various fields in order to boost my personal worth.
That's what I'm determined to do.
I already said this during the live broadcast, but
I don't regret this decision.
To everyone who was upset by this, I am very sorry.
I didn't do this announcement by blog
More accurately, I wanted to tell everyone with my own words, so I especially borrowed NicoNama.
And I'll face everyone with this time left, I wanted to make happy memories with everyone until the end, so this was the timing it became.
I'm sorry to those who were surprised or upset.
To the office who listened to my opinion, everyone on the staff, and all of the fans, I am truly grateful to you.
Everyone who I met through my jobs and my experiences, and more importantly
All the fans who have supported me since my debut, I definitely won't forget you.
All the days I spent with everyone, the many memories, everyone's smiles, support, and the presents and letters I received
They made me who I am. They're my treasures.
Next year, in February
The six years from when I was 16 years old until 22 years old, every single day I spent with everyone, I will thrive on all the memories.
The decision to go down a new road will be a tough one, and I know I have to exert more effort than I ever have before.
However, I'll take care to learn those things that I haven't been able to up to now.
I think that someday, I will again want to devote myself to being a better, wonderful person who can make everyone happy.
I still have work left to do until February.
Unrelated to this decision of mine, I want to work on this piece just as hard as I've done before.
And, the time I'll spend with everyone
This time I have left, for everyone
To be able to remember it as something happy
To laugh a lot, and to make memories, I want that to be my present to everyone.
For making you feel so many things, [2]
I deeply apologise.
I am sincerely very sorry.
Until February, douzo yoroshiku onegai itashimasu.
[1] OKAY I'M SORRY I was upset while translating and then I got to this part and I cracked up and all I could think of was "Mao did you say YOLO"
[2] And at this one I was like "... For making you FEEL ALL THE THINGS *insert meme here*"