*notice* this is to post some bad stuff out of me, so I can get on with my day.
the following is a selfish get the depressed crap out of my system post, so I can stop crying and go to work like I have the confidence I bullshit the world with most of the time. Please disregaurd whats behind the cut if you dont want to read my emo crap...thanks..
I get the news another aunt died last night. thats 3 of my moms siblings in the last 11 months. that generation is almost gone. my mom and my uncle carl. this is the aunt that kinda substituted for not having a grandma growing up. I still love her dearly. I should be ok today, suck thing is work doesnt do breavement for aunts, just moms and dads. so im gonna miss another day this week. my dad is in PT for shoulder surgery, my remaining uncle is doing chemo for prostate cancer, my aunts widower, my uncle john, hes in really bad shape. all this the week before everyone gets together before christmas. I think this could be the back breaker that is gonna stop family get-togethers once and for all. Well, I should have known it would happen. The only thing gonna keep us all tied now is how stubborn my sister gets about taking up the job of the holidays and going on with it. she already took on thanksgiving, and her house is no where near big enough. not the kinda way to start a dreary day like today.
not the way to start the holiday homestretch.
had to get it out of my system, had to just say it.
If your still reading im sorry for the emo, if you see me in the next week, and im ok, im not. Just smile, go on, and let me put this behind me too. I kinda wanted to be a bit more ready for this, but ya know...looks like lifes back to kicking me in the gonads again. bout time. let me get comfortable so I can enjoy the rain...
me.
I get the news another aunt died last night. thats 3 of my moms siblings in the last 11 months. that generation is almost gone. my mom and my uncle carl. this is the aunt that kinda substituted for not having a grandma growing up. I still love her dearly. I should be ok today, suck thing is work doesnt do breavement for aunts, just moms and dads. so im gonna miss another day this week. my dad is in PT for shoulder surgery, my remaining uncle is doing chemo for prostate cancer, my aunts widower, my uncle john, hes in really bad shape. all this the week before everyone gets together before christmas. I think this could be the back breaker that is gonna stop family get-togethers once and for all. Well, I should have known it would happen. The only thing gonna keep us all tied now is how stubborn my sister gets about taking up the job of the holidays and going on with it. she already took on thanksgiving, and her house is no where near big enough. not the kinda way to start a dreary day like today.
not the way to start the holiday homestretch.
had to get it out of my system, had to just say it.
If your still reading im sorry for the emo, if you see me in the next week, and im ok, im not. Just smile, go on, and let me put this behind me too. I kinda wanted to be a bit more ready for this, but ya know...looks like lifes back to kicking me in the gonads again. bout time. let me get comfortable so I can enjoy the rain...
me.