"She hate me"

[malaikhanh]

I'm returning one week from now to Amherst, after a year away. My first semester at home (taking classes at UMN) was pretty miserable; probably the worst five months of my life, if that says anything. (I even gained quite a bit of weight.) The funny thing is that when I think of it now, and particularly when I revisit music I listened to then, I

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[ducttapedance]

Comrade, I feel damned near wistful for many situations that were unpleasant or boring or difficult, etc. I think it probably means that those hard/boring/uncomfortable situations WERE meaningful, just not in the way you and me, idealistic schmucks, are conditioned, i guess, to think of them. For me, I don't literally LONG to be back in those obviously unhappy situations, I'm more.. proud I survived them and thankful they're over and that I have the memories to prove it. So if a more classically 'worthy-of-retrospective-sentimental-feelings' situation is one in which lovers walk hand-in-hand through a grassy field, a less likely one would be Andy walking aimlessly through hailstorms on the U of M campus/Rebecca careening wildly through the black people-filled parking lots of East New York, naked. And whereas the lovers-and-fields memory makes us lonesome for our erstwhile lovers, innocence, greenery, etc; the ostensibly unpleasant situation makes us, maybe, not sentimental for the situation itself but happy we survived it. Maybe. This