Rabu Chuunyu [Chapter 23]
Title: Rabu Chuunyu [Chapter 23]
Author: makipat
Pairing: Yamajima, Chiitaro, YutoChii, YamaRyuu
Genre: Angst
Summary: Yamada Ryosuke has always thought of Yuto as his perfect prince, but what will happen if someone will come and take that throne away from Yuto?
“Yuri??”
‘What? Wait… Isn’t that nii-chan’s voice?? Nii-chan’s voice??... NII-CHAN!!??’
Ryutaro took his attention from the little boy who was crying in front of him to the tall white bed where a pair of eyes caught him staring. Finally! After weeks of waiting…
“N-nii-chan??” Even before he could move a muscle… he remembered!
Ryutaro hurriedly ran towards the phone near the patient’s bed and called for the doctor. His brother is wake… WIDE AWAKE!
The beeping sound of the phone engulfed the whole room in silence. Three pairs of eyes continued to glance at each other, cold wind was flowing in the air… and believe me it had nothing to do with the air-conditioning system.
“Nii-chan…” The youngest tried to approach the eldest boy inside the room but stopped mid-way when he saw the person he’s calling for glance at him with cold unreadable eyes.
“Yuri…” as if not hearing anything, the person laying on the white stiff bed continued to reach for the little one who’s trapped.
“Yuri… please…”
Chinen didn’t know what to do… Of course he wanted to come towards Yuto but the longing and coldness in the older one’s eyes kept him from doing it… He didn’t want Yuto to think that he’s the one Yuri’s been wanting to see these past weeks. He didn’t want Yuto to have a false idea about his real feelings… He didn’t want Yuto to keep hoping that their relationship would still be okay… No… Not when he isn’t the one Yuri wants.
“B-but…” His inaudible reply caught Ryutaro’s attention. He saw the latter glare before motioning him to come towards Yuto.
“Come here… beside me…” He sparkle in those eyes broke Chinen’s weak barrier. The chibi came towards Yuto, but made sure to keep a clear distance between him and the older.
“Go.” Chinen could read the words Ryutaro mumbled towards him… and it broke his heart more than it already was.
“H-how… are you, Yuto-kun?” At first his words were tied in his tongue but after a few deep breaths he was able to release a… perceptible sentence.
“Yuri…” Yuto held his hand up and tried ever so hard to hold Chinen’s hand, but with the distance between them… it really hurt him both physically and emotionally.
Chinen felt a sudden push behind him, he turned his head around… only to find Ryutaro motioning him to take Yuto’s hand. With that intense graze Ryutaro had on him, he couldn’t help but follow the guy’s instructions… and so there he was holding onto Yuto’s hand and sitting on the bed beside the older boy.
This silence never felt so deafening before… But the pain on his ears couldn’t compare to the hurt his heart is facing right now. Why?? Hadn’t he prepared himself enough for this? Wasn’t he the one who whole-heartedly tried to push the little guy away?? Why is it now… he wants to take the latter in his embrace once again…
‘Stupid heart… stupid me…’
‘Baka Ryutaro… You still love him… you never stopped’
“Excuse me, could you please step back for a second” His train of thoughts was stopped when he heard that familiar voice, it was their family doctor.
No more words needed from the doctor, he knew he wasn’t needed… he wasn’t wanted there. He bowed to him before leaving the room like nothing happened.
He kept walking until he reached the far end of the hallway where the emergency stairs were located. Unconsciously, he found himself seated at one level of the stairs with tears threatening to fall down his eyes. He wasn’t wanted there… it was only for the two of them… no need for a third one… no need for a troublemaker.
Was it this hard to forget him?? Was it this hard to stop loving him?? Was it this hard to see him in another’s arms and not yours??
‘Yes… the answer is yes, you idiot… and you are stupid enough to know it’
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Meanwhile…
“I would like a bunch of those, oji-san!” A chibi was currently inside a shop filled with colorful flowers with different shapes and sizes.
“Ok, anything for the little lady!” The old man smiled at him before doing to the back to pick up some fresh flowers.
