i just cracked open my third redbull today. i think i need help. i hardly feel it.

it's always something.
money
or my job
or my family
even my friends.....

i just wan't one whole week where i don't have anything to worry about. a whole week where i feel i did everything i needed to. even a whole week where i just feel happy each day. is that all so much to ask for?

i started working out again. i really need to stick with this if my plan is ever going to work. this means a number of things ( Read more... )

back to the grind. the grind of life.

lets see how long this works.

tomorrow should be interesting. a reunion of sorts. i'm nervous and excited all at the same time.

sometimes i really thin i need to be therapy. i've spent the last 21 years trying to figure out how to deal with my emotions and how to not let them over power me at a time of weakness are anger. i either blow up or fall into hysterics. it's never a nice even discussion or argument. im always so extreme about it, but i dont know how to stop. i don' ( Read more... )

just a few more days and this will all be over.
i wish i could close my eyes and wake up 3 days from now.
life would be easier.

moving home brings on so much uncertainty about the next year.
i thought i had it all figured out ... but my life just keeps shifting.

i hate this never ending desire i have to lose weight.
i just want to be happy with how i look for once.

those three words shook my world for a few short hours.
i hate stress.

3 weeks is a really short period of time.
i'm a little scared.
can someone please just find my a well paying job and a cute apartment?

i wish the decisions i've made in the past few weeks could have just ended at that.
i was just offered a really good promotion at work and i dont know if i should take it. i'm not sure if its worth not moving home for. it would be a lot more money and it would be a way better position. i had this.