So The Bastard and I spoke ( Read more... )

I worry about him when i dont talk to him... i get sick to my stomach... that familiar sickness. but when i get done talking to him... the worrie subsides only for a moment. ant i'm sick still. I'm so scared of watching someone i love be killed slowly. I try to say to myself all day that the only thing that matters is that he's ok. and yes thats ( Read more... )

Well here we are in LJ land... it's been too long. i find that i run to this little blog of mine whenever i'm breaking down.. i guess myspace is my place for happy blogs and LJ is my place to hurt and write about what i feel. and you probably guessed it... it's more sorrow for my heart... but this time it's not B. Thats a step in the right ( Read more... )

A song for you Mytch. I dont know how you kept him so long... god knows you didnt deserve him... no never did. I should have done more... but now you've done it yourself... and in doing so you have caused me so much pain, i hate even admitting that you hurt me... it makes me sick to think about it. But the fact is you held or did hold Kalebs heart ( Read more... )

So here it is, one of those "shout out Blogs" but i dont fucking care because i feel that right now my friends and the people i care about in my life deserve something. at the very least, kind words about my feelings and what I think ( Read more... )

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So yeah i've been hiding away from reality for a week now... not ok but sometimes shit happen. my father cheated on my mother.... my perfect family picture is no longer. my perfect example of love and devotion is no longer... i'm confused and dont really know what to feel or say or think. i think i need brandon time... now i just have to stop being ( Read more... )

Tonight My Heart Was Broken... By The One Person In My Life That I Thought Could Never/Would Never....

I Think I Lost My Father Tonight.

This Cant Be Happening To Me.... But It Is

J

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