“Mou… I’m not a girl” He knew no one could hear him at the moment but still he said it.
Yamada eyed the flower shop, he examined flower by flower and giggled whenever he was tickled by leaves and petals from somewhere. As he was waiting for the shop owner to come back, his mind drifted to what happened this morning… Ryutaro told him to rest but… he just couldn’t leave Yuto there, even with Ryutaro beside him… he just felt that… he should be with Yuto right now.
“Daffodil nee… Hope he realizes it soon nee~?” The shopkeeper smiled at him sweetly before continuing his task.
“Eh?” Obviously unaware of things… Yamada uttered.
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“Hmmm… at least I ate?” He was on his way to the hospital and for the nth time he had been thinking of silly excuses he will give Ryutaro once the cute hammie starts nagging him about going home.
“No... that’s not right… I already took a rest… Don’t you know that its Friday today huh, Ryutaro??”
“No… he will think I’m crazy and definitely drag me back home.”
Before he knew it, he was already standing in front the hospital’s main entrance, holding a bouquet of daffodils in his right hand and a definitely huge plastic bag full of sunflower seeds and spaghetti on the left one.
“Oh… he will hate me once he sees these sunflower seeds…” His mind debated on whether to throw it away or bring it inside.
“But he might like it… he’s a hamster at heart anyways… He will really kill m-” His words got interrupted when he saw Ryutaro ushering a man in a white suit outside of Yuto’s room.
“Wha-? What are they talking about??” Being the little sneaky eavesdropper he is, Yamada tried listen to the exchange of words happening before him but didn’t quite succeed because of the distance between them.
He saw Ryutaro bow down to the old man in white before proceeding inside the room. What was going on? Eager to know, he immediately stood up from his hiding place and walked briskly towards the door. He crossed paths with the old man on his way to the room, Yamada stopped his tracks before bowing slightly to him. He saw the other smile at him before disappearing to the other end of the hallway.
“Why the heck is he smiling??” he thought of things why the old man would smile at him but none of them even made sense.
“Probably, he has a crush on me… OH MY!! I’m not ready to be a mistress!!” With a mind like his… things are bound to get crazy.
“Hahahaha…”
“Eh?”
That melodious voice, he can hear it… That laugh, he remembers it all too well. It has always been the reason that he looks forward to living his boring life every day. It is the reason he keeps hanging… he keeps hanging on… just to hear that voice. Just to be with the owner of that voice for all eternity. He knows it very well… It’s his laugh of course… but how can he heart it? Isn’t the owner of that voice asleep? Isn’t he??
“No… he’s awake…”
“Yuto! My Yuto’s awake!!”
“Yuri…”
‘What? Yuri??’
“Thank you for taking care of me while I was asleep, Yuri.”
‘But… I was the one taking care of you…’
“I knew you would never leave me, Yuri. Thank you for always being there for me”
‘I was the one looking after you… he didn’t even visit you ever since you got hospitalized… It was all me, Yuto… Why can’t you see that??’
“I love y-”
The door was banged open… but the scene in front was not what he expected, in fact… it was the least he expects. There on Yuto’s bed was a porcelain faced chibi who looked lost, but the anger in Yamada’s eyes didn’t see it. He saw it as a mocking smile, the smile you give someone you betray… He hates it.
“Yamada-kun…” Yamada watched as the chibi tried to pry Yuto’s hand from him, but he didn’t pay attention to it he just glared at him… maybe that could help minimized the squirrel’s life.
“What are you doing here?” it was cold… It felt like a big slap had just landed of Yamada’s cheek.
“I-I came here… to see you.” It shouldn’t be like this, their meeting shouldn’t be like this.
“You think I want to see you??” maybe a slap was too little to describe how the chubby cheek boy feels.
“Nii-chan!” It was now Ryutaro’s turn to butt in… He could take it if it’s just his elder brother flirting with his lover… but with Yuto being so rude to the one that stayed beside him since the start… It already got into his nerves.
