confused doesn't even begin to describe it....
Can I just take back everything I said these past few days about my situation with Zach? …confused should be my middle name. So after not hearing from him all week I assumed that meant he didn’t want to continue our relationship, I pretty much wrote him off. Part of my problem. I make decisions too quickly sometimes. I am the nicest person and most trusting, but I can immediately write you off and move on. Which is exactly what I did with Zach. Friday night around 10:30 I get a text from his roommate asking for me and Jess to come over… I of course said no considering all that occurred (or all that did not occur) between myself and Zach. He said that his phone had broke….. I pretty much thought whatever, and went about my night.
Well come Saturday morning I get a call from a number and guess who it is? Zach. I guess his phone did completely break and he couldn’t get anything off his phone. He got my e-mail address from his mom, but my internet has been down since Thursday, so I hadn’t been able to access it, including his e-mail. He didn’t know that his roommate had my number until Saturday morning when he mentioned it to him.
So he came over last night, and of course it was wonderful. We rented a movie, and made some dinner. Talked a bit and fell asleep in each others arms on the couch. Sunday morning we woke up and he made me some tea. And then I made breakfast while we sat and listened to the radio and he read the newspaper. He even made plans for Valentines Day with me. We are going to drive up to the coast Early Saturday morning, and then stay the night at his parents where he wants to cook a valentines dinner, and drive home on Sunday. Later today we ran some errands, and he is now at his friends for a super bowl party. He mentioned that we should do something later on tonight… I got a bit clingy only because he has said once or twice before that we would do something later that night… and he never called. So I said “what time will you be done so I can plan my day?” and what not…. Partly because it really irritates me when someone says they will call and doesn’t, and because I am a planner. I like knowing the days event. He responded with “just do what you have to do.” He said that he would text me later…. I don’t mean to be clingy I am just a planner, and if someone says that they will call, clearly I expect them to call. Whatever though, I have a ton to do today, and if he calls than he does, hopefully he does, and of course I’m going to look a bit forward to it, and expect it…. But I also have a lot to do today.
So yea…. Not really seeing Eric, he still needs time to get everything together. Which is understandable. His birthday is next week, and we are spending the day together and I’m cooking him a birthday dinner…. I don’t know.
And then Zach and I are making plans for the upcoming weeks.
I need to figure out things. The things about Zach that I never really liked (he parties too much) without me even mentioning my dislike for it… he wants to stop so much, and do other things.
Make a pro and con list of each guy? I’ve always loved Eric, but there is just something about Zach that I am just so connected to….