Birthday?
My birthday is creeping up on me. I have to figure out what I want to do *headdesk*.
You know, I had thought that I was going to have these big huge plans for my next birthday that fell on Friday the 13th, however, this year I feel really unprepared and uninspired. For nostalgia almost I want to push myself to make some kind of decision... but really, I'm just not excited about the whole "birthday" thing this year. Not because I'm getting older or anything... but just because I haven't found the energy to put into it. I kinda don't really care in the moment (and haven't yet). But something tells me if I don't do anything I'll be disappointed with myself. Hell if I know.
My birthday falls on a Friday (obviously), my family wants to see me, everyone wants me to make decisions about what I'm doing for my birthday and make time for them when really I just want some peace and quiet lately. My life has been so busy, all I really want is mellow quiet town with no expectations. Besides... what could really top last year's birthday? That was the most precious thing ever.
So ultimately I have no freaking clue what I want to do. Right now it just feels like a big ball of expectation labeled a "special day" that currently I'd rather avoid.
You know, I had thought that I was going to have these big huge plans for my next birthday that fell on Friday the 13th, however, this year I feel really unprepared and uninspired. For nostalgia almost I want to push myself to make some kind of decision... but really, I'm just not excited about the whole "birthday" thing this year. Not because I'm getting older or anything... but just because I haven't found the energy to put into it. I kinda don't really care in the moment (and haven't yet). But something tells me if I don't do anything I'll be disappointed with myself. Hell if I know.
My birthday falls on a Friday (obviously), my family wants to see me, everyone wants me to make decisions about what I'm doing for my birthday and make time for them when really I just want some peace and quiet lately. My life has been so busy, all I really want is mellow quiet town with no expectations. Besides... what could really top last year's birthday? That was the most precious thing ever.
So ultimately I have no freaking clue what I want to do. Right now it just feels like a big ball of expectation labeled a "special day" that currently I'd rather avoid.