“What!!??? I’m just saying the truth! It’s not like I want to see him!” His heart was aching and he knew why… he was hurting someone he cared about a lot, someone he looks up to… someone he loves, but…
‘If you wanted to see me… why weren’t you here when I woke up… didn’t you know I was waiting?’
“I’m… I’m sorry” the sound of heavy footsteps was heard before the closing of the door silenced the life of the room.
“Look at what you did!!?” If his brother wasn’t lying on a hospital bed right now… he might’ve sent him to the Emergency room again. He took out his phone and threw it to Yuto. “Call him! Say you’re sorry!”
“I won’t say sorry… because he never deserved it…”
“You’re sick!! Why can’t you see his efforts!!?? He’s trying really hard to gain your trust back! To gain your love back!” His shouts made Yuto stiffen but he knew how hard his brother had become.
“He was always here! He was always here to look after you!! To tell you what’s happening in the outside world!” Ryutaro paused for a moment before rummaging the drawer of the left side of the bed. Once he spotted what he was looking for he turned to Yuto and threw the pieces of paper on his face. “He ever wrote notes for you because he thought that you will have a hard time adjusting to College!”
“…” Yuto was left speechless at the moment… he didn’t want… he didn’t know what to say.
“He loves you so much nii-chan… You’re so lucky to have him… So lucky that I’ve sometimes wished that you will never wake up because I know… You’ll just hurt him.”
“You’re stupid nii-chan…”
“And I will never get tired of telling you that… until you realize it.”
“But better hurry nii-chan… because like what I said… you’re lucky to have him…”
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
“Lucky… because I want him.”
A/N: OK! i'm sorry if i got it posted only today.... actually i started this right after the past chappie.... but....
LOOOOOONG~ weekends prevented me from opening my computer! too caught up on hanging out with my friends and family <3
i got insomia last night.... and this was the product of it -.-
but still hope you like it!
my exam starts tomorrow... so... i need to get some proper sleep by today!
OH!HOPE YOU LIKE THIS CHAPPE!
COMMENTS & CRITICS ARE LOVED <3
Author: makipat
Pairing: Yamajima, Chiitaro, YutoChii, YamaRyuu
Genre: Angst
Summary: Yamada Ryosuke has always thought of Yuto as his perfect prince, but what will happen if someone will come and take that throne away from Yuto?
“Yuri??”
‘What? Wait… Isn’t that nii-chan’s voice?? Nii-chan’s voice??... NII-CHAN!!??’
Ryutaro took his attention from the little boy who was crying in front of him to the tall white bed where a pair of eyes caught him staring. Finally! After weeks of waiting…
“N-nii-chan??” Even before he could move a muscle… he remembered!
Ryutaro hurriedly ran towards the phone near the patient’s bed and called for the doctor. His brother is wake… WIDE AWAKE!
The beeping sound of the phone engulfed the whole room in silence. Three pairs of eyes continued to glance at each other, cold wind was flowing in the air… and believe me it had nothing to do with the air-conditioning system.
“Nii-chan…” The youngest tried to approach the eldest boy inside the room but stopped mid-way when he saw the person he’s calling for glance at him with cold unreadable eyes.
“Yuri…” as if not hearing anything, the person laying on the white stiff bed continued to reach for the little one who’s trapped.
“Yuri… please…”
Chinen didn’t know what to do… Of course he wanted to come towards Yuto but the longing and coldness in the older one’s eyes kept him from doing it… He didn’t want Yuto to think that he’s the one Yuri’s been wanting to see these past weeks. He didn’t want Yuto to have a false idea about his real feelings… He didn’t want Yuto to keep hoping that their relationship would still be okay… No… Not when he isn’t the one Yuri wants.
“B-but…” His inaudible reply caught Ryutaro’s attention. He saw the latter glare before motioning him to come towards Yuto.
“Come here… beside me…” He sparkle in those eyes broke Chinen’s weak barrier. The chibi came towards Yuto, but made sure to keep a clear distance between him and the older.
