Glee 1x18 - probably a very slow and late observation
Still slowly going through my Glee season 1 BDs. So I got around to episode 18 "Laryngitis" today. Anyway, extremely late observation on the episode. I bet half of the fandom already saw this, like, back in spring, but I wanna put my thoughts down anyway.
"Just seeing you, the way you are with Finn... How easy it is... It breaks my heart."
I broke down and cried here. I never did before this. I mean, this episode was heart-breaking but it was never an episode to make me cry. But somehow I seem to have missed out on the double-meaning this episode has.
I've always thought this episode was more about Kurt wanting to be the perfect son for Burt but I just realized now that it was also showing how Kurt was jealous of his father for being able to bond with Finn a lot easier than Kurt could ever be. Not only was his father choosing Finn over him but Finn was also choosing Burt over Kurt. OTL Ouch man.
You see, I've always figured out that Kurt has given up on Finn ever since "Ballad"(1x10). Kurt's lines to Rachel in "Hairography"(1x11) pretty much emphasised(sp) on that. But wait, what about that whole pairing up Burt and Carole in "Home"(1x16)? You see, after finding out in season 2 that Kurt does know about Finn and Santana's fling in "Power of Madonna" (1x15), it kinda made sense why Kurt took drastic measures in 1x16.
Finn was slowly slipping off his hands, you see? After all that bonding in 1x10, Finn still chose another woman over Kurt. Add the fact that Finn never shared that bit of Santana with Kurt either. It shows that Finn still doesn't see Kurt as a close friend, and that's like a second heart-break for Kurt. Even if he couldn't get Finn as a boyfriend, Kurt still wants to be close to him, even as a friend or maybe a brother. I'm not sure if he ever thought as far as "brother" but either way, this was the start that got him to push Burt to Carole.
And instead, his father and Finn end up bonding with each other more than Kurt could ever bond with both of them. :( And realizing this just makes this episode so much sadder for me...
Or, I don't know, maybe I'm just being a bitter Finn/Kurt fan and seeing everything in that way everytime I rewatch season 1 now. OTL
"Just seeing you, the way you are with Finn... How easy it is... It breaks my heart."
I broke down and cried here. I never did before this. I mean, this episode was heart-breaking but it was never an episode to make me cry. But somehow I seem to have missed out on the double-meaning this episode has.
I've always thought this episode was more about Kurt wanting to be the perfect son for Burt but I just realized now that it was also showing how Kurt was jealous of his father for being able to bond with Finn a lot easier than Kurt could ever be. Not only was his father choosing Finn over him but Finn was also choosing Burt over Kurt. OTL Ouch man.
You see, I've always figured out that Kurt has given up on Finn ever since "Ballad"(1x10). Kurt's lines to Rachel in "Hairography"(1x11) pretty much emphasised(sp) on that. But wait, what about that whole pairing up Burt and Carole in "Home"(1x16)? You see, after finding out in season 2 that Kurt does know about Finn and Santana's fling in "Power of Madonna" (1x15), it kinda made sense why Kurt took drastic measures in 1x16.
Finn was slowly slipping off his hands, you see? After all that bonding in 1x10, Finn still chose another woman over Kurt. Add the fact that Finn never shared that bit of Santana with Kurt either. It shows that Finn still doesn't see Kurt as a close friend, and that's like a second heart-break for Kurt. Even if he couldn't get Finn as a boyfriend, Kurt still wants to be close to him, even as a friend or maybe a brother. I'm not sure if he ever thought as far as "brother" but either way, this was the start that got him to push Burt to Carole.
And instead, his father and Finn end up bonding with each other more than Kurt could ever bond with both of them. :( And realizing this just makes this episode so much sadder for me...
Or, I don't know, maybe I'm just being a bitter Finn/Kurt fan and seeing everything in that way everytime I rewatch season 1 now. OTL