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[malabaska]

love hurts

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[caitif]

but what would you or could you be without it?

[malabaska]

you'd be nothingness i supose. Cause love is life in my opinion

[malabaska]

but god damn it hurts like hell.

[caitif]

i agree.

but i think i'd be more unhappy if i felt nothing.

[onapersonalnote]

im sorry. but that reminded me of the scene in the wedding singer where adma sandler sings "love stinks"

[onapersonalnote]

maybe it was even adam sandler

[exit_abacus]

carl i agree that love is life. and love is so intense and things. i think it can fail insofar as it can succeed. in my experience love tends to compel me toward someone, and then compel me straight back to my self. and when i've made an emotional home in someone by being with them so much (like i'm always with my self), it hurts to have it taken away, because it's like i've invested my self in something that isn't me. and that in itself sets up potential to hurt. i think the please love brings is equal and opposite to the pain it can bring. and also, i guess part of that pleasure lies in the knowledge that love isn't absolute or 100% successful. i think any kind of love is about understanding the self. it is to me. that's what everything i life is. and it seems utterly insane, to me, to try to understand my self by exploring the world. i mean that, if love is a way to understand the self by being intimate with someone as much as i am intimate to my self, then i honestly have no idea why there is a rational reason as to why there are

[malabaska]

" and when i've made an emotional home in someone by being with them so much (like i'm always with my self), it hurts to have it taken away, because it's like i've invested my self in something that isn't me."

You took the thought straight out of my head. I understand that completley. And know it.

I wish i could write words like you can and eplain what i feel/think. But i cant. All i can say is i understand what you are saying. But i cant elaborate. Im sorry for that. I dont understand words. They dont make sense to me. But i feel(emotion) and i sense(touch, sight ect...) and i think thats all i need or want.

"and i sense" That goes hand in hand with my emotion and feeling.

I dont know if any of what i wrote makes any sense. If it doesnt im sorry.

[exit_abacus]

it does make sense. and if it doesn't, then it still does.
i think there's nothing i can say to refer to communication that you talk of which is beyond language, because it can't even be referred to with words.

[malabaska]

i exist.

[malabaska]

DELETE!