“Go.” Chinen could read the words Ryutaro mumbled towards him… and it broke his heart more than it already was.
“H-how… are you, Yuto-kun?” At first his words were tied in his tongue but after a few deep breaths he was able to release a… perceptible sentence.
“Yuri…” Yuto held his hand up and tried ever so hard to hold Chinen’s hand, but with the distance between them… it really hurt him both physically and emotionally.
Chinen felt a sudden push behind him, he turned his head around… only to find Ryutaro motioning him to take Yuto’s hand. With that intense graze Ryutaro had on him, he couldn’t help but follow the guy’s instructions… and so there he was holding onto Yuto’s hand and sitting on the bed beside the older boy.
This silence never felt so deafening before… But the pain on his ears couldn’t compare to the hurt his heart is facing right now. Why?? Hadn’t he prepared himself enough for this? Wasn’t he the one who whole-heartedly tried to push the little guy away?? Why is it now… he wants to take the latter in his embrace once again…
‘Stupid heart… stupid me…’
‘Baka Ryutaro… You still love him… you never stopped’
“Excuse me, could you please step back for a second” His train of thoughts was stopped when he heard that familiar voice, it was their family doctor.
No more words needed from the doctor, he knew he wasn’t needed… he wasn’t wanted there. He bowed to him before leaving the room like nothing happened.
He kept walking until he reached the far end of the hallway where the emergency stairs were located. Unconsciously, he found himself seated at one level of the stairs with tears threatening to fall down his eyes. He wasn’t wanted there… it was only for the two of them… no need for a third one… no need for a troublemaker.
Was it this hard to forget him?? Was it this hard to stop loving him?? Was it this hard to see him in another’s arms and not yours??
‘Yes… the answer is yes, you idiot… and you are stupid enough to know it’
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
Meanwhile…
“I would like a bunch of those, oji-san!” A chibi was currently inside a shop filled with colorful flowers with different shapes and sizes.
“Ok, anything for the little lady!” The old man smiled at him before doing to the back to pick up some fresh flowers.
“Mou… I’m not a girl” He knew no one could hear him at the moment but still he said it.
Yamada eyed the flower shop, he examined flower by flower and giggled whenever he was tickled by leaves and petals from somewhere. As he was waiting for the shop owner to come back, his mind drifted to what happened this morning… Ryutaro told him to rest but… he just couldn’t leave Yuto there, even with Ryutaro beside him… he just felt that… he should be with Yuto right now.
“Daffodil nee… Hope he realizes it soon nee~?” The shopkeeper smiled at him sweetly before continuing his task.
“Eh?” Obviously unaware of things… Yamada uttered.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
“Hmmm… at least I ate?” He was on his way to the hospital and for the nth time he had been thinking of silly excuses he will give Ryutaro once the cute hammie starts nagging him about going home.
“No... that’s not right… I already took a rest… Don’t you know that its Friday today huh, Ryutaro??”
“No… he will think I’m crazy and definitely drag me back home.”
Before he knew it, he was already standing in front the hospital’s main entrance, holding a bouquet of daffodils in his right hand and a definitely huge plastic bag full of sunflower seeds and spaghetti on the left one.
“Oh… he will hate me once he sees these sunflower seeds…” His mind debated on whether to throw it away or bring it inside.
“But he might like it… he’s a hamster at heart anyways… He will really kill m-” His words got interrupted when he saw Ryutaro ushering a man in a white suit outside of Yuto’s room.
“Wha-? What are they talking about??” Being the little sneaky eavesdropper he is, Yamada tried listen to the exchange of words happening before him but didn’t quite succeed because of the distance between them.
He saw Ryutaro bow down to the old man in white before proceeding inside the room. What was going on? Eager to know, he immediately stood up from his hiding place and walked briskly towards the door. He crossed paths with the old man on his way to the room, Yamada stopped his tracks before bowing slightly to him. He saw the other smile at him before disappearing to the other end of the hallway.
“Why the heck is he smiling??” he thought of things why the old man would smile at him but none of them even made sense.
