being free, kangin/leeteuk
i'm debating whether to post this up on miracle______ or not. i don't really like it that much but ehhh. idk. lol nvm.
being free / 596 words
rating: pg
pairing: kangin/leeteuk
warning: run-on sentences and complete lack of capitalization and proper punctuation, probably. i'm sick, so forgive me.
when they kissed, it was usually with a sense of urgency. it was rushed and passionate, because who knew who could come around the corner at any given time and catch them red handed? it was a thrill, one they thrived in, but at the same time, they both longed for some time alone so they wouldn't have to steal kisses behind a pillar or a specially made set for their performance later that night. leeteuk, surprisingly, was the first one to get tired of it, so kangin was at a loss of what to do. their kisses which before had been as long as possible, as romantic and good as possible were now reduced to quick pecks and barely exchanged words of 'i love you' and 'i miss you'. now, there was nothing of that and kangin felt an ache in his chest he'd never thought he'd ever feel. he chose not to say anything though, because this wasn't meant to last in the first place. they'd kissed randomly one night when they'd both needed comfort from their solitude and the stress of being an idol, and from that there had evolved love. it had never been a love at first sight thing, but they'd grown over time as good lovers do.
but it wasn't meant to last. it wasn't.
the glances donghae gave them once in a while were unnerving, because they knew he knew but chose not to tell. in a way, they were both thankful but on the other hand, they wanted that relieffreedom where they wouldn't have to mess around in broom closets and make-up rooms. there was a limit to how much they could take and apparently, leeteuk's limit had already been reached.
kangin pulled him aside one day, trapping him against the wall of their dorm where everyone had just popped out to the store leaving them alone. "jungsoo," he'd started, those big brown eyes of his searching his leader's face for something, anything because all he'd gotten for the past few months was emptiness.
"what." he'd asked, obviously annoyed and kangin was tired of it.
because kangin had never been someone who was good with words, his actions usually spoke louder than anything he would ever say. his lips pressed against his leader-no, lover's-lips and this time, he didn't care whether his bandmates were bursting through that door a second later, he concentrated fully on the person who'd captured his heart in front of him and poured as much of his love and his desperation into the kiss as he could, trying to recapture that fluttering feeling he'd get whenever leeteuk kissed him like that.
at first, leeteuk hadn't been responding out of shock - because they had never kissed in the dorm, it was too risky - but it only took a well placed nibble to get him to moan softly and give in to the sensation, risks be damned.
it was only later when donghae had burst though the door with an accusing 'AHA!' had they broken their kiss and stared at him being dragged away by ryeowook and sungmin who were mumbling something about 'leaving the parents alone'.
they'd smiled at each other, warm and gentle and kangin felt that funny little flutter in the pit of his stomach as leeteuk's arms wrapped around his neck slowly, intimately and pulled him down for another one of those kisses he'd missed so much.
maybe it wasn't meant to last, but kangin was going to make damn sure they'd make the most of it while it did.
being free / 596 words
rating: pg
pairing: kangin/leeteuk
warning: run-on sentences and complete lack of capitalization and proper punctuation, probably. i'm sick, so forgive me.
when they kissed, it was usually with a sense of urgency. it was rushed and passionate, because who knew who could come around the corner at any given time and catch them red handed? it was a thrill, one they thrived in, but at the same time, they both longed for some time alone so they wouldn't have to steal kisses behind a pillar or a specially made set for their performance later that night. leeteuk, surprisingly, was the first one to get tired of it, so kangin was at a loss of what to do. their kisses which before had been as long as possible, as romantic and good as possible were now reduced to quick pecks and barely exchanged words of 'i love you' and 'i miss you'. now, there was nothing of that and kangin felt an ache in his chest he'd never thought he'd ever feel. he chose not to say anything though, because this wasn't meant to last in the first place. they'd kissed randomly one night when they'd both needed comfort from their solitude and the stress of being an idol, and from that there had evolved love. it had never been a love at first sight thing, but they'd grown over time as good lovers do.
but it wasn't meant to last. it wasn't.
the glances donghae gave them once in a while were unnerving, because they knew he knew but chose not to tell. in a way, they were both thankful but on the other hand, they wanted that relieffreedom where they wouldn't have to mess around in broom closets and make-up rooms. there was a limit to how much they could take and apparently, leeteuk's limit had already been reached.
kangin pulled him aside one day, trapping him against the wall of their dorm where everyone had just popped out to the store leaving them alone. "jungsoo," he'd started, those big brown eyes of his searching his leader's face for something, anything because all he'd gotten for the past few months was emptiness.
"what." he'd asked, obviously annoyed and kangin was tired of it.
because kangin had never been someone who was good with words, his actions usually spoke louder than anything he would ever say. his lips pressed against his leader-no, lover's-lips and this time, he didn't care whether his bandmates were bursting through that door a second later, he concentrated fully on the person who'd captured his heart in front of him and poured as much of his love and his desperation into the kiss as he could, trying to recapture that fluttering feeling he'd get whenever leeteuk kissed him like that.
at first, leeteuk hadn't been responding out of shock - because they had never kissed in the dorm, it was too risky - but it only took a well placed nibble to get him to moan softly and give in to the sensation, risks be damned.
it was only later when donghae had burst though the door with an accusing 'AHA!' had they broken their kiss and stared at him being dragged away by ryeowook and sungmin who were mumbling something about 'leaving the parents alone'.
they'd smiled at each other, warm and gentle and kangin felt that funny little flutter in the pit of his stomach as leeteuk's arms wrapped around his neck slowly, intimately and pulled him down for another one of those kisses he'd missed so much.
maybe it wasn't meant to last, but kangin was going to make damn sure they'd make the most of it while it did.