It's strange. My life is near-perfect right now. I'm fairly stable financially, John is here and that's all wonderful... my class schedule is nice and light. I have lots of free time
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I usually find that those kind of feelings are a sign of impending depression. Sadly, I also tend to find that this happens to me just when things seem to be at their best. Perhaps I am just perverse.
You seem to be on the ball. I laid in bed after writing this one, just kind of staring at the ceiling... and just started feeling -sad-. Not even really thinking sad thoughts. I ended up crying, and John reminded me that the whole boredom/ennui thing is often just mild depression with me.
It was easy to pinpoint depression back when it was crushing and made me suicidal. I just forget sometimes that it still affects me, and I'm -not- normal even if I really want to be.
I'm a bit of an idiot. John also mentioned he thought I had depression, but I sort of ignored him.
I'm used to thinking of depression as, "That thing that makes you cry and feel miserable," not, "That thing that makes you get bored with everything." You know? I'm not used to depression being /mild/.
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It was easy to pinpoint depression back when it was crushing and made me suicidal. I just forget sometimes that it still affects me, and I'm -not- normal even if I really want to be.
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It's a classic symptom of depression.
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I'm used to thinking of depression as, "That thing that makes you cry and feel miserable," not, "That thing that makes you get bored with everything." You know? I'm not used to depression being /mild/.
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