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[malicexangel]

its been 6 monthes
i am no longer happy
i dont feel special anymore
im still faking a smile
i still think about her all the time
most people probably think im fine
the truth is im depressed.
and i dont like it.

Comments

[infernalxblood]

being depressed its not cool at all... i go through little phases of it and i dont like it one bit. i know you dont talk to me much about your problems and thats cool, i understand. i know how much you love her and how hard it is to be without her, and honestly i dont know what to tell you. i dont wanna say anything wrong to make it worse. all i can say is keep your head held high... and sooner or later good things will come your way. its not going to be like this forever. i know you talk to bethany alot about your problems... and if you ever need another person to vent to or talk to about anything, im here for you. i'll listen and help you any way i can. =)

[malicexangel]

im always bad when it comes to talking to people about my feelings. its nothing against you or anyone. theres like 2 people... well 3 if you consider her... that i feel comfortable talking about my feelings to. and those people are bethany and briana. i dunno just hate talking about my feelings cuz then i get all emotional next you know theres tears in eyes and i lose my words.

[infernalxblood]

i know i totally understand. im the same way... only, the only person i feel comfortable talking about my feelings is with bethany... and when those feelings involve me and her its even harder. the reason i dont talk to anyone else about my feelings is cause for some reason i feel like a retard and that im over thinking things or something. and one of the biggest things that has hit home for me, is all of a sudden she is seriously considering moving to Oceanside. i mean yea thats a hell of alot better that illinois but still pretty far...

but anyways i have no idea how my feelings came into this convo... lol

[malicexangel]

yea i hear yah about the feeling like a retard or stupid. its just hard to fnd someone who can completely understand what youre trying to say. most people just take what they hear but can never see it the way you see it through your eyes. who knows tho.