I'm in agreement with a lot of how you think... but from a different perspective, as I've said before. I have such a firm conviction (awareness might be a better term) that there is another life and that it's better than this one that any time anything good happens to me, I find myself thinking, "And Heaven is better!" This means that I'm not seeking to live a long time. Life, as in "this mortal life" is not something I'm hanging on to
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I really didn't mean it to come off that harsh. ^_^;
I am sorry that he is gone. I didn't like him much, but he was still my brother. I would have helped him with anything I could have. Unfortunately, like I said, I didn't really know him, and about the only times he would bother to contact me is when he wanted to complain about things, so I can't really say that engendered any type of closeness. Hearing that he had passed on was more like hearing that some 2nd cousin you saw maybe once every 3-4 years had died. You're sorry to hear it, but it just doesn't have the same impact that someone that's been part of your life nearly every day for years and years would have. I feel more for my dad than anything else. He's had to outlive his wife and one of his four kids, and has had his only daughter as much as say she doesn't want anything to do with the family. I feel worse for my dad than anything else. :/
I agree. I grew up the son of a preacher, and I've noticed that that causes one of two things to happen (from observing other PKs, and my own family)...either you totally rebel against the whole concept, or you end up with a very solid faith.
My termerament is an odd beast. I have the utmost belief in my friends, and often inspire them to have hope in their own lives. Myself...well, I think a lot of it is self-worth issues, but personally I can't seem to have much hope in myself. ^_^; This being a big reason I don't want to find anyone to "share my life with". I don't want to be around myself 75% of the time, I certainly wouldn't want to saddle anyone I actually cared about with me. ^_^;;
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It didn't really shake me up too badly, but I worry for Dad.
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I am sorry that he is gone. I didn't like him much, but he was still my brother. I would have helped him with anything I could have. Unfortunately, like I said, I didn't really know him, and about the only times he would bother to contact me is when he wanted to complain about things, so I can't really say that engendered any type of closeness. Hearing that he had passed on was more like hearing that some 2nd cousin you saw maybe once every 3-4 years had died. You're sorry to hear it, but it just doesn't have the same impact that someone that's been part of your life nearly every day for years and years would have. I feel more for my dad than anything else. He's had to outlive his wife and one of his four kids, and has had his only daughter as much as say she doesn't want anything to do with the family. I feel worse for my dad than anything else. :/
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My termerament is an odd beast. I have the utmost belief in my friends, and often inspire them to have hope in their own lives. Myself...well, I think a lot of it is self-worth issues, but personally I can't seem to have much hope in myself. ^_^; This being a big reason I don't want to find anyone to "share my life with". I don't want to be around myself 75% of the time, I certainly wouldn't want to saddle anyone I actually cared about with me. ^_^;;
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I do like the idea of you being a samurai of ancient Japan, though. Seems to fit.
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Aside from that whole 'killing peasants on a whim' thing. c_c
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