“Probably, he has a crush on me… OH MY!! I’m not ready to be a mistress!!” With a mind like his… things are bound to get crazy.
“Hahahaha…”
“Eh?”
That melodious voice, he can hear it… That laugh, he remembers it all too well. It has always been the reason that he looks forward to living his boring life every day. It is the reason he keeps hanging… he keeps hanging on… just to hear that voice. Just to be with the owner of that voice for all eternity. He knows it very well… It’s his laugh of course… but how can he heart it? Isn’t the owner of that voice asleep? Isn’t he??
“No… he’s awake…”
“Yuto! My Yuto’s awake!!”
“Yuri…”
‘What? Yuri??’
“Thank you for taking care of me while I was asleep, Yuri.”
‘But… I was the one taking care of you…’
“I knew you would never leave me, Yuri. Thank you for always being there for me”
‘I was the one looking after you… he didn’t even visit you ever since you got hospitalized… It was all me, Yuto… Why can’t you see that??’
“I love y-”
The door was banged open… but the scene in front was not what he expected, in fact… it was the least he expects. There on Yuto’s bed was a porcelain faced chibi who looked lost, but the anger in Yamada’s eyes didn’t see it. He saw it as a mocking smile, the smile you give someone you betray… He hates it.
“Yamada-kun…” Yamada watched as the chibi tried to pry Yuto’s hand from him, but he didn’t pay attention to it he just glared at him… maybe that could help minimized the squirrel’s life.
“What are you doing here?” it was cold… It felt like a big slap had just landed of Yamada’s cheek.
“I-I came here… to see you.” It shouldn’t be like this, their meeting shouldn’t be like this.
“You think I want to see you??” maybe a slap was too little to describe how the chubby cheek boy feels.
“Nii-chan!” It was now Ryutaro’s turn to butt in… He could take it if it’s just his elder brother flirting with his lover… but with Yuto being so rude to the one that stayed beside him since the start… It already got into his nerves.
“What!!??? I’m just saying the truth! It’s not like I want to see him!” His heart was aching and he knew why… he was hurting someone he cared about a lot, someone he looks up to… someone he loves, but…
‘If you wanted to see me… why weren’t you here when I woke up… didn’t you know I was waiting?’
“I’m… I’m sorry” the sound of heavy footsteps was heard before the closing of the door silenced the life of the room.
“Look at what you did!!?” If his brother wasn’t lying on a hospital bed right now… he might’ve sent him to the Emergency room again. He took out his phone and threw it to Yuto. “Call him! Say you’re sorry!”
“I won’t say sorry… because he never deserved it…”
“You’re sick!! Why can’t you see his efforts!!?? He’s trying really hard to gain your trust back! To gain your love back!” His shouts made Yuto stiffen but he knew how hard his brother had become.
“He was always here! He was always here to look after you!! To tell you what’s happening in the outside world!” Ryutaro paused for a moment before rummaging the drawer of the left side of the bed. Once he spotted what he was looking for he turned to Yuto and threw the pieces of paper on his face. “He ever wrote notes for you because he thought that you will have a hard time adjusting to College!”
“…” Yuto was left speechless at the moment… he didn’t want… he didn’t know what to say.
“He loves you so much nii-chan… You’re so lucky to have him… So lucky that I’ve sometimes wished that you will never wake up because I know… You’ll just hurt him.”
“You’re stupid nii-chan…”
“And I will never get tired of telling you that… until you realize it.”
“But better hurry nii-chan… because like what I said… you’re lucky to have him…”
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
“Lucky… because I want him.”
A/N: OK! i'm sorry if i got it posted only today.... actually i started this right after the past chappie.... but....
LOOOOOONG~ weekends prevented me from opening my computer! too caught up on hanging out with my friends and family <3
i got insomia last night.... and this was the product of it -.-
but still hope you like it!
my exam starts tomorrow... so... i need to get some proper sleep by today!
OH!HOPE YOU LIKE THIS CHAPPE!
COMMENTS & CRITICS ARE LOVED <3