this is everything right now and this is who i am
okay now i've had it and i can't have bottled up inside anymore . it is ALL coming out now . im lora im from the philipines well my dad was but he died of cancer when i was seven years old . i didnt cry at the funeral . i live with my mom and grandma in a crappy neighborhood but i still love my house . YES i AM bisexual so please stop asking . im a virgin and i dont gove head and all that other bullshit sorry im not a ho . and i dont appreciate being called one . i dont PMS if im mad then im mad thats it . i have liked ramy for about five months . i never got over him even thoug i said i did i missed him like hell when i stopped talking to him and i cried every night about it . i finally decided today that i dont like him anymore and i seriously need to move on . tina LOVES him and i think he feels the same way about her . shes a great girl and hes a great guy but i can't waste my life on one guy who doesnt have any feelings about me . i DONT like myriah i think shes a spoiled brat and i have no problem telling her that . i have nothing against mexicans in general i just dont like guys who would marry a seven year old . to me, my best friend is amelia and i love her to death and would do anything for her but people we ARE NOT lesbians . and we've never done anything sexual together . chris adamski is GORGEOUS but i i dont like him . i dont even know him . im not a cutter . i have my reasons if i do but im not all like oh my god how about i cut myself for attention . yes i talked shit about alice when i found out ramy liked her last year but im over that and im really sorry bcuz i have gotten to know her and i was just jealous she is an amazing person . i support gays 100% all the way and if you have a problem with that then good for you and go fuck yourself . i broke up with josh bcuz i still liked ramy alot . i think nikki mayer has changed alot since the begining of the year and thats all im going to say about that . i've NEVER been interested in a guy with a girlfriend and if i was once i found out i'd get over it real fast just naturally . if i dont like someone i wont act all nice to their face i just wont talk to them or i'll tell them what i think to their face . i am hardly ever fake nice . i want a realationship that actually means something . i dont want a boyfriend just to have one . quefing makes me sick to my stomach when i even hear the word i think its the most disgusting thing ever . i am a poser . and so are you . yeah i have skateboarding shoes but i dont skateboard =/. i dont even know how to . if you ever see me at a skatepark its only bcuz im checking out guys . im not physically able to go on a diet for more than two weeks nd thats why ive gained 10 lbs. at amelias house . how gross . i'm not a true vegetarian and i hate myself for that but after two years i just had to start eating meat again . im sorry all of you animals . but i actually do eat soyburgers . i LOVE johnny rockets chocolate milkshakes and i go to the movies to have fun so that's why i dont appreciate being dragged into drama when i go . i used to puke after my meals alomost 6 months ago for about a month and a half until i started getting migraines and kept getting dizzy . and thats all bcuz people fucked up my brain and kept saying i was getting fat . shut the hell up no one should have to weigh 90 lbs. to be appreciated . im over any kinds of eating disorders i may have had . i dont need to impress anyone with my weight . i had a minor crush on brittany honn . minor and only for a short while . dark chocolate turns me on and so do tongue rings and skateboards andddd surfboards . i find it easier to talk to people online than on the phone . ive had 2 or 3 nervous breakdowns in my life and my parents arent the nicest people . im not telling anyone all this for sympathy i just want to inform and this all out . im obsessive and im emotional . i really really care about all of my friends so i get really upset when people who acted like my friends stop talking to me like rossi patrick brent amber ect; kyle mccleary has beatiful eyes and i think hes hilarious . i dont like anyone right now . i like doing yoga and i shop almost everywhere . im going to go meditate now and i hope i answered any question that could be asked for